Outside the gates of Syliras Day 1 Summer 517 AV Mid-day Salara leaned back against a corner of one of the wagons watching the children. Sharay, Becker and Decker were among them, innocently playing within the shadows cast by the walls of Syliras. For only a few brief chimes the youngsters had been quietly over-awed at the sky scraping presence of the fortified city. But now the backdrop was just another place and this one much safer than the scenes they had already experienced. Oh, to have their simple understanding with simple needs and wants. Word had gone out – Syliras was closing and all of their long toils and troubles to get here in the migration would continue as the caravan must move onward. For the first time in days Salara felt a little inkling of hope betwixt divided wishes. Karyk would not be able to settle his family here so could be free to choose to move them anywhere. It was true, she was concerned for his future with her – short that it may be; but his words and actions had begun to make her feel as if they could overcome anything together. Her arms cross rubbing her coarse hands against opposite forearms, remembering the strength, security and heat of his embrace. Now she wasn’t certain she was strong enough to walk away for his sake. How selfish was she to want to have these feelings and more for at least the rest of her life? She was Kelvic, driven to find a purpose, a belonging with another. The impetus wasn’t strong as she’d already bonded and been broken, but she still felt the pull of her nature. If Karyk would have her…. why not allow herself him? They could enjoy a fulfilling life together; and if he so chose, he could even bond with another someday. Sharing him wasn’t something she would wish; but the choice to have him, share him, or not ever feel his touch again was much clearer to her now. They could support his extended family and make one of their own. She could experience a child’s true youth through her growing children; one she was never permitted to realize on her own in the slave city. Riverfall. She could go the faster route by ship with Fallon getting there sooner to prepare the way for the caravan’s arrival or perhaps send a message to Fallon to meet there later in the season and travel with the caravan. She could learn to cook from Hortense and Oleander could teach her the healing herbs so she could properly care for a family. She hadn’t spent much time with Kesh or Tollivant so this could allow them to grow closer as well. With Karyk’s drive to work hard and Salara learning her own trade, why, they could choose any lifestyle they wanted. Dare she dream? There were big decisions to be made and the outcome was still uncertain. So she waits in patient ambush. The only certainty - that he would come to her after settling with the city’s officials. |