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A continuation from a previous thread, we find Elann and Noah at the Rearing Stallion.

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[The Rearing Stallion] Seeking Comfort

Postby Noah Amuel on July 8th, 2015, 1:49 pm

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Noah nodded in understanding when Elann explained the wound had been acquired before their meeting. Knowing there was nothing to be done about it, and that it was a waste of time and energy to worry about it, he sat back in his chair again. He thought back on his reaction. Was it an overreaction? A thought lingered on his father and how he would’ve behave in such a situation where Noah took Elann’s place and wound replaced by a scraped knee. “Shake it off! You’re a man!” he would say before laughing his hearty laugh. His laughter always served to diffuse the situation without fail. Even though Noah’s mother would shake her head at the laugh, worried about her baby, it had toughened Noah up some. Now, as a man grown, he could deal with scrapes, bruises, and cuts without as much as flinching.

That’s when his right hand went to his left side, under his ribs. He wondered if a bruise had developed where he had fallen earlier in the orphanage. Surely it had by now. He applied a slight pressure to the spot under his rib cage and winced as pain shot through his chest. The area was tender and no doubt turning into a blue and green contusion. Oddly enough the injury didn’t grow agitated when he breathed his normal breaths but would, without a doubt, if he took larger breaths than the usual. He didn’t test this theory.

His attention went from his wound to the barmaid that approached the table now. He rested an elbow on the table and this rested his face in the palm of his hand. There he would tap his long, calculating fingers against his cheekbone. He muttered a thank you to the kind woman and quietly admired her ability to handle so many drinks with relative ease. How did she not mix the drinks up? Was there even a thought to her movements or had she done rehearsed this act so much that it became an afterthought, only interrupted by a rare mistake on her part? Noah’s eyes further wandered until the maid disappeared behind the door that led to the second part of the tavern. He assumed it was the kitchen where their food was being prepared and the ale was being fermented.

He examined the mug that was placed before him. It was a tall thing made of clay with a handle beginning near the lip of the mug and curving until it reconnected near the base of the thing. Even more interesting was the detail and texture applied to it. Carved into the structure of the mug were rings to give the mug character to compliment its purpose. He doubted that many of the patrons who came to the Stallion even looked at their cups long enough before being overcome with the thirst acquired after working a long day. He felt that thirst coming now but before he could lift the mug to his lips Elann spoke.

“I’ve never really given it any thought,” he said to answer her. He lifted his mug to his nose now and inhaled. There was a smell he could not distinguish for he had no idea what ingredients went into the process of making ale. All he could notice was the white foamy cap dotting with bubbles both big and small. When they eventually popped at their own pace they released the scent of the drink and wafted up towards his nose.

“I like tea,” he said, “water too.” He paused and thought of as to why he liked those things. Besides being coaxed into drinking tea as a boy with his mother, water was the only thing he craved when shifted and in his more human form. “It’s clean… crisp, soft, pure.” He hoped that explained it. He spoke the words as they came to his mind, not giving them another thought before saying them.

“What about you?” he asked, setting his mug down without taking a sip.

With one hand he grasped the handle of the cup and, with the other, he grasped the open side -- the side opposite of the handle. The clay felt dry in his hands and worn to the touch. It had been in use for probably years now. It had even faded some on the handle, once a amber brown color like the body of the mug, that now resembled something pale like a deer’s antlers. It gave the thing a charm though, one that Noah appreciated. It had been through a lot but still worked.
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Postby Elann on July 8th, 2015, 2:32 pm

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While Elann was desiring conversation, it wasn't what she got. She listened as he quietly responded about his tea and water and how he didn't give things much thought. She reached out with her vulnerable side to show him her wound, a topic she didn't even want to talk about but one he inquired of. She got little to nothing back. She inquired of his favorite drink and she got little to nothing back. It was not only a bit awkward, but it was rude in her opinion. That little fire that was hidden down deep in her begun to be lit. It had squelched and almost was put out for a while because of her humble surroundings and not knowing what was to be expected of her here. But now Elann was set in a home, in a religious location to worship Yahal, and she had enough money to last a long while. That being said she had little to no reservation anymore for holding back anymore. Out of consideration of Yahal and Noah she didn't erupt on him and tell him off right here in the tavern, but she definitely wasn't pleased. When he asked her about herself and what she liked, half of her begged her to answer the question and the other half told her not to say anything.

