Hello again my lovelies. As you can see, Ari has already been retired. Needless to say I am a little upset about that. Of course I asked to have her retired, but that doesn't change anything.
The reason, at least in my opinion, as to why someone would attempt to navigate the site with the full 5 pc limit, (not including mod accounts), would simply be because they love so many of the races and their attributes, as well as their histories that they simply couldn't decide who and what to be. Hence five pcs, five is a good number. Allows you to cover a fifth of the races or so... oddly enough. Unless you become a mod, in which case, you can be just about anything or anyone, which is pretty cool even if I do say so myself. Or perhaps it's so they can experience as many cities as possible, rp with tons of different people, and severely decrease their chances of waiting on replies. After all, with five pcs, there is always more than enough work to do, and stuff to write about. Anyway, I digress.
The thing is, as much as I couldn't wait to jump into rping with Ari as soon as she obtained a guardian, (she just doesn't seem complete without one), I just didn't have time for her. Yes, she was only involved in two threads, and one seemed to have died, but even so, the notion of having to neglect a pc just makes me sad. I am not sure what it is, but I see each of my pcs as people, (or clay figurines given life). Each has a distinct personality, and each has a part of me in them. Aello for example, has my looks and my sarcasm. My constant backs and forth with the mind. Blythe holds a few of my interests- like fortune telling, and the fact that she isn't too into traveling. Ariel is my adventurous side. Ari was the quiet self. Cara is just the bitchy one, an outlet for my dark side, if you will. Anyway, I'm sure you get the point.
Neglecting them, as I said before, just doesn't sit well. I feel like I should be giving them all equal amounts of work, time, and attention. Even if that means I only get to do two threads a time, and like a solo for each a season.
But, as I'm sure a lot of mods and people with a large amount of pcs such as myself know: it gets really hard to balance your time between pcs. In fact, it is nearly impossible, and one or two always wind up being forgotten it seems.
I do understand that, I really do. In fact, I kind of expect it. But when I realized I never had time for my favorite pc anymore because I was so darn busy with everybody else, I got a little upset. It's odd, I don't think I've written a darn thing for Ariel in like 2-3 weeks. I used to write at least a little something for her every day.
Why does it matter so much?
Well, I enjoy writing Ariel. She is pretty much my only pc without a dark side. Whether that be in the form of her history, or her personality. After all, unlike Aello and dear old Cara, Ariel isn't being consumed by her magic. She is still young, playful and sarcastic. Adventurous. Her childhood innocence still lingers. Generally speaking, she is no where near as heavy as my other pcs, which is something you need sometimes. Although heavy stuff can be fun to delve into, you need something lighter too, at least in my opinion, so you don't rip out your hair and wind up kind of depressed. (Especially when you're in social work school and you deal with depressing shit each and every day of your life. Not that I'm complaining, I love my major, it's just that you also need something to take the world back off your shoulders at the end of the day).
Ariel does that for me. She is crazy, and happy in a GOOD way. She can always put a smile on my face, and thus, I love playing her, even if it ensures I get made fun of. After all, who other than myself doesn't enjoy whipping out a good pycon joke or two?
I suppose what I am getting at is I just need to be able to play the pcs that make me happiest, and although I don't have time for Ilaeari right now, maybe I will in the future. I am thinking, that during the summer when there is nothing to do in my little hometown, she will make her return. It's a few months away from now- usually starts in early May in college. I'm really looking forward to it. I like Ari, and can't wait to have a decent amount of time to devote to her development and character. Until then, she shall be shipped off into the dream world. I need to deal with my four other pcs... I guess. *slightly saddened face*
*waves good-bye to Ilaeari for now*
I know she'll be back, but, it's going to feel like a very long wait.
P.S. Does anyone else find my strange attachment to people who aren't real slightly strange or frightening, or do some of you feel the same way that I do?
Lesson 6: Lesson 4 is a damn good lesson. Especially if you don't want to wind up sad when you have to retire somebody to keep up. |