Sorry I had to take a break, folks. Tony was great in doing an Intervention on me and kicking me off for a few days. I really needed the time away. Sometimes no matter how much you try to distance yourself, things just come to a head and there's nothing to do but take a break because just one more thing on top of everything else will make you loose it. I took one, and it was probably a good thing because I was working a lot this week, tons of OT, and a saturday shift as well. That means there was very little Mizahar time to begin with.
So... a few things while I was gone... this post will probably read very very disjointed, but that's okay. It's my scrap and that's just how it is sometimes.
I still have Whooping Cough. Its ugly. You're contagious forever (like 21 days +). You cough until you can't breath, drag an inhaler around, can't run more than a car length or two before you start wheezing, and you want to die because you run a fever off and on repeatedly for weeks. Medicine doesn't really help. You're exhausted because you can't sleep because you can't stop coughing long enough to rest and relax. Basically don't ask me how I feel because truthfully I feel shitty all the time, can't breath, and will probably just lie and say I'm fine. If you haven't got your Tdap up to date, your setting yourself up for this because it is an epidemic in the US.
Oh and this is my very favorite Mizahar banner ever. I just thought I'd point this one out because its drop dead gorgeous... and not just because I made it. I do really like it.
Oh, and on another note. I'm no longer your personal fix-it-bitch. I think this is why I burned out so fast and needed a break. This irritates me more than anything else on this game. Don't talk to me if and only when you have issues or need something, especially on AIM. Say hi once in a while and actually stick around to hold a conversation. If you don't want a conversation, don't say hi. Don't ask me if we are 'okay' unless you want know the whole truth. Don't seek my approval. Don't demand my views coincide with yours. Try to make nice. Be friendly. Act like a real person. And about the third time the conversation is all about you and only you, that's pretty much it for you. If I don't answer you ever again when you say hi, there's probably a good reason for it. Same goes with PMs. Don't PM me almost a YEAR after the fact and expect us to talk about a situation and patch it up because now your ready to do so. That's not the way life works. Don't try to guilt me. Don't try to manipulate me. And please don't force me to see your view. I'm sure Cause I am seriously not here to be your personal assistant.
This is for a very specific group of people. I made it before I took my break but never posted it. Stop being so judgmental and negative. Who cares if something is a bit off the beaten path so long as it doesn't hurt you in any way? Are you that fixated on being a nazi that a tone or hue suddenly offends you? If so, you're in the wrong place at the wrong time.
And finally, one more sign. I've not posted signs in a while so this one seems particularly fitting. I'm a big fan of witches. They're good company and great innovative people. I'm probably going to go hang out with a bunch of them tomorrow for Beltaine. And I bet I'll have a ton of fun at the fire festival even though I'm exhausted. They've all got their shots, or so they've reassured me.
And they'd never ever take offense at a sign like this. Beauty comes in all forms and in all things but especially in words and deeds. Deeds, as always, are the most important of the 'forms' that beauty comes in. What about yours? Have you done anything good lately? I won't even say good, but rather creative instead. Maybe you should act because it might help you focus less on the negative and be more positive.
And thanks for all the well-wishes. Especially from my friends. Thanks for the hugs and the jokes and the little intimate moments in the last few days.
by Trident on April 18th, 2012, 9:53 pm 
I think a rest was just what the doctor ordered.