Markus had expected her arms to wrap around his torso. Feel the press of her against him again. The comfort her felt, was a surprise. How the simple affectionate gesture could ease his flaring emotions. It was hard to fight the desire to simply stay there for the evening. In her loving embrace. There was safety and there was comfort in those arms. Her promise touched him. The honest love and care for him shone through those words he felt. Arms released the knight and he felt sappy for missing the embrace. Her hand found his and it was a small consolation. There was a flicker of deepfelt gratitude upon his face and wetness at the corner of his eyes. A wetness that did not produce tears. He led her take the lead. Bring them in the path of their room. Markus moved in silence. Thoughts swirled around everything, the anger only held in check by how tired he was. He was exhausted. Weary of the travel. Emotionally drained. If not for S'Essy he would have been struggling to even figure out the simplest things. Movement was sluggish. Legs stiff from the many days of travel. The promise of a soft bed and not a cot made him feel appreciate of the little things.
Soon they came in view of the sea. Out there his father had been spread. The ashes of a man he did not know, but a man he owed everything to. Owed his life, his position, his future to. Markus paused as his gaze wandered over the surface of the water. There was the familiar feel of discomfort that often accompanied him when he couldn't see the bottom of the water. His own inability to swim did not help. He tried his best to remember his father. The man had only ever given him one thing to remember him by, and Markus no longer carried it with him. It hung in his room in Syliras. The Bastard, served him faithfully for many years. The only thing he had to remember his father by and he no longer carried it with him. Had not even returned the blade to the family care. There was a sigh of annoyance that contained much of his anger. Markus looked to S'Essy and realized he had halted them both as he had been lost in memories.
”Sorry.” He spoke softly and began to walk again. Movement more sluggish than normal. Felt the lull as they neared home. The awareness of their surroundings give way as the body and mind prepared to simply shut down at first opportunity. Too tired to worry about anything tonight. Only desiring to rest his head on a pillow, feel his arms around S'Essy and lull himself to sleep. He was much too tired and distressed to make love to S'Essy tonight and he felt old admitting that to himself.
”You never did get to discuss your love of the sea with my family...” Markus noted out of nowhere. Weary thoughts mashed together and the silence had annoyed him. Pressed in against him and forced something to chase away the stillness. He didn't like the quiet. Made it possible for his thoughts to wander and bring back memories he didn't want to see. ”I apologize for Simon... Though. Apologize for the mess... I... it wasn't meant to be like that. I … petch. I don't know. I don't know what to do either... I feel lost.”
Soon they came in view of the sea. Out there his father had been spread. The ashes of a man he did not know, but a man he owed everything to. Owed his life, his position, his future to. Markus paused as his gaze wandered over the surface of the water. There was the familiar feel of discomfort that often accompanied him when he couldn't see the bottom of the water. His own inability to swim did not help. He tried his best to remember his father. The man had only ever given him one thing to remember him by, and Markus no longer carried it with him. It hung in his room in Syliras. The Bastard, served him faithfully for many years. The only thing he had to remember his father by and he no longer carried it with him. Had not even returned the blade to the family care. There was a sigh of annoyance that contained much of his anger. Markus looked to S'Essy and realized he had halted them both as he had been lost in memories.
”Sorry.” He spoke softly and began to walk again. Movement more sluggish than normal. Felt the lull as they neared home. The awareness of their surroundings give way as the body and mind prepared to simply shut down at first opportunity. Too tired to worry about anything tonight. Only desiring to rest his head on a pillow, feel his arms around S'Essy and lull himself to sleep. He was much too tired and distressed to make love to S'Essy tonight and he felt old admitting that to himself.
”You never did get to discuss your love of the sea with my family...” Markus noted out of nowhere. Weary thoughts mashed together and the silence had annoyed him. Pressed in against him and forced something to chase away the stillness. He didn't like the quiet. Made it possible for his thoughts to wander and bring back memories he didn't want to see. ”I apologize for Simon... Though. Apologize for the mess... I... it wasn't meant to be like that. I … petch. I don't know. I don't know what to do either... I feel lost.”