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Keeping Secrets

Postby Madeira Dusk on July 15th, 2018, 6:51 am

"Hey, uh, miss Craven?"

Madeira was sitting cross legged in a quiet corner of the open deck against the railing, her skirt tucked in tight under her knees to make a convenient basket for the handful of long, yellow teeth she was working on. One was pinched between her fingers, being furiously sawed at by a short carving knife pilfered from the kitchen. She looked up from her project and squinted into the sun until the speaker came into view. A mane of tightly curled grey hair loomed like a great cloud over a dark, weather-beaten face. His voice was a quiet roll of thunder that came from deep in his chest.

"Chappy?" she blinked in surprise. The man was quiet and kept to himself, unless he was exercising his amazing singing talent. And while he seemed to get along fine with the others, he had not exchanged more than a handful of words with her the entire trip. “Is there something I can help you with?"

"There sure is, miss. Might I have a word?"

Bemused, intrigued and a little flustered, Madeira motioned to the space beside her with the blunt end of the knife and scooted over to make more room for the heavy man. And like everything he did, Chappy sat slowly. Lowering himself to his rump he let out a great gust of a sigh from his bellow lungs while the cheap copper bangles on his wrists chattered noisily. Madeira worried the tip of the knife into the molar she was working on while she waited for the man to speak.

"What's that you got there, miss?"

"Oh, ah, pigs teeth. I'm trying to carve them into stars. Kind of gruesome, isn't it?" she laughed disingenuously, motioning to the small pile of body parts in her lap. "Just something to keep me busy. You know how it is." The fact that she was planning to use the carved teeth for Malediction, she would keep to herself.

Chappy and the men were by now far used to Madeira's and Allister's eccentricities, so he didn't comment on her strange activity. He merely squinted at the tooth in her hand, the surface scratched and sawed half to death in only the most abstract concept of a star, and chuckled nervously. "Well, you'll take your fingers off doing it like that. Here, let me show you."

Madeira handed over the long molar and the pairing knife, which suddenly looked impossibly small in his massive hands.

“You’re taking too big of chunks out of it. Start small and chip away instead of sawing. It’ll save your knife and your fingers.” Holding the knife with his index finger along the back of the blade, he soon had slivers of bone raining from his hands. “And if you go at an angle, like so, you can use less pressure and won’t blunt the blade so fast.” In no time he had nicked one of the five perfectly smooth, deep angles that her stars needed while Madeira watched with wide eyes. “Here, you try.”

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Postby Madeira Dusk on July 15th, 2018, 6:52 am

"Thanks, Chappy”, she smiled, taking the knife and bone from him and starting her own neat, small incision on the other side. “But I know you didn't come find me out here just to dispense your life saving carving advice. What's on your mind?"

The big man huffed and looked away, running a hand anxiously over the back of his neck. His lips parted as if about to speak, but his words caught in his throat and he clammed up. Was his skin any lighter, she was sure she would have seen the burn of blood in his cheeks. Madeira smiled reassuringly, and waited for him to glance into her eyes before she spoke.

"Hey, take your time. If you think I'm going to judge you by what you're about to say you've been hanging out with this crew too long. Or has this long voyage really made you that rusty with the fairer sex?" she tried to crack his tension with humour, and was rewarded with a tight chuckle, though he still wouldn’t maintain eye contact.

"It's just... It's about Daniel."

Madeira forced herself to breath evenly as her traitorous body tried to hitch her chest. Looking down to her lap she continued to chip away at the tooth in her hands to conceal
the shaking in her fingers. Oh, Daniel. The sixteen-year-old boy with a shy laugh and sly motivations. The boy with grand, half-true stories to tell, who gave her the shark tooth that turned into her first completed Malediction fetish. That boy was in pieces in a vase in the belly of the ship, murdered by the only person she would do anything to protect. She swallowed hard, and let the nerves that name evoked flutter into a pricking behind her eyes. She couldn't conjure enough moisture to cry, but she blinked hard and hoped her eyes were turning red enough to fake it.

"Daniel. That poor kid... Did you know him well?" she prayed to Akajia, the goddess of secrets, that this man just wanted to talk about his grief and not pry into what she couldn't tell him.

"I knew him well enough” Chappy answered gruffly, fidgeting his shovel-like hands. "We served together almost a year on two different vessels. He was a good kid. Tough, ya know? And hot headed, but smarter than people gave him credit for." The large man shifted on the floor, frowning into his grey beard. "And to just... go overboard like that?"

