PM to join A Trip to the Market [Abandoned]

[Ardan]

Ardan "Now, that's just being negative. What we are really doing is finding out more about him that you would expect. He charges those kinds of prices for that kind of equipment. The man must be loaded, and probably corrupt. "The man is rich, but greedy. And you saw him, fat and small. He likely has guards, but he would not pay enough to have them well-trained. "And, indeed, I like the irony of robbing him with what he sold us."

[Engghaen]

She shook her head. This didn't make sense to her, at all. Oh well.

"I don't like irony. And I don't like doing things like this either. But, since it's your money I will probably have to."

Yep. You're stupid.
Why am I stupid?
Because you weren't supposed to say that.
Oh, and why not?
Because it will make him think that you do not want this.
Want what?
The whole stealing thing.
Why would he think that?
Because you gave him a petching hint, idiot!
Alright, alright. But I can not help it. I have said it already.
Does not mean you can not help it.
Well so what it happened!
Yes but you could help it.
Argh! Yes I could, alright!
Right.
I hate you.
I love you too.

OOCI'll be adding a lot of these internal fights to Engghaen's posts, I've decided it's going to be part of her

[Ardan]

Ardan Conflict, frustration, regret, dishonesty, and contradiction. They were all obvious in the cat's eyes. It was difficult, but Ardan eventually put the puzzle together. She didn't want any of this. Stealing, fighting, killing. He had seen the look in her eyes when they first met. He had been confused when she asked for his help. Kill her. No one crosses us, especially a little girl. You would kill one of the few who has shown us kindness in this city? You've changed. And you've grown soft! 'Oh, she's nice! We shouldn't punish her, because she hasn't tried to kill us!' Exactly! She hasn't tried anything, so why hurt her? Why not? We're a murderer! We've slaughtered so many I've lost count! One hundred and thirteen. Directly. And don't even try to tell me that we've not regretted any of them. Go to hell. I figured you wanted that! Bastard. "Engghaen," he began, stopping her in the middle of the crowd and looking into her eyes," if you don't want to steal, just say so. There are plenty of legitimate ways to apply the abilities of a thief." Damn you! You know I hate it when you take over! I didn't. Looks like the quiet one just took matters into his own hands. Oh, that stick in the mud decided to come out and play? I swear to the gods, I will slice our throat. Shut up, and stop trying to kill everyone! Only fight with a reason! What the hell? You're usually not one for making threats, Grey. Screw off.

Seraph (a.k.a. Blue): The good side
Iso (a.k.a. Grey): The neutral side
Lucius (a.k.a. Red): The evil side

[Engghaen]

How did he know? It was not that obvious, was it? Wondering what to say, she avoided his gaze and looked away. At the crowd, the floor, her boots, Ardan's clothes and dagger, the stand closest to them and eventually back to Ardan's eyes. How could she ever tell him? It was way to confusing to do so. The thing she longed to do most was run away right now, like when she was younger. But that would be mean for the panther. He would not have an idea why she would be gone. And after all, he offered her help. And she was thankful for that. It was just too hard to tell him the whole story.

She had promised her dad, and Eyze, and a couple more people when she left them to not do things she would regret. She did not know if she would regret this. It was certainly not what she had in mind when she arrived in Lhavit. But, on the other hand, this was more exiting. And she did not knew anyone here yet exept for Ardan and Kaim, so she could flee if she wanted to. With the rest, she had not such problems. She just did not like breaking promises. At all. It made her feel guilty and dull. She did not made those promises for nothing.

''Well, I do not see it as such a big problem, but I... I have made promises. Maybe to people I do not care about anymore and, of which some are gone.. But that is long ago. Maybe a year or even two. I do not want to make that stand in the way for what my future will become. I am not someone to break promises, though I can not find a job very easily. And I am glad enough you at least care about me, Ardan.

But please do not kill me. I do not know why you would, but it is obvious you have wanted to. Even if I would not agree, you have no reason to kill me. I invited you after all. While I did not know you one single bit. It would at least be ungrateful.''

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[Ardan]

Ardan Petch, I'm taking over! Suddenly, Ardan's appearance changed completely. No longer was he the solemn, young, strong man that Engghaen had met at that window. His posture, the look in his eyes, his expression all changed. Now, he had the look of an old man who had seen far too much in his life. However, his eyes showed a purity and goodness almost unheard of in Mizahar. He extended a hand, placing it on the cat's shoulder. He sighed heavily, and replied in a foreign accent. "You do not know me well enough to understand. I will not allow myself to bring you harm. Ever. No matter what comes out of my mouth, know that I am. It a danger to you."

[Engghaen]

She quickly shoved his hand off her shoulder. "I know. I just don't want to get in any trouble. I don't want to get you into trouble either. I am awful and you know I am. I have no idea whatsoever why you have accepted. I don't think you will understand. Sorry." She sighed. With that she looked in his eyes, turning her body so she could walk away from him.

What are you doing?
Walking away from him.
But that's not what we want to do!
I don't care. Petching promises. Petching Ardan. Petching stealing. I don't want to be here.
In that case, do you mind to turn around and actually show your face? You are being the coward here.
As I said, I don't care. He just wants to kill me anyway.
No, no! That's not true! Why would he help you then?
Petch off!

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[Ardan]

Ardan For once, Ardan's mind was empty. No one spoke, just listened to the woman. As she walked away, the last two days flashed before his mind. He quickly examined every word, every thought he had. Calm. You understand why she is leaving. Ardan did, but he didn't want to accept it. How many times had this happened before? Dozens? He felt nothing. Not sadness, not anger. There was no emotion. He simply turned and disappeared into the crowd.

[Engghaen]

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Wait... Now what are you doing?! Turn around and walk back. NOW.
And so she did. Or at least, she turned her head in the direction Ardan and she had been standing.
"Sorry Ardan... I really didn't mean to do this..." she murmled. But he was gone. He had gone away. Vanished into the crowd.

Not knowing what to do, she stood a bit helpless amongst all those souls who did know. Who had a reason for being here. Go search for him.
No! I don't know what I'm doing anyway.
So it shouldn't matter.
But I don't know where he is! He can be anywhere!

A tear rolled down her cheek and her legs started carrying her forward again. Where, she didn't know. Just forward. "Ardan...? Ardan? ...please...?"

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[Ardan]

Ardan Something made the thief stop. He didn't know what it was, but some force stopped him. Perhaps he hoped to turn and see her looking back, to say that he was sorry. He truly was sorry. Sorry for coming into her life so suddenly and then leaving just as soon. Sorry for frightening her, and causing her anger and pain. His body willed him to turn, and so he did. Of course, she was not there. He was alone. Again. He continued his long, slow walk with no destination in mind.

[Engghaen]

No one. Just tons of cloaks and big guys and small children and some Shinya... But no Ardan. This was not fair to her. How much did she need to do to keep things? It had happened so many times before. She liked somebody, she did something stupid and then they left her. It was all just part of her life. This was the first real nice person she had met since being in Lhavit. And since a long time, anyway.

Green cloak, old man, quickly walking mother, slowly walking young ma-. Ardan? "Ardan?" she yelled with a slightly trembling voice. Please, please, please. It is just not fair. But that is my life anyway. I am not fair, either. I am just dumb and annoying and that is why people keep leaving me. Or why I leave people.

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