Thieving Theatrics
Mannnn, it has been awhile since I've written in this.
I'm sorry for the lack of presence lately, my mojo goes where it wants, and currently its more focused towards youtube (not in the way you think.)
I've started a channel doing videogame "Lets Play" commentating video.. stuff.. lol. xD
Already 7 subscribers, so I must be doing something right!
Anyways! Anyways, anyways, I've started to get back into writing again, but my main focus is still towards youtube, and video games, all the time I've been on Mizahar, I have been ignoring my beloved videogames which sat and collected dust. So what game I can't do on the computer, but on an xbox or a DS, I practice the commentating stuff there, even though I can't upload any of it to youtube.
Of course Mizahar has still been on my mind, been worrying about posts I owe, threads that need to be finished, replied to, started, ect, so of course I have been thinking of this place whilst I practice on the xbox, and commentate on the computer.
But I've noticed an odd pattern, when I started up all my excited writing here, my time on my video games diminished, but when I started getting back into video games, my time on here began to diminish.
School doesn't help either, I swear the system is meant to keep people from becoming apart of the higher classes. They just work you with useless knowledge you don't even need out of school, but tell you need it anyways. I understand the bit about history, to not make the same mistakes as our ancestors, but really? Humanity already keeps on repeating the same thing over and over again. So whats the point of it? Though, I do personally find the Romans, Greeks, and the Norse culture to be fascinating and interesting to learn about, not because I don't want to end up like them.
Math is important, of course it is, for any basic person, all you need is addition, subtraction, multiplