Serrif finished picking his flowers, and unfortunately had to depart before he could actually show Rosela anything of philtering, or how it related to perfumery. Despite an invitation to the Sanctuary, Rosela stayed in the Knirin Gardens as he left, after returning the beautifully ornate dagger. She felt suddenly defenseless without it, realizing for the first time that she was completely unarmed. It was such a silly thing, to be concerned for her physical well being when there wasn’t even anyone around, but it concerned her nonetheless. After a thought, the knowledge that she had too little money to be a worthy target for any miscreants depressed her even further than the prospect of being robbed.
Twisting the flowers into a small bundle, she slid the long stems into her hair above her ear, checking her reflection in a nearby pond. It was a little childish for what she usually preferred, but it would work. She tossed her sandals down and slipped them on, immediately heading out of the garden the same way Serrif left, and started towards the library. If she couldn’t find out from Serrif, that seemed like the next best place to go for what to do with the flowers she’d spent so much time selecting.
The library was imposing, but with some navigating, she found the perfumery section. She flipped through several books on identifying and appreciating perfumes until she found a primer on making it herself. It was very short, and by the time she’d even made it to the front to check it out, she’d scanned most of the pages anyway. It seemed making a perfume wasn’t that hard after you’d actually picked your scents. She gave it back to the stern librarian at the front, who gave Rosela a severe look over his spectacles.
It was well after lunch time by the time she made it back to the Refuge, and she chewed through her stale bread irritably. She needed to get out of the Refuge and fast, before she went mad on her old bread and the dusty bed. The flowers lay on the old nightstand, each carefully separated from the bundle to lay flat. The smallest flower was already starting to wilt.
Moving quickly before it died any more, Rosela pulled out her soap, kitchen knife, and the cloth wrapper of the bread she’d just eaten. She paused suddenly, looking at her meager supplies. Her overwhelming destitution washed over her and her lower lip wobbled. She hadn’t even a proper bowl to crush the flowers in. She had hardly anything at all to her name.
Sniffling loudly, she knelt down next to the nightstand and scooped the flowers into the bread cloth. Sniffling again, she picked a breadcrumb off of it. The illustration in the primer had been pretty clear about only using the petals, so she plucked them off and piled them together in the middle of the thin wrapper. The chops of her knife were uneven as she blinked back tears. She had thought that making her own perfume would make her feel empowered, but all she felt was lowly. The perfume didn’t even seem worth it anymore, if she had to make it with her ridiculous, makeshift tools.
She put her soap back in her pack, leaving the sealed ceramic soapdish for the perfume. Filling it with water, she wrapped the flower petals in the cloth, making a small, loose packet. Submerging it in the soapdish, she clasped the top of the wrapper in the lid of the dish and placed it gently on the nightstand. She felt empty, without any sense of accomplishment. She didn’t care about the perfume anymore – it’d probably be too weak anyway. Without knowing what else to do with herself, she sank into the worn bed, turned to the wall, and slept.
It was dark outside when she awoke, and for a moment wondered why she was so sore. There was a momentary thought that she’d have the maid whipped for leaving the bed in such a condition, before Rosela remembered where she was. The thought made her want to go back to sleep, but she sat up morosely. The perfume was supposed to sit overnight, but she didn’t want to wait.
The smell of the perfumed water when she opened the soapdish cheered her slightly, and she lifted out her packet of petals, squeezing out the remaining water. She spent several awkward minutes building a fire in the tiny hearth, something she’d only seen done by servants and other travelers on the road to Riverfall. After it was eating up the old wood left by the Refuge, she placed the soapdish on the rusted cooking rack and waited for it to boil. The smell of the fire was comforting, and she tried hard to imagine she was in her old home in Ahnatep, sitting on a fur rug, watching the flames flicker and pop.
Eventually the water boiled down to what looked like a ‘teaspoon’ though she didn’t have enough cooking experience to actually know. It smelled strong enough when she took it off the fire though, and she set it on the edge to cool. Her depression was starting to pass, though she still didn’t know what to do with herself. Pulling the blankets off the bed, she sat on the floor and watched the fire until well into the night. She put the top on the perfume sleepily and watched the embers until she finally slept, imagining they were a dozen tiny rubies twinkling and winking at her. |