She folded her arms about her waist in a defensive hug and looked into the fireplace for a few seconds before looking back briefly and answering him. "Water" , she said in a colder tone than normal and she looked back to the fire. She wanted to say water, coffee, and many other things that brought her delight, but little delight was found in her right now. She watched the crackling logs flicker to and fro as she squirmed in her chair. Something was definitely wrong and she considered if she was being too harsh. Was she being immature? Maybe a little, but she was also young and it really bothered her. She wasn't looking for a love interest or anything in Noah, she just wanted him to be a human being and offer a bit of himself to her. Even the stuck up boys in her father's tents had more to say than him and she didn't even think that was possible. For that reason she really had a tough battle in herself. What should come out of this? Should she cave? Would he learn? What if she didn't? His lack of interest could mean he could just leave her here and not care at all. Really who could say, but she was pissed off to a point and all she could do what struggle in it for now.

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Postby Noah Amuel on July 10th, 2015, 11:01 am

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When Noah looked up from his mug at Elann’s answer he could feel the tension grip her voice and being. The way she hugged herself in such a defensive manner gave the Kelvic insight on how she felt. He had observed her behavior before, how she hugged herself when involved in something unfavorable. Her eyes neglected to meet his as he noticed them drifting to the logs burning in the fireplace.

He followed her gaze, his own eyes adjusting to the orange and warm glow of the burning logs. The Kelvic, foreign in most things to deal with humans, wondered how to approach the matter. Was he supposed to be delicate? He remembered his mother using a delicate approach when it came to matters of emotion. But was it actual emotion that Elann was feeling? He reset his eyes on her again and tried to observe the emotion she was emitting. The way she had answered his question was short and unlike how she usually spoke.

Should he be sorry? Is that was humans said in situations like this? Didn’t he need a reason to be apologetic though? Noah failed to see what he needed to apologize for. He had done nothing unfavorable, had he? Apparently he had, due to the way Elann closed up. It was much different from how he remembered her, especially moments earlier at the orphanage where she seemed so happy and friendly. Was Noah the problem? Perhaps he should leave but then Elann would be left alone in the Stallion and, besides, they had already ordered their meal.

“I’m sorry,” he finally said after some time. “Am I behaving badly? Did I upset you?” He looked at her in a pleading way, hoping that she would answer his questions for he truly didn’t understand. He was at a loss for why the girl felt the way she did. “I didn’t mean to upset you if I did. I’m sorry.” He bit on his lip now and held his cup in a nervous way, fingers tapping against its sides. “Can I fix it?”
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Postby Elann on July 10th, 2015, 1:29 pm

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There was that moment of reflection after her answer that silence hung in the air. The heat of the fire could not replace the cold she had brought into the room, and it was a compromise from what she wanted to do, which was not answer him at all. She couldn't stand the own evil she had created and it made her writhe in pain for what poor Noah must be feeling. She was a being filled with love! No sticks or stones could knock her down, so why was she so easily dissuaded by Noah's lacking ability in conversation? She now regretted giving him a one word answer and turning her head in disgust, but the deed had been done already.

Now she was forced to sit there and endure the beast she had created. Chimes seemed to pass before words came out of his mouth. His words were like a little innocent child. It wasn't intentional and it made her feel all the worse. She had gone in too deep though and thought it best to stay the course if he was going to learn how to respond to her. Words couldn't even form in her mouth as her mind had shut off. His apology was bittersweet and she flashed a look to him. His final words though were 'could he fix it' and it made her feel like he really did care.

