[Continued from The Calm...]
[Maiden District]The Endust Residence Wanda's Apartment
83 Winter 513AV
Around the 4th bell
In. Out.
Deep breaths.
In. Out.
Emptiness.
Wanda sat cross-legged on the floor of the apartment. Her apartment, now. The thought gave her an odd sensation of finality -- and rightly so.
As much as she would like to simply sit and pause her reeling mind, she could not. There were too many things to do. Too many things that needed arranged. There was a whole future she needed to sketch out.
But did she really need to?
Perhaps not. She wasn't in the habit of planning out her life. Was that something people did when they found themselves suddenly (or not so suddenly, depending upon your vantage point) on their own? Was it really going to be any more different now than it had been for the last few seasons of her mother's life? She'd touched on the same thought not long ago.
Of course it would be different. How could it not be? A person can't just exit the world without changing it somehow, she reasoned. Could they? What happened to a person after they died? Wanda felt as if she'd heard something about the topic before, but couldn't quite conjure up the memory. It was never a topic she'd been too interested in.
Of course the body stayed behind. Was it an empty shell now? Or, gods forbid, what if the person was still trapped in the body without a conscious voice? What if death wasn't the soul leaving the body, but simply the soul losing control over the body? The thought was absurd.
Either way, the guards had already stopped by to take her mother to Li Mauta. Too late to do anything about it now.
What was she on about? Right, a plan. Most successful people in life seemed to have one. And Wanda did want to be successful. The words of her mother's letter suddenly came to mind: "No matter what you do, be the best you can be."
Be the best. Rather broad, but it was as good a start as any.
What to do was the tricky part. The obvious path -- and perhaps the easiest -- was to keep doing what she was doing. That wouldn't be so bad. She might not love her job but she did love the art of massage, and it payed rather well to boot.
But did it really matter what she ended up doing? The letter had said "No matter what you do". Did that also mean "It doesn't matter what you do"?
Why was Wanda analyzing the letter anyway? Wasn't this her own life? This was about what Wanda wanted, not what her mother wanted her to want. It wasn't even about what her mother had wanted for her. What did Wanda want to do with her life?
[Maiden District]
83 Winter 513AV
Around the 4th bell
In. Out.
Deep breaths.
In. Out.
Emptiness.
Wanda sat cross-legged on the floor of the apartment. Her apartment, now. The thought gave her an odd sensation of finality -- and rightly so.
As much as she would like to simply sit and pause her reeling mind, she could not. There were too many things to do. Too many things that needed arranged. There was a whole future she needed to sketch out.
But did she really need to?
Perhaps not. She wasn't in the habit of planning out her life. Was that something people did when they found themselves suddenly (or not so suddenly, depending upon your vantage point) on their own? Was it really going to be any more different now than it had been for the last few seasons of her mother's life? She'd touched on the same thought not long ago.
Of course it would be different. How could it not be? A person can't just exit the world without changing it somehow, she reasoned. Could they? What happened to a person after they died? Wanda felt as if she'd heard something about the topic before, but couldn't quite conjure up the memory. It was never a topic she'd been too interested in.
Of course the body stayed behind. Was it an empty shell now? Or, gods forbid, what if the person was still trapped in the body without a conscious voice? What if death wasn't the soul leaving the body, but simply the soul losing control over the body? The thought was absurd.
Either way, the guards had already stopped by to take her mother to Li Mauta. Too late to do anything about it now.
What was she on about? Right, a plan. Most successful people in life seemed to have one. And Wanda did want to be successful. The words of her mother's letter suddenly came to mind: "No matter what you do, be the best you can be."
Be the best. Rather broad, but it was as good a start as any.
What to do was the tricky part. The obvious path -- and perhaps the easiest -- was to keep doing what she was doing. That wouldn't be so bad. She might not love her job but she did love the art of massage, and it payed rather well to boot.
But did it really matter what she ended up doing? The letter had said "No matter what you do". Did that also mean "It doesn't matter what you do"?
Why was Wanda analyzing the letter anyway? Wasn't this her own life? This was about what Wanda wanted, not what her mother wanted her to want. It wasn't even about what her mother had wanted for her. What did Wanda want to do with her life?