“It's sobering.", Madeira's eyes were soft, but her tongue was heavy with dijed scrapped from the wounded edges of her core as she gathered herself to speak with shaky Hypnotism. "We have to remember how dangerous the sea is.” the effort to force truth into her words was sloppy, as she had never worked with a concept so abstract, but it's all she could think to do. As she spoke with her magic she scissored another chunk of bone from the soft yellow tooth. She pushed the flat of the blade along with soft, even strokes to smooth the edges, just as he taught her. Having her hands occupied helped her to concentrate.

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Keeping Secrets

Postby Madeira Dusk on July 15th, 2018, 6:54 am

"But that's just the thing", the big man spoke, almost too soft to hear in the rumble of his voice. "That kid was too smart to be taking risks. He was born on the sea, grew up sailing with his Papa. He didn't just... wash away.” She dismayed to realize he was not reacting to her magic.

How long could she keep this up? Her mind was strung tight as a guitar string as it worked to muffle all the reactions in her body. The swelling of shame, fear, disgust, was pushing at her soul and the paper thin veneer of a good act was all that was keeping everything from showing on her face. What should she do? Insisting it was a accident that killed him would read as suspicious, especially since nobody witnessed his 'drowning'. But to open the conversation further would invite speculation of something more nefarious, and neither she nor Allister would be up to such scrutiny.

But, she realized, if she probed for his theory instead of giving her own, she could break it down without giving him something to ponder. Working the knife deep into the corner she had made, she kept her hand steady and focused on the work as she spoke.

"How could we explain it, then?" She made an effort to include herself in the collective 'we'. I'm on your side, she reached out with her dijed for a second time, letting the simple suggestion pool in her eyes and ride out on the contact with his. This time it seemed to affect the big man, or did she just imagine the slight shake of his head, the change in the corners of his frown?

"I don't.... I don't know." Distressed, he tugged distractedly at his beard. "I don't mean nothing by it, miss, but the men have been talking. You know, what with the ghosts you've brought aboard. And the fact that Daniel was sweet on you. I just wanted to hear it from you, right? I wanted to make sure... I wanted to hear it straight from you... that you really don't know what happened. Nobody is about to accuse you or anything. You're paying a hefty sum for this voyage, and nobody wants to jeopardize losing that gold." he spoke with a blunt honesty. "But it would help me sleep at night knowing that there was nothing that went bump in the night and hurt that boy.”

Madeira’s heart was in her throat, heavy with a secret and choking her with the truth. Lie, her mind screamed. Lie to him!

"Chappy, look at me”, she said firmly, then waited until the man looked her in the eye. He was squinting, the corners of his eyes a spiderweb of crinkled skin in an effort not to cry. She put her hand over his and spoke slowly and evenly, putting a force of magic behind her words that burned in her eyes and bloomed in her skull as an impending migraine. But she needed this to work. Summoning her remaining dijed into her eyes and weaving it through her words like barbed wire, she said: "I swear I had nothing to do with Daniel’s death."

Trust me, the magic demanded. The headache exploded into being from her overworked eyes, and this time she didn't need to fake the tears. The pain prompted her body into action, and thick drops darkened her skirt.

"Oh miss, I didn't mean nothing by it", the man stumbled awkwardly over his words at the sight of her tears. he patted the back of her hand. The sight seemed to have momentarily derailed him, and the magic worked to keep him off the tracks. The man looked at their entwined hands, at a loss as to what to do, and Madeira felt a flare of sympathy. This man just wanted to know what happened to the kid, she could tell the question was eating away at him. He was so kind. But Allister was worth more than the truth. He was worth more than anything. She smiled through the guilt.

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Keeping Secrets

Postby Madeira Dusk on July 15th, 2018, 6:55 am

Later, in her quarters, Madeira was still ruminating over the exchange. After she was consoled by a defeated, distressed Chappy, she sat with her piles of bones, a knife in her head and her thoughts full of Allister and wondering; was she a good person?

With a screw stolen from the ship’s supplies between her thumb and forefinger, she was drilling the last holes in the sides of the twelve carved teeth. The soft bone gave easily under the pressure. They were ugly, jagged things, with the barest resemblance to stars. They were cut deep and small, so the oily yellow of the top layers had given way to the off-white of ivory. She blew into the small holes, sending bone dust into the air. In a tin cup beside her a lock of her own blonde hair was curing in a mixture of salt water and lye.

She was not a philanthropist, she reasoned, as thoughts of good and evil gnawed away at her, but that did not make her a bad person. She had goals, and people she loved. She would do anything to achieve the first and protect the second, isn't that something good people do?

Can a good person justify 'anything'?