Her hands loosened at her waist and she let them lay there in the chair that was obviously made for a man twice her size. She spoke quickly after his question and in thick Benshiran accent said, "I don't know. Maybe I'm being a foolish girl." she sighed and tightened her face, as someone who was bracing for a hit to the face. "We had fun today right? Well...I mean...I don't know you." she flashed her eyes up avoiding his in thought to the ceiling, "At all really." Lowering her eyes and her head ever so slightly to stare at his side of the table she continued, "And...I wanted to get to know you more because I am new to this city. You are friendly" . Her eyes met his and they had a pleading look to them, not so much of sadness, but one yearning for him to understand. "I was taken from my family by life, and no-one is here to help me like they were supposed to be. I have no persons, no family, and while I am a strong Benshira woman...I still..." she wanted to say 'to feel loved' but she didn't feel that she should require that in any manner be it family or personal from someone she just met twice. She continued with correction "I just was having a hard time because I ask you these things and I get back very short answers like the water answer." She shrugged and tried to explain to him bluntly. "I don't know you very well, I don't know if you don't like me and this is why? I ask you what you do for work. You say 'I am courier and I deliver things. How is your hand?' " she chuckled nervously, feeling that expressed it best. She waved her hand as if to say, "Where is the rest of the answer, tell me more about it!" Was she kind of telling him off? Yes, but it was in a fairly loving way compared to what some of the other women in this fine establishment would do. "Maybe you are a quiet person. Maybe you don't have much interest in talking about you, but I just wanted some" she was trying to think of a word for feedback or conversation but she couldn't come up with one. It wasn't that she didn't know the word conversation, but she was kind of frustrated and she just couldn't get it out. It made it all the more frustrating for her. She ended saying "speech" , but she knew it was wrong.

She nervously brushed her hair behind her ears and considered going on, she definitely looked like she had more to say, but with a flop of her hands into her lap she figured she could say no more. Not long ago they had ordered food and she wondered where it was so it could break the awkwardness of having to talk with a stranger on how they weren't meeting your expectations. She just longed for him to be a 'good' friend of hers and not that person who is an acquaintance of yours who annoys you yet is friendly.

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Postby Noah Amuel on July 10th, 2015, 6:46 pm

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The Kelvic felt ashamed in a way when she began talking. Instantly she referred to herself as a possibly foolish girl and that made Noah frown and wince all the same. Why is she beating herself up? he wondered, scared to comment as her words continued in an undefeated torrent. When she referred to the day, Noah’s eyes bored holes into the wooden table before him. His hands were removed from their nervous position with the cup to gripping his chair in a tense manner. His nails dug into the wooden chair as he received his scolding.

When he did look up to her finally, their eyes met and Noah could recognize the beseeching look in hers. He flicked his back to the table in shame. Her mention of family and being forced from them made the Kelvic feel all the more guilty and his heart hurt at the thought of it. He knew what it felt like to miss family, an everlasting support system should all in life go awry. Noah missed his, although he wasn’t forced from his life in Zeltiva, he tried to sympathize with his companion.

He felt as if she was never going to stop as the scolding trailed to the way he interacted with her. He didn’t see anything wrong with the way he spoke to her until she pointed it out. Noah hung his head now much like he would if Elann was his mother giving such a speech. In fact, Elann did resemble his mother in this chiding and he reacted much the same way. It appeared to him that Elann was actually disappointed in him and whenever he felt that someone was disappointed in him he just wanted to flee lest he begin to cry.

Disappointment was something he felt could not be redeemed, not until an equal opportunity to disprove the proven would show itself. Still, he couldn’t flee and abandon this relationship, this person whom he found himself caring about. He did understand that he didn’t exactly show that he cared for the girl across from him.

When she referred to him as a person another pain happened across his chest. He felt liable for her believing that he was a person when in all truth he wasn’t a person, but an animal able to take the human form. This was the reason for all his troubles right now, and what he wouldn’t give to just be a normal human for the sake of Elann. He sniffed now, noticing a burning in his eyes. Maybe he was overreacting to Elann’s scolding as it wasn’t at harsh but loving in the way his mother would scold him, but it was out of her disappointment that he found his own. He was unable to bring joy to this person that he found himself caring about and that was a disappointment and frustration all its own.

