“The Flux, huh?” Azilis' breathing was rhythmic and measured even as she felt the buzz of talking in her throat. “That plus magecrafting and auristics...what don't you want to study, Hadrian?” Her tone wasn't sarcastic, it was simply questioning; she truly wondered if, like herself, he wanted to get his mind around every piece of information that happened to cross his path. “To me, though the Flux seems like more than it's worth. It's so easy to overgive, to lose control...to do things you never dreamed you were capable of. And never wanted to be capable of.” Like taking a life, she thought, but didn't say. She was sure Hadrian was intelligent enough to be able to intuit the words left hanging in that sentence. And if it's not someone else you kill, it's yourself. She would have shuddered, but the calm that flowed through her veins like river water prevented her from doing so. “Be careful, okay? I want to hear how that theory of yours turns out, so you'd better keep yourself alive to tell me how it goes.”
She quieted when he didn't respond, realizing that he was probably studying her own aura now.
Breathe in, two, three, four. Hold, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, and...out...
As she meditated on her own breath, using the sound of it whispering through her lips as a concentrating point, she began to feel her own heartbeat pushing blood and Djed through her body. The image of a willow tree rose, unbidden, in her mind; it was like an inverted drawing of a lung she had once seen, where the bronchi split and then split again, until the labyrinthine vessels disappeared into the cavern of the body. She felt now as if she could feel and sense each one of the tiny branches of her body.
But she realized that Hadrian was speaking again, and pulled herself partway from her meditative state. “I...I know what you mean. Nothing you can read ever prepares you for seeing a real aura, does it? All its different nuances...no wonder it's so exhausting. Just taking it all in is an effort in itself.” She felt a slight sting of irritation through the screen of her calm at the thought of expending so much energy and hardly getting anywhere, as had happened so many times in the past. |