When loneliness takes over [Keda]

by **Navaq Feather** on July 12th, 2012, 8:25 pm

In the sunny afternoon, Navaq was sitting in the library, curled up on one of the armchairs, flipping through the pages of big old book. She was feeling calm and peaceful. The silence of the empty room helped her to clear her mind and relax alittle bit.
She smiled softly, reading the love letter, written on one of the
pages and took a deep breath. The nostalgic smell of old paper and ink filled her body, making her think of her past. Her apartment smelled the exact same way, because of all the books stored all around it. It always made her feel safe and kinda sad....
She sighed quietly and closed the book, staying like this for few secounds, just thinking, sliding eyes throught the room. Everything reminded her for the lovely childhood she had. Everything from the dusty books to the cracked high ceiling was part of her life since she was a little girl and now, was bringing memories of when her parents were still alive. She was happy... And now she was trying to find that happyness again, but it was hard when all of her memories were pulling her back.
She stood up and walked to the shelves to leave the book. Her eyes filled with tears and she almost ran out, not wanting to end up crying.
The cool air hit her in the face, replacing the hotness of the library, making her shiver lightly. Even in warm day like this, she still felt cold. She looked around, watching the passing people. Soft sigh escaped her lips.
Naq couldn't remember the last time she really talked with someone and that made her surprisingly sad. She loved spending most of her time alone, but now she felt how the sharp need to communicate with someone, pierced her whole being, making her feel alone and anxious around all the passing people, who seemed like they didn't even see Navaqs fragile body, pressed to the grey wall, by her own fears. She felt unwanted for the first time in her life and that made her eyes fill with tears again. She alredy hated this feeling, but couldn't do anything against it. Every cell in her body was filled with the feeling of loneliness and Naq was like freezed. She couldn't move an inch, she was just staying there, looking at the people around her, trying to not cry.

by **Keda** on July 12th, 2012, 9:15 pm

Keda Nightshade walked through the library and down the first isle of booksheves. He liked books and the things they taught you. They were something that he rarly saw in his own place, and even as he thought about his past he wanted a friend. No one was willing to talk to him the day he got there and he was quiet hurt. Now he began to truely hate himself from being what he was.

Now he truely wanted to talk to someone and just as he thought this he went down to a corner and found a bunch of chairs, not just chairs but a girl who seemed to be sad and lonely. Should he risk it or should he- "Swuak." His hawk spoke and looked at the girl, eyeing her like he did. "Shush, this is a library you know. I-I'm sorry, she likes to speak her mind. I'm Keda, but, please don't be afraid." A long arm extended as he got closer to shake her hand, black sharp nails as well.

"I promise I won't hurt you, though what I am might frighten you right?" He laughed and his hand remained there, his light purple eyes staring at her own eyes. I hope you don't mind me wondering..what's wrong? You seem sad."

by **Navaq Feather** on July 12th, 2012, 9:38 pm

She jumped alittle, hearing his words and looked at him with her shining, blue eyes. Her lips shivered alittle and she opened mouth.
"H-hello..." Whispered barely loud enough to be heard and carefully took his hand in hers. " I-i'm Navaq." She tried to smile but failed, so she just shrugged her shoulders and whispered again. "It is nothing... I-i just felt... lonely..."
She looked away and pulled her hand back. One of her soft white curls fell infront of her eyes and she sighed lightly.
Naq wasn't really scared, she was just too shy to say anything else. She was hoping that this misterious man with purple eyes and strange appearance, would care enough to stay and talk to her.

by **Keda** on July 12th, 2012, 9:48 pm

"Would you like me to stay with you, even though you talk quiet?"He lightly laughed again and smiled at the one hand that touched his own. He walked closer and took a seat that was next to her looking around. "You know, it's my first time in a city. I've always been exluded from things because of what I am. I'm sure you know what I am right? Even if I was brave enough to tell you, I don't think you'd want to know. I'm rambling, aren't I?"

His bird hopped down and onto a table looking around. "Now you stay, understand?" He spoke to her in his native tongue then he looked back at the human. I hope you don't mind me being here, do you?"

by **Navaq Feather** on July 12th, 2012, 10:08 pm

She smiled softly and her pale cheeks turned rose red. "It is okey... Your voice is calming." She tried talking loudly. She looked at him. "I know what you are. I've read about your kind in books" Her voice shivered abit.
She smiled and her eyes turned little brighter blue. "I don't mind." Her voice sounded calm and soft as silk.
Naq moved her gaze to the bird, still smiling. "Your hawk is beautiful"
She felt more comfortable talking to him and her body relaxed. Her anxiety dissappeared and Naqs smile stayed on her lips for longer.

by **Keda** on July 13th, 2012, 2:48 am

Though it was natural for people to feel relax around him he didn't try to do it on purpose.e. He smiled and laughed. "Yeah, well, I don't like what I am. I mean certian things you know? But I don't like being glared at by people who don't know me personally. And thank you, she's the one that isn't afraid of me, well, besides you."

Keda ran a hand through his wavy white hair, the black streaks being covered by the action. His pale eyes looked at his bird then her again. "Thank you for not shooing me off or anything. It gets hurtful after awhile. And for a human girl you're beautiful too. Oh, but don't think I'm trying to seduce you or anything.." He laughed nervously and scratched the back of his head then his bird swuaked. "I said shush you." He smiled and ran his lack nails on the back of her fethers.

by **Navaq Feather** on July 13th, 2012, 3:30 am

She nodded softly. "I know how it feels..." She sighed and rubbed the silver scar in the for of dragonfly under her eye, looking at the hawk.
"It is good that you have someone." Naq smiled softly. It was strange for her, feeling so calm around someone else. Usually people made her nervous, but he made her feel calm and less alone... She was still surprised he even noticed her...
She blushed lightly and looked at him.
"Thank you... and do not worry... i'm far from that thought." Her eyes were shining with the clean innocence of a child as she was looking at the hawk. One of her curls fell over her shoulder, bouncing softly beside her white face.

by **Keda** on July 14th, 2012, 5:35 am

"Oh okay, at least I know that." He smiled and looked at the girl. "I know that you look lonely but I'm here if there is anything you wanna talk about, I'm here for you. We just met but I'm sure everyone needs someone to talk to right? And how can a woman like yourself be excluded like me?" Keda looked down over at the hawk and looked at her again.

"Yes, I guess I'm lucky, but I rather have a lover, or an adventure you know?"

by **Navaq Feather** on July 14th, 2012, 10:03 am

She shruged softly, looking at her hands.
"Thank you... And sure... I would love to talk with someone.... Uhh...i've alway been the one spending her time alone, buried in books... And i guess most people don't like that." She sighed and pulled alittle a string from her dress, feeling strange talking about herself. She smiled softly and nodded.
"Yes, i understand you... I really do." She smiled again. "I've always wanted to go on adventure... Like these i read about in books... But never felt like doing it alone..." Her lips shivered alittle but she didn't said anything else.

by **Keda** on July 15th, 2012, 6:28 pm

"Me neither. Once the fall comes I'll be with my sister traveling so that would be good. I should know what to talk about but I'm at a loss. I know that you will have a friend in me, always unless you begin to hunt me or something later on down the road." He laughed and smiled. It was comfortable to be around her, there was nothing better than just to relax and talk.

As he began to think again he looked at her again. "I bet you're wondering why I'm not like the others..?" He was curious as to why she wasn't like normal others, hissing at his very existence. It was something to think but it was probably because of her shy attitude, he didn't mind at all though, it gave them to talk about other things.