He wiped his eyes before the tears came leaving a streak of salty wetness on his hand. He sniffed, to compose himself as best he could before raising his head to look at her. His eyes, quivering grey orbs soaking against reddening whites looked at her. “I do like you,” he said before clearing his throat and sitting up now.

“I just don’t know how to talk like a normal human,” he continued. “I don’t like talking about myself because there isn’t much to talk about. I’m not normal, I don’t do normal people things.” He took another breath and exhaled it, ragged and wavering. “I’m an animal,” he admitted. “A Kelvic. I don’t go to the market like people, I hunt. I don’t go for walks, I fly around. I am not a normal person like you and never will be. I don’t know how to talk to normal people because I’m scared they may not want to talk to me after they learn that I’m not normal myself. I don’t trust people but I trust you and now I’m scared they you may not want to talk to me anymore.” He took a breath. “I’m sorry that I don’t talk about myself enough. I don’t care about myself because I know what I am and know that I will never be really interesting to people because I have nothing to talk about, because I’m boring.”

Noah talked with a voice deep and quivering from sadness and anger. Not anger with Elann but anger with himself. When he finished he took another ragged breath and fished around in his bag for his coin purse. He drew it open and took out a smattering of silver coins. He took a second to count them and left seven there. Five to pay for his meal and two to tip the waitress when she came. He scooped the rest of the coins up and placed them back into his purse which he then threw into his bag. He hooked the bag around one shoulder and set one hand on the table in order to lift himself up, before he did though, he looked to Elann again. “Do you want me to leave?” he asked out of courtesy, even though his mind was very much set on it. If she did not wish it, he would not go to leave her in such a foreign place alone. He was an animal, not a inconsiderate monster.
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Postby Elann on July 10th, 2015, 7:41 pm

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She finished her tirade upon him and it felt really good to get off her chest but at the same time his reactions killed her. She actually drove the poor man to tears. As he sat there she could picture in her mind one such as those in the orphanage sitting there, like a little boy who just got scolded and she was the horrible lady who had to do it. He confessed that he did like her, and an almost unexplained joy and warmth came from within. Perhaps it was their heightened emotions and heart rate, but she felt like as he confessed who he was, that things started to make sense. She didn't smile as Noah was so desolate in spirit. His heart hurt on this topic she could tell. Never before had she heard him explode with such vibrancy and life. It was like he was keeping it all locked up inside and he desperately wanted to be part of the human experience but could not be.

Elann didn't know much about Kelvics but that they were animals in human form. She knew they could be any kind of animal, though didn't know if that was true or not. As he counted his coins fear rose in her. There was no reason for him to do so except to leave. She trembled inside at the fear of him leaving because she knew she probably wouldn't see him again and it would be her fault. As he stood with his hand upon the table to leave her she reached across it swiftly to take his hand in hers. She did so so swiftly that should the table had been full length it would have been likely that she would have dove across it to reach him. She gave him a re-assuring smile as she slinked back to her chair, hoping and praying that he sat down again.

"Can we talk some more?" she had love in her eyes and a soft tone on her voice. She now sat on the edge of her seat upright in anticipation for his answer. She did not avert her eyes now, he was in her sights and she wasn't going to let him go from them. Her breathing was heavy and excited with a reddish flush in her cheeks and upon her collarbone. Concern was in her eyes borderlining on fear that shook her to her core. She loved people that much that she really was concerned with how he felt over her own needs. She was a bit selfish for a moment but it really bothered her with his quiet answers. This all made sense and how she wanted to rectify the situation. "I really would like you to sit." After a little pause she added humorously, "Besides...you are too hungry to leave yes?" she pleadingly looked to him once more and took hold of her mug of ale on the table for security. Her eyes studied his face and with concern she studied his between his lips and his eyes for the answer that would come.