She had already justified it. Allister was worth more than Daniel, Jomi was worth more than the merchant, she couldn't escape that she made those decisions. But she loved them both. She had no choice but to protect them from the consequences of what they did.

You love them because they are useful to you.

She shook her head, banishing the thought with a roll of disgust. That was not true! They were useful, but they were useful because she loved them. She took care of them, did all she could to make sure they were safe, was it unreasonable to ask for deference in return?

You would not have loved them if they had served no purpose. You want that power.

But there is more than one type of power. There was the malicious kind, that posed with threats and fear. The kind the used brute force. She did not want those.

Then which kind do you want?

She wanted to be necessary. There was a power in being needed, in being a vital part of the big picture. Necessary people don’t get thrown away or replaced. Allister and her ghosts would never abandon her, but now she has been tossed aside by the Craven's and left by the only woman she ever loved, and suddenly having their loyalty just gave her a taste of what she didn’t truly have. She needed more.

So you want people under your control.

She wanted their respect.

And their obedience.

But she knew what was best.

Don't they all say that?

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Keeping Secrets

Postby Madeira Dusk on July 15th, 2018, 11:56 pm

The nail broke through the last tooth before she expected it, and the
tip stabbed into her finger. She bit back a curse as a bead of blood
bloomed on the tip of her thumb. Gods, what was she thinking? What did
it matter? She wanted what was best for herself and Allister and those few people she loved. Everyone else just needed to stay out of her way. If that made her evil then that's all there was too it. Nothing came before her and Allister, and nothing would push them aside again.

Frusterated by the burning in her heart and the cowardice of her mind,
Madeira sucked the blood from her finger and dug deep as she carved a
circle into the flat side of the star. Thoughts of power and desire
and need still on her mind, she carved the a single letter of the word
'hunger' into each pig tooth, surrounded by a circle. Ssanya's
teaching flew from her mind, and she moved by instinct. A pig was
motivated by needs. The need to eat and breed and everything else that
kept their bodies moving and alive. But they didn't think high enough,
never thought to escape captivity where all their needs were met.
Because of that they were slaughtered to fulfill someone elses.

She focused on that as she carved, on that hunger they had yet needed
more of. That motivation to consume but never climb. She was making
something cursed with these dark thoughts, she was sure. But she
couldn't stop the dark turn of malice in her thoughts.

The last tooth was carved, and she laid them all out in front of her.
Hunger, written twice and scratched in twelve lopsided circles.

Laying them in order, she picked the lock of hair from the cup and shook off the excess water. The solution had bleached it somewhat, but it was all the tougher for it. She braided it together to make it even tougher, and threaded it through the teeth. Tying the ends together to make an eye and cross, she burned the trailing hairs off with a candle from the lantern hanging on the wall.

Madeira waved away the acrid smoke and held the macabre jewelry up to the light. Everything seemed to be in order, which meant it was time for the hard part.

She sat on the edge of the narrow bed and laid the fetish open across her lap. She closed her eyes and breathed deep and evenly through her nose. The constant noise of the ship, the creak and the hum of burdened wood, the stomping of the feet on the deck above her, began to fade as he body focused on this one, consuming point of focus. It was the same space she used to create soulmist, a kind of inward focus as she drew hunger from the object before her. She reached out with her still bleeding thumb and pressed it to the centermost star. Her whole soul was pushing for a reaction, for an activation of the fetish.

But she felt nothing.

Malediction was not a flashy magic, she had been told. It could be very hard to tell what effect a fetish had. But she knew in a moment that her haphazard attempt and minimal skill had created nothing. The smell of burnt hair and lye lingered in the room, but she was done. And all she had to show for it was a useless piece of jewelry. It was little bracelet of small white stars, made of pigs teeth and human hair.

She almost smiled at the dichotomy of it.

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Keeping Secrets

Postby Madeira Dusk on July 16th, 2018, 12:34 am

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Madeira Craven

Skills
  • Carving: 4xp
  • Acting: 3xp
  • Persuasion: 2xp
  • Subterfuge: 2xp
  • Hypnotism: 3xp
  • Logic: 2xp
  • Embalming: 1xp
  • Malediction: 2xp

Lores
  • Chappy: a crewmember aboard the Bellipotent
  • Carving: chip, don't saw
  • Carving: work at an angle
  • Persuasion: convincing someone to open up
  • Persuasion: cutting tension with humour
  • Hypnotism: turning a lie into the truth
  • Murder: the crew are suspicious of the cause of Daniel's death
  • Persuasion: subtle use of insistence
  • Lore of embalming hair

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