
Aramenta had fallen asleep. Waking, this surprised her.
Each morning, since her womb had begun to fill, she woke up at four bells, with both a pervasive nausea and a powerful pain in the nerve bundle at core of her left buttock for no reason she could understand. And so, every morning, she crawled out of the bed she now shared with the still unfamiliar scent of her husband, had Livvy help her dress, and went down to the river to bathe. This had become her moment, the moment of the day in which she could be quiet and alone, and away - for even sleep, now, was not her own, under the weight of her husband's arm. Livvy would help her to the waterside - for the pinch in her nerves made walking an absolute agony - but then would, with delicacy, leave her mistress alone in the water, to go and tend to the horses, and do the morning's chore work.
The water was seductive - cold and clear and running over her skin, it gave her a feeling of cleanliness that almost... almost took away the feeling of being dirtied that pervaded her, now. So cold, beneath the hot summer air, her skin bare to elements, and noone to see her but the occaisional quiet visiting rabbits and ducks, who paid her no more heed than they would a clump of immobile water-lilies. She would lie in the water, watching her flesh float and flow, placing her head even under the water to to feel that way it tugged at her hair. Sometimes, like this, when she was truly unhappy, she'd dunk under the water, then drop into webbing, feeling the strange push pull, of the seductive whisper of the underweb, and teh desperate cries of her own limp body, far, far way. She would wake with a gasp and an involuntary struggle, feeling the sudden frenetic energy in her limbs - just to feel something. Panic was a feeling, at least. Each time she pushed, just a few seconds longer, waiting as long as she could to fight her way out of wherever her body had drifted. She had learned to fumble towards the shore from the deep current in this way, her narrow, shiver arms and legs fighting against the river's cold, impassive current as her passive body was drawn into the main channel, one day.
But today, she had lain, her body submerged and her head resting on a stone, and had drifted off. She awoke very late in the morning, her body shivering violently in the current, almost as if her limbs had become possessed. Her water-wracked body shaking clumsily as she pulled herself to shore. It was late now, she was lucky noone had ridden down and found her there, and told her husband, and then... then there would be questions, and she knew, she would not come alone to bathe alone in the blue-clear water. She would have to be more careful.
She took her dress - since she had gotten pregnant, her trousers fit peculiarly with the bloating, and she spotted blood at unpredictable inconvenient times - on her arm, and pulled herself into the sun, to let the warmth de-palsy her limbs, the dress pulled over her like a blanket. She felt the sun stroke her skin, and became sleepy again, her eyes drooping.
No! She had to be careful! She needed these baths.
She jerked up to a sitting position, and woke her ears.
A horse, and footfalls, and a quiet voice. She involuntarily tried to call out - but of course, she had no voice, so that did not good, instead, awkwardly, she tried to wriggle her wet arms into the dress. Hoping she could work fast enoguh with her clumsy limbs not to humiliate herself.
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