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Postby Noah Amuel on July 11th, 2015, 5:25 am

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Noah swallowed hard at her reaction for he had not expected it. His vision was clouded with more coming tears as he watched her hand embrace his. It was a touch he very much needed and caused him to exhale yet another ragged breath. His bag slinked to the ground with a thud at her words and he sniffled. Although he was scared to meet her gaze, he did. His eyes were truly red and disturbed now, the light color of his eyes stood out against the red and white background.

Seconds ago he had felt truly unwanted and dearly wanted to flee the scene of the tavern but, as he gaze into her eyes now, there was a love and wanting in them that comforted him. He sniffled again and sat down. Her continued speech further reassuring the man. In the moment he truly thought of his mother and her loving ways despite however upset the Kelvic was, she always had the time and patience to listen to his fretful woes and Elann shared that look now. Little did the Benshira know, she was acting more like Noah’s mother than his friend and, oddly enough, he appreciated that.

He smiled at her mentioning of his hunger, for he was truly hungry and, as he calmed, his stomach reminded him of the fact with an angry grumble. He let out a small laugh, sniffed, and nodded. “I am too hungry,” he said to humor her. Noah knew that if he had left, hunting would’ve been the first thing on his mind. Instead he chose to stay, not only for Elann but for himself because if he had left, he knew that he’d try with all his being to avoid the girl. It was something he wouldn’t have wanted to do, but the shame of his departure and attitude in their potentially last meeting would’ve drove him to do so.

He clutched her hand out of actual loving and held it for a chime or two before releasing and withdrawing it to himself. He’d hug himself much the way Elann once did and allow his sights to drift to the burning logs. Noah appeared to resemble that of a child, truly in this way. He had no idea how to restart the conversation and found it hard to speak, embarrassed by his voice and the patrons that had gazed in their direction at the start of the commotion. Now, though, those patrons returned to their gossip, darts, and balderdash. He was left sitting opposite of Elann feeling as if he was in quite a predicament.

“I’m sorry,” he apologized once more, afraid that if he didn’t talk she would become upset again. “I’m sorry I’m not normal.” He struggled to meet her eyes again but when he did he’d attempt to remain them their lest she look away.
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Postby Elann on July 11th, 2015, 7:41 am

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There was an air of suspense as people looked at them for a brief moment. It wasn't so many people mind you but it was enough to make Elann feel uncomfortable. She wished this all had happened in the comforts of her own home. A bit of privacy would definitely have helped. Even a booth against the wall would have been nice rather than right next to the fireplace where they were center stage for anyone who walked in. People in the end minded their own business. It wasn't as though it wasn't a common sight in here and they weren't exactly causing a ruckus for any of the guards off-duty to get worked up about. After releasing from his hand, she reached to the table where his money sat and pushed it back over to him. She wasn't going to have any of that. It was not time to pay and he needed to put it away. A quiet hush came over her as she thought of what to say to him. He was getting adjusted back into his seat and she took the moment to feel more of the warmth of the fire. It wasn't as if she wasn't warm next to it, she just wanted to feel toasty warm for a moment.

When he had finally settled and her mind had come to a conclusion of what to say, she pulled her hands from her ale and set them in her lap. She still sat on the edge of her seat, not willing to give ground to him walking away or to seem passive in any regard. Her voice crept out still and small at first, unable to be heard in the bustling tavern. Realizing this she started over and said to him, "I don't know how to be a normal human. And I wouldn't want you to be anything other then yourself anyways okay?" she shyly approached the subject with her cute accentuation and affirming nods. "My people are so different than here, that you being kelvic is no different. This is a whole new world to me," she looked down briefly, "while there may be things you don't do as well to fit in, there are things I may not do well to fit in too. But you are interesting Noah. You have such great things in you. How could people not see this? You judge you too harsh. What made you feel this way? That I would think this of you?" She was kind of faltering in her common and could talk but it was a complicated mess and full of stumbling. When emotions got in the way it was hard to understand what words meant what as easily.

