To be able to feel without being able to see was almost maddening. An unprecedented amount of emotion passed right through Leo, and his hand holding hers was nearly numbed by the current flowing from her into him. He had never used the art on someone so intimately connected to him, and the feeling took on new and unknown shades for the performer of the rite. He had been careless, willingly so, leaving himself wide open and receptive to anything she may transmit, and the experience left him breathless. He accepted it all from her, without any knowledge of where it came from. It was like a crash course in emotions and he absorbed it with a greed that surprised even himself, something he recognized as less than healthy. Not that it could be helped.
He felt her in his bones, flowing with his blood, leaving Eosi-shaped luminous imprints on the back of his eyes. Suddenly the sun she carried, etched at the base of her neck, seemed incredibly appropriate. He had caused her to radiate for him, and for all that he couldn't be burned he felt like his outer layer was dissolving with the experience. He felt her light and her darkness with equal intensity, impossible to separate. So this was the full extent of Ivak's domain - and to think he had lived this far and called himself a champion without even knowing! He felt incredibly stupid for preaching about the god like he knew him. He had known nothing. Eosi was teaching him as she learned.
It felt at the same time exhilarating and alarming. Being one with the heights of her ecstasy and the depths of her torment, feeling like an appendix of her spirit made him blaze in turn. His own spirit would not be overwhelmed by hers, and the only reaction he knew was to consume, to want, to hunger. He felt acutely conscious of how uselessly desperate that yearning was; it couldn't possibly be quenched. Such was the nature of desire: if weak enough to be sated, it only left melancholy in its wake, but if strong enough it tore away at you, an invincible taskmaster knowing no rest or quarter. He shouldn't have been so quick to take in so much of her. He could think of no addiction more natural, yet ultimately more dangerous.
As she regained her consciousness, she would find him bent towards her, looking at her, his breath short and ragged through his mouth, eyes blazing with the consuming fury of possession and lust. She couldn't have hoped to drown him in her sharp sunbeams without consequence. He knew this hunger was a dead end - it made him want to bury himself in her and drink more of her, but there was no nourishment to be had from this fount. He may spend himself inside her a thousand times, he may consume her flesh and eat her beating heart out, and he would still never possess her. One could not possess the sun. It was meaningless like this, more so at the height of her most vulnerable time, and a part of him rebelled against it.
He pulled back then, with a painful slowness to the motion. Pearls of sweat graced his forehead as he leaned into the trunk to calm down. His breath gradually steadied itself as he dared look at her again with a mix of wonder, guilt and relief. "I'm sorry," he apologized, "it doesn't usually get so... personal. I wasn't expecting this. I saw nothing, but felt everything. I hope I didn't frighten you." He stretched his neck in an attempt to relax. "We both have much to think about," he thought aloud, feeling more than a little confused by this turn of events.
He felt her in his bones, flowing with his blood, leaving Eosi-shaped luminous imprints on the back of his eyes. Suddenly the sun she carried, etched at the base of her neck, seemed incredibly appropriate. He had caused her to radiate for him, and for all that he couldn't be burned he felt like his outer layer was dissolving with the experience. He felt her light and her darkness with equal intensity, impossible to separate. So this was the full extent of Ivak's domain - and to think he had lived this far and called himself a champion without even knowing! He felt incredibly stupid for preaching about the god like he knew him. He had known nothing. Eosi was teaching him as she learned.
It felt at the same time exhilarating and alarming. Being one with the heights of her ecstasy and the depths of her torment, feeling like an appendix of her spirit made him blaze in turn. His own spirit would not be overwhelmed by hers, and the only reaction he knew was to consume, to want, to hunger. He felt acutely conscious of how uselessly desperate that yearning was; it couldn't possibly be quenched. Such was the nature of desire: if weak enough to be sated, it only left melancholy in its wake, but if strong enough it tore away at you, an invincible taskmaster knowing no rest or quarter. He shouldn't have been so quick to take in so much of her. He could think of no addiction more natural, yet ultimately more dangerous.
As she regained her consciousness, she would find him bent towards her, looking at her, his breath short and ragged through his mouth, eyes blazing with the consuming fury of possession and lust. She couldn't have hoped to drown him in her sharp sunbeams without consequence. He knew this hunger was a dead end - it made him want to bury himself in her and drink more of her, but there was no nourishment to be had from this fount. He may spend himself inside her a thousand times, he may consume her flesh and eat her beating heart out, and he would still never possess her. One could not possess the sun. It was meaningless like this, more so at the height of her most vulnerable time, and a part of him rebelled against it.
He pulled back then, with a painful slowness to the motion. Pearls of sweat graced his forehead as he leaned into the trunk to calm down. His breath gradually steadied itself as he dared look at her again with a mix of wonder, guilt and relief. "I'm sorry," he apologized, "it doesn't usually get so... personal. I wasn't expecting this. I saw nothing, but felt everything. I hope I didn't frighten you." He stretched his neck in an attempt to relax. "We both have much to think about," he thought aloud, feeling more than a little confused by this turn of events.