Winter 54, 512 AV
It was unnecessary to disguise himself.
But as he stepped through the University halls, hesitant step by step, his face rippled with unleashed Djed, shifting towards sharper features, an older face, cold blue eyes. Although he had registered in the University, he had avoided the hallowed halls as if they alone could point a finger at the marks he bore. The reason was simplicity in itself….Professor Lefting, HIS Harbor mother, she still taught here…and he thought to spare her the fate he did not spare the city.
Long moments of quiet introspection had revealed the raw sorrow at the heart of him, that sense of loss from the bygone years of shifting Alvadas, and his inability to return to the only other home he knew. Now he was grown, the bringer of pestilence, and although he carried the nearly complete stories of Wrenmae, the namesake he chose, it did not make him the child who had left her at the age of nine those many years ago. Much as Zeltiva had changed, so had he. There was little of that child-like innocence in him now, that simplistic joy that infected most of that tender age. Most of it had been stripped from him in a trail of tragedy, and carved from him beneath Sunberth. Were he a less cautious man, he would have assumed Minnie would never recognize him. After all, the difference between nine and twenty-two is the child and the man. Even so, it was not his intention to reveal himself, now, here, and dredge up a death she had long since mourned and moved beyond.
He only wanted to know if she was happy, a strange quest, especially for him. Wren rarely concerned himself with the happiness of others. Most often it was the absence of his own presence in their lives. So to concern himself with it was to live a life of hermitage, to give up his grand ambitions…and though some of them had felt hollow in the past weeks this season, he maintained his worship of Vayt and his will, supporting Rhysol as well.
When was the last time he prayed to Qualya?
He paused in the hallway, laying a hand against his chest to still the yammering of his heart. There was purpose in all things, including the fellowship of dark deities. Worse men and women had no doubt taken his own mantle before, and did any dream the dreams he had?
Perhaps.
His steps slowed outside her office, passed it, and then returned again. His agonizing pacing trapped him in an eternal ellipses, pausing before the dialogue of introduction could ever begin. Did he dare this? Did he tempt the fates by cursing her his presence? Without even reflecting, he knew the answer…he could not leave this city for what he assumed would be the last time without knowing his Harbor mother, knowing what became of her.
Taking a breath, and then another, holding both in his lungs for a moment too long he knocked with an explosive breath and coughed over his words. Winged insects fluttered in his stomach, crawled up his throat, but none made their escape, content only to remind him that the singular enemy of Zeltiva was more than capable of apprehension.
“P-Professor Lefting?” He asked the door, hesitantly, “My name is…” he paused. “My name is Murdock, I’m a student here at the University. I was wondering if I could solicit a little of your time for a paper I’m writing.”
All the halls held their breath.
And it was a few moments before Wrenmae realized he was doing the same.
It was unnecessary to disguise himself.
But as he stepped through the University halls, hesitant step by step, his face rippled with unleashed Djed, shifting towards sharper features, an older face, cold blue eyes. Although he had registered in the University, he had avoided the hallowed halls as if they alone could point a finger at the marks he bore. The reason was simplicity in itself….Professor Lefting, HIS Harbor mother, she still taught here…and he thought to spare her the fate he did not spare the city.
Long moments of quiet introspection had revealed the raw sorrow at the heart of him, that sense of loss from the bygone years of shifting Alvadas, and his inability to return to the only other home he knew. Now he was grown, the bringer of pestilence, and although he carried the nearly complete stories of Wrenmae, the namesake he chose, it did not make him the child who had left her at the age of nine those many years ago. Much as Zeltiva had changed, so had he. There was little of that child-like innocence in him now, that simplistic joy that infected most of that tender age. Most of it had been stripped from him in a trail of tragedy, and carved from him beneath Sunberth. Were he a less cautious man, he would have assumed Minnie would never recognize him. After all, the difference between nine and twenty-two is the child and the man. Even so, it was not his intention to reveal himself, now, here, and dredge up a death she had long since mourned and moved beyond.
He only wanted to know if she was happy, a strange quest, especially for him. Wren rarely concerned himself with the happiness of others. Most often it was the absence of his own presence in their lives. So to concern himself with it was to live a life of hermitage, to give up his grand ambitions…and though some of them had felt hollow in the past weeks this season, he maintained his worship of Vayt and his will, supporting Rhysol as well.
When was the last time he prayed to Qualya?
He paused in the hallway, laying a hand against his chest to still the yammering of his heart. There was purpose in all things, including the fellowship of dark deities. Worse men and women had no doubt taken his own mantle before, and did any dream the dreams he had?
Perhaps.
His steps slowed outside her office, passed it, and then returned again. His agonizing pacing trapped him in an eternal ellipses, pausing before the dialogue of introduction could ever begin. Did he dare this? Did he tempt the fates by cursing her his presence? Without even reflecting, he knew the answer…he could not leave this city for what he assumed would be the last time without knowing his Harbor mother, knowing what became of her.
Taking a breath, and then another, holding both in his lungs for a moment too long he knocked with an explosive breath and coughed over his words. Winged insects fluttered in his stomach, crawled up his throat, but none made their escape, content only to remind him that the singular enemy of Zeltiva was more than capable of apprehension.
“P-Professor Lefting?” He asked the door, hesitantly, “My name is…” he paused. “My name is Murdock, I’m a student here at the University. I was wondering if I could solicit a little of your time for a paper I’m writing.”
All the halls held their breath.
And it was a few moments before Wrenmae realized he was doing the same.