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[Ardan]

Ardan "Ardan?" He turned slowly to see the source of the voice. It was trembling and sad beyond measure. He looked, and saw Engghaen standing there, tears rolling down her face. Leave her. Go to her. Do what you must, Ardan. He just stood there, eyes filled with pain. If she wanted to say something, she would have to come to him. He would not allow himself to be made a fool of again.

[Engghaen]

She turned around. It was indeed Ardan. Then the cat walked closer to him, quickly wiping her tears away so the fluid could not block her eyesight anymore.
"I... I am sorry. I did not mean to do that, it... Sorry. "

She stepped another step closer and now wiped another upcoming tear away. "I just keep leaving people. I don't know why. I do want to help you, but apparently I do different things than I want to, to afterwards be cleaning up the mess.

It's not that I have problems with it, but I do not want to be annoying for you. I do not want to be the concrete block on your leg. That's why I walked away.

Though it is one of the things I do most, it is one of the things I'm worst at. S...sorry." The girl murmled, with the same shaky, sad voice.

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[Ardan]

Ardan He sighed again, his normal appearance emerging. "I understand. I've spent my life causing more problems than I'm worth. This city is in dire need of less people like me. "However, I will not leave. With you or without, I'm staying in Lhavit. Should death find me here, so be it. I would rather die with a home than live nowhere. "I don't expect you to understand me. You've not been plagued by them. You've not know the feeling of being torn apart by your own thoughts. Every moment, I have three separate ideas, three separate personalities, telling me what to do. I believe them to be some form of spirits, or perhaps even fractured parts of my own. "The one you fear is known as Lucius. He is driven by the need to commit atrocities. It is what fuels him. If I go too long without stealing or killing or committing another crime, it becomes like a headache that intensifies with time. "The one who just spoke to you is called Seraph. He is a pure spirit, who steers me away from harm to myself or, more often, others. He is driven by a need to help, and is likely the reason I went with you last night. "The third is called Iso. He rarely speaks, but always directs me. He is a silent observer, and the one you are most acquainted with, whether or not you know it. "So, I understand your desire to leave. I would, as well. If you would have me, I would stay. I do not want to live without a friend, and I expect you don't either."

[Engghaen]

No, no, no! That was not what she ment! So... He had problems with that, too?
"That you don't see it doesn't mean I have the same kind of conflicts. I believe everyone has. So I understand. It... It makes me fell a bit sad that you think I would not understand. I do. It's very annoying and I would feel everyone else who suffers it.

So that first one wants me dead then? Great. Just perfect. And I was not planning on leaving. Or at least, one part of me did, the other did not. So that is why I turned around. I do want this. I am just a bit awkward sometimes with... Things. I didn't not come to Lhavit for nothing. I have things to do. Part of that is to... Settle. Not to be running from the one place to the other and taking false appearances. Not making people angry and no leaving in the evening." She looked at him with a bit of an ashamed look. She was scared.

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[Ardan]

Ardan He looked at her, still completely devoid of emotion. "I have a very strict moral compass, even if it is wrong. I can not possibly bring harm to a friend, a family member, or a child. I can not suppress the urge to kill those who do. "I am sorry. For everything. I want to stay in Lhavit. But,if you give the word, you will never have to see me again. If you wish, I will leave now." He had done this before. Been told to leave by people he thought to be friends. He was a violent criminal at one moment and a quiet observer the next. He had killed, tortured, assaulted, stolen, and committed countless other atrocities. Leaving, changing names, living in the night, they were all normal to him. He was a traveller, and he could see that she was not. The panther rethought everything. He realized, with sudden clarity, that he had absolutely no idea what was going on. It was almost amusing. He had always thought of himself as "on top of things," so to speak. He now saw that nothing was making sense. She had asked a criminal to help her yet feared committing a crime. He had agreed, knowing that he might hurt her. He backed away very slowly. He prayed with all his heart and soul that she would want him to leave. He needed to go.

[Engghaen]

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