"Tell me. What does it mean that you is Kelvic?" she gave him adoring eyes full of love and kindness. If he gave her a one word answer she would nudge him along to tell her more and more till he got it all off his chest.

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Postby Noah Amuel on July 12th, 2015, 4:57 pm

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The fire crackled near him and emitted a warm glow and orange color light that lay itself on Noah’s face. The warmth came with that light and gave the Kelvic a feeling of home despite being in such an establishment. The emotion he was feeling was unintended and he very much wished to be at home or somewhere private while showing this moment of weakness to Elann. He sat across from her now in his defensive hug, thoughts trailing to the other patrons within the Stallion. He wanted to see if they were still watching but didn’t want to look just in case they were, it would make the situation all the more awkward.

Elann sat forward in her chair and caused the man to sit further back in his. He sat up straight and sniffled for the last time. He rubbed the wetness from his eyes with the backs of his hands and returned to his sides, hugging himself tighter now. He saw Elann’s mouth move, lips forming the words, but no sound could be heard. He watched her take a breath and continue again this time audible, if barely. He squirmed when she spoke about her people and how she being Benshira and him being a Kelvic were no different in their new environment being Syliras.

It was a feeling he didn’t share. The Benshira were more human that he, they were just of another culture and another land. They knew how to interact with one another on a human level; a personal, social, and emotional level and Kelvics had to learn from other humans or each other. He knew most of his kind lived solitary lives searching for “the one” to call their own, to guide them through their short lifespans. In order for a Kelvic to truly be happy they needed the bond they all sought. Humans didn’t need that to be happy, did they? He didn’t think so, still he listened to her words.

She then spoke of how people failed to see the interesting things in him and she seemingly wondered how such a thing could be possible. Isn't it obvious? he thought, hands rubbing against his ribcage. He felt his ribs hem rise and fall as he breathed. They didn’t see his interest because he didn’t allow them to for he was scared of them taking his interesting aspect, being a Kelvic, and using it for their own need. He wasn’t a pet and nor did he want to be. He was an animal, born with the ability to take human form and wanted to be appreciated as such. It was something he felt humans didn’t understand. Not everything was to be domesticated and if not domesticated then killed. He wanted neither fate and he wondered if Elann failed to see that.

Her final questions though are what struck a chord in the man, making him shift uncomfortably about. His eyes now avoided her, looking over her, to the side of her, or through her but never at her. What does it mean to be a Kelvic? he wondered. He tried to think back on a time where his father or mother or possibly even his siblings mentioned what it meant to be a Kelvic and he returned from the depths of his mind empty handed. There was no answer to that question, or one that he knew.

Being a Kelvic was not a blessing, but it wasn’t a curse either -- at least in his mind. He swallowed hard and studied the details of the table for an answer. The wood served to prove useless and he left without a word to answer her question. He shrugged at first but then remembered her chiding moments earlier. “I don’t know,” he said, voice raspy with once flowing tears. “I just know I exist. I do not know why I exist. I have no purpose and haven’t found one.” He didn’t know if he wanted to find one either. Noah met her eyes now and found the emitted feelings of kindness welcome. “I thought you’d think me boring because I don’t speak. You like to talk, a lot, and I don’t know what to talk about. I don’t talk about myself because I don’t have anything interesting to say. I like to listen to you talk.”He licked his lips. “Your voice is so kind and so nice to listen to and if you could just talk for hours I wouldn’t mind it. You have interesting things to talk about. Things like where you come from, your boat trip, your family, and home. I don’t have these things like you.” He glanced away from her briefly before continuing.

