[Aidara's Scrapbook] It's Real For Us

by **Aidara** on October 12th, 2011, 5:54 am

Wake Up Calls
And why I hate them.

A few pages back, I bitched about a chemistry partner that I ended up with and how I was afraid that he was going to drag me down. He was a moocher and just wanted me to do all the work.

Having attempted chemistry my first semester of college, I knew that he wasn't going to succeed, but the idea that I was pegged as someone easily pushed over irked me to no end. I still feel my heart starting to beat a little faster when I think about it.

This loser, however, dropped the class and I have been free of him ever since. Which is a good thing! I have had some awesome lab partners that have actually done their share of the work and I've been getting close to perfect grades- a complete turn around from where I was the first time I took the class.

I remember a lot of this stuff from when I took chem in high school, which was almost six years ago. Yes, six years later I am still in school... but that is a different scrap, and also a fact that I am not ashamed of. Everyone has their own pace. ANYWAY....Since all of this knowledge that I assumed was long forgotten is coming flooding back...I'm feeling pretty confident.

In the same scrap that I mentioned above, I was also ranting about how dare someone mooch off me when I'm struggling in this subject and working my ass off to understand the concepts and the math. However, I have found that I am actually doing really well. I made a 97% on my first exam, and almost all 20/20 on every lab. The quizzes are a toss up because they are pop quizzes and I just have never done well when I am surprised like that.

So I have been feeling pretty good.... But that's not good. As I was doing my homework this evening, I realized that I have slacked off- a lot. I was only doing so well because I was reading the chapters and doing all the problems available for that section. Yes, some of the stuff did build off each other and I was doing well because I knew the first part, and therefore quickly caught on to the second part...but now it's building too fast and I am having trouble keeping up.

More or less, I am writing this so that I can realize the full extent of where I have come from and what I have accomplished thus far. I have my second exam on monday, and while this is my only class this semester (for money reasons) I can't take it lightly. I have to put the time back into the work that I was before if I expect to do as well again on this exam.

So as much as I love laying around and reading and writing all day... I have to start doing the icky stuff again. And while I am at it, I might as well wake up for class early and go for a 15-20 minute walk in the morning, considering I was also bitching about weight and stuff yesterday.

I can't expect results if I don't put in any effort. I appreciate all of my friends sentiments, and the wonderful replies that they left to my scrap. Each and every one of you made me think about that topic differently while also motivating me to do better. You all said the same thing in very different ways: I can do this. I can do what I put my mind to, when and if I get around to putting my mind to it. So here goes nothing...

Wake up Julie! God... Slacker.

by **Tessa Poe** on October 12th, 2011, 8:34 am

"Overconfidence is the mind killer, it is the little death." to bastardise a phrase from someone far more talented than I

Anyway I know what you mean about slacking off when things are going well, I have a horrible tendancy to coast along rather than knuckling down and getting on with things and it drives me (and others) nuts. But there's always other things to grab your attention, that practically bounce up and down singing "Pick me! Pick me! I'm fuuuuuuun!" But hey at least you've recognised yourself that you're not happy with how much work you're putting into your course, and that's the first step, or so I've been told

I'm sure you'll keep up the same high standards you've proved you can reach already now that you have done Aida.

Oh and before I forget, congratulations on doing so well

by **Aidara** on October 13th, 2011, 1:37 am

Anniversary

My first anniversary with Miz came and went, and I didn't even notice.

Granted, I disappeared for a few months... but still. I think it's an accomplishment.

by **Jameson Kindle** on October 13th, 2011, 1:55 am

Cake Boss?

by **Aidara** on October 13th, 2011, 1:56 am

F- Cake boss. Ace of Cakes is where it's at.

by **Aidara** on October 13th, 2011, 3:16 am

by **Jameson Kindle** on October 13th, 2011, 4:18 am

Julie, are you trying to tell us something?

hahaha

by **Siiri** on October 18th, 2011, 9:18 am

Hey Jubes!

I was just saying into chat how I love your OOC posts. You're so exuberant. XD

Just read some random stuff in the boards, is all...

That is all.

by **Taln** on October 18th, 2011, 3:53 pm

I found the perfect breed for you Jules!

by **Aidara** on October 18th, 2011, 4:42 pm

Siiri- Awwww. Thank you! I try to think of myself as effervescent, especially when I'm feeling boring.

Lisa- I love it! It's funny that you say that because I was talking to Jen last night after you mentioned in that thread that you were a Pitbull. I decided that I was more like the pace-pony before a race. I am there to try and calm everyone down when the need arises, but I am still my own creature.

Case and point being Rista's thread. I just can't help but try and look at all sides of the situation and try to fix it and make everyone happy. It is so part of my personality that even though it usually backfires in my face despite my good intentions, I can't change it. I have tried, since it is a trait that puts you in direct fire of someone who is upset or whatever, and I have gotten hurt more than once. People have also tried to take it as me being condescending, which is funny because if you know me at all I am the lest condescending person on the plant but...

That was a random rant.

*Squishle hugs Siiri and Lisa*