Dordei watched her until she couldn't bear to look at her any longer. What an odd setting. She took a moment to soak in her surroundings. The room was at first-glance, comfortably furnished. Cushions decorated the chair she sat upon, giving an appearance of comfort, but were stiff and firm. The walls were painted a bright yellow, which, in the first few moments of study, seemed a rather jovial color, so naturally she hated it. And yet the longer the girl observed, the more she found the prickling on the back of her neck seemed to creep up her spine. She tore her gaze away from the wall and back to Bethany, who, was already staring back at her with a faint smile.
"You're just not going to cut it." The woman sighed.
Dordei stared at her. "I'm sorry? Did I do something wrong?"
"Not at all dear, not at all." Bethany responded smoothly, her voice a gentle purr. "It just so happens that we have a strict policy, here, you see. Purely for the public's safety. It's not your fault, just policy."
Dordei couldn't help but stare. "You only asked me one question."
She was met with a kind smile. "That was all I needed."
"I demand an explanation."
"You don't need one."
"I beg to differ."
"Beg as you please."
The young woman's face had turned a faint pink, a stark contrast to the cascade of black that surrounded her face. "I refuse to back away from this. I want to know what I've done that is worthy to deny me access."
"Oh do you?" Bethany laughed softly, a gesture that evidently only made the girl tense further. Her voice tinkled like bells. "My dear child, do you understand the dangers this college presents?"
"I've witnessed the halls of the Asylum, yes."
"Then you understand why I cannot allow you in this particular section of the establishment. Greater figures than you have broken from stresses so minor one would think them a mere simpleton. But the truth, is, child." The last word was like a lash to the face, and Dordei flinched as she felt it burrow into her head.
"The truth is that you are unfit." Bethany's voice had dropped to a whisper, that disturbing smile still evident. Her startlingly green eyes were filled with hidden malice. "You are unfit, and you will not make it because you do not possess the capacity, the desire, the fortitude, the wherewithal, the talent, the aptitude to harness or control: Djed. Men and women have stood above you and moved worlds, ingested energies you cannot begin to comprehend, conquered minds and bodies that evade the definition of what it means to be mortal." The woman's eyes were no longer filled with malice. It was something more akin to a sociopath's gaze. Empty, only to be filled by a reflection of the prey.
The little scholar was white as a sheet -- the blood had drained from her face. The seconds ticked by and stretched. She understood now, and she was disturbed by the truth. The room wasn't what was making her neck prickle. It wasn't the cushions, or even the knowledge of unseen, broken patients lying strapped and screaming so deeply inside their own rooms that not even the Gods could hear them. This was the test. This was her individualized test, from Bethany's bluntness to the surroundings. This was meant for her, this moment, those words, and everything from the way the furniture was organized to the clothing her questioner wore was designed to heighten the experience. And it was working. Her lips were dry as they parted and she mouthed silently, her lips making the motions but the words slowly forming a second too late.
"Then say it."
"I don't believe you." The words burst out, rushed and angry. She had never felt so carved open. Her fears of inadequacy, her lack of talent, plagued her on a deeper level than she cared to admit. And here was someone who within a mere few minutes of meeting her who possessed the ability to bring it to the surface. It appalled her. It made her feel nauseated.
Bethany stood up, placed the book on the desk, drew a sheet of paper out of a thin stack, and made a tiny scrawl towards the bottom. She flourished it and handed it to Dordei. The girl took it and furiously began to study the contents, ready to refute what she knew to be a mistake.
The pamphlet was simple, a form of admission. It read as a letter of acception. Dordei eyes met the woman's, confused.
"Your potential is not in question, but your zealotry is. Ensure that you sleep often and don't overwork yourself. Time is not your concern, your mental-state, however, will be if you are not guarded and constantly alert." The words were listed like a medical diagnosis. Dordei was still staring.
The red-head was hunched over her papers, the tiny book she had been holding laying open and empty.
"I thought--"
"Go. Before I change my mind." The woman looked up lightly. Her eyes were faded, and she seemed much older than she had when Dordei first entered the room. That smile was still there, though. "I've asked what I needed to and made my decision. You are lucky you came to this university as early as you did. Do not make me regret this, or I will make you regret it when you've been locked away."
The girl stood hesitantly, slowly gathering courage and drawing herself up before nodding her head silently and simply stepping away. Her skin was cold, she noted as she walked through the hallways and turned past a busy scribe, nose buried in scrolls. And her head ached.
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