“People scare me. I’m afraid they want to hurt me… to use me. I want to be like a person but I can’t because I’m not. I’m a Kelvic not a human. You are Benshiran but you are human. You do human things, not me.” The words seemed to exhaust the man and he felt a relief when their waitress finally arrived at the table with their food.
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Postby Elann on July 12th, 2015, 6:17 pm

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The last thing she wanted to do was to belittle Noah's feelings. A patient look came over her face as he expressed his lacking knowledge of why he was here, or what he was supposed to be doing. She's always had purpose in her life to strive for. As a human you set goals and you achieve them. For some reason as a Kelvic it sounded like to her his goal was survival until he died or was caught to be used for some purpose. That saddened her heart to think of briefly before his eyes met hers. She paid close attention to what he had to say due to his bravery to look her in the eye. She felt he really appreciated her from his words and if there were lingering doubts of his appreciation for her, they faded into dust and blew away.

Her lips drew breath as he spoke about her features, that she loved to talk. It made a faint micro-expression of laughter cross her face before returning to the seriousness of the topic. She personally didn't think she talked much at all. It wasn't as if the woman had the gift of gab and just talked peoples ears off. She considered herself slow to speak and while excitable and full of life and love for people, she only talked when it meant something. Her words weren't for useless babble and gossip. She was made of sterner things than the weak feminine ways of the city. In it up here people are protected and while they work hard for a living, there was a sense of liberty from crime and true hardship. She was not someone who accepted that because she had eyes that saw things differently. Suffering and toil, hardship and poverty were all around her and she needed to love them so that they could have hope in them; hope to overcome.

As Noah licked his lips she glanced down at them briefly and then returned to his eyes. A gracious smile spread over her face as he complimented her on her voice and her cheeks grew red once more. The smile once again, only lasting a second before fading as she knew he was still hurt on the inside. She knew next to nothing of Kelvics but it seemed like he just had a different view than her. He glanced away and she looked to his chest, as though her eyes could pierce his heart and she willed patience and love to come into his life to counter the sorrow and loneliness. She could relate to his fears of people. She had the same feelings but now was not the time to relate that to him. She was all alone up here with no protection. As feeble as he was, he was a cornerstone of her life, making sure that she wasn't going to die up here. The more people she met, the more she felt alive and maybe that's what he needed, to feel alive.

Sometimes people would come to Yahebah to visit the temple and you could tell them apart because they acted like they were surrounded by glass. They wouldn't touch anything, apologized all the time, and just were miserable if they did something wrong. Then there were those who seemed to act like they belong. They treated people kind and like they were friends for years. These people were accepted, the others rejected. She sat in thought a moment when the waitress came to the table and brought food. She smiled up to her and pulled out her money pouch to pay for her food and drink. It smelled good and she felt a might bit hungrier than she had felt in a long time. She had been trying to cook but it hadn't been pretty. This looked like it tasted good. As they paid the woman she watched her head off and said. "Eat...You will feel better." She said so in a kind way and picked at her food a little bit. It was tradition to eat with her hands and she could see it steaming and nothing to cool down the meal with like yogurt or anything so she just waited and took another little sip of her ale. She then put her hands in her lap and prayed a prayer really quick for Noah and for their meal, thanking Yahal for both the company and the food provided.

As she finished she looked up to him and smiled saying. "No-one has ever told me my voice is kind and nice to listen to." She had a playful sense to her to lighten his mood, but then calmly and seriously she said, "I don't mean to be emotional..." she returned a finger to play with her food, feeling if it was cool enough for her heat-calloused hands yet. "...I see you as human." she puffed up a little bit, "and if not human...then better than a human." She nodded, feeling that said the best she could express to a man who was probably feeling like a dire lion at the moment, wanting to tear into his food. Before her lay her roasted quail, freshly baked bread, and potatoes mashed; complete with butter. Picking up a piece of bread she bit into it and it felt good to eat something that wasn't entirely crispy and burnt. She hoped to one day cook a meal for her friends, but it wasn't looking too well. She chewed her tiny small bite that looked like a mouse had nibbled on it for a while. She was not a meat-tearer or a sloppy eater, but was rather prim and proper when it came to eating. Most of the women of her tribe were like that due to the small amount of food they ate and usually in the servanthood of them men of the tents. They've learned long ago to just eat small bits, don't make a mess, and leave enough for the hungry men. After all they would have to clean it up anyways.


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