by Kail D'Rea on September 14th, 2011, 7:18 pm
Kail didn’t know what to say. She was completely taken off guard. Taith was going to leave Mura. Was that a good time to make a commitment like this? It didn’t really matter for her. She knew she had given her love and would never have it back to give again, but out in the wide world, who knew? Taith might find true love in the form of some study he was truly passionate about, some mission that needed him, even some way to return to the heavenly home he missed so much. With the promise he was offering her, it would only be harder if he didn’t return.
She looked down at the ring in her hand, the one Taith never removed. She knew it was special to him. He just might come back for it. For a selfish moment she wanted to keep it, to have him bound to her in some way and to be able to hold it and remember him. Then her feelings shifted and she didn’t want him to be without his treasure. She was going to return it, along with the promise to be here waiting for him when he returned when she looked at his face and knew she couldn’t. He had given it to her selflessly and truly and she would hold it close to her heart always. Well, unless he returned, then she would take great pleasure in returning it to him.
Thoughts stopped and word came instead. “Taith, I love you. You are right, marriage is not common among our peoples, yet I would love nothing more than to add a layer to our bond, a commitment to each other and also to our gods that we will be faithful. Maybe even be together, if we are lucky.” A wry smiled crossed her face with these words. Yes, it would be lucky and unusual, but it was what she wanted. “Your return here will show me that we do have a chance to have a long relationship, a life together for real. I will think it through and be ready when you return. I will be ready to become your wife.” The last word almost didn’t make it out. Kail wanted to cry from joy and sadness and frustration all at once. Marriage would be wonderful, but she still was afraid that it might not happen, and why oh why did Taith have to promise this, and then leave? It wasn’t fair!
Closing her hand around the ring, then keeping her eyes focused on the while lines forming where she was gripping the ring too tightly, Kail suddenly found herself imagining what the future would be like. It could be wonderful, to have her work, her life here, and her life with Taith. Her worries did seem less, somehow. Like she could almost believe that all of this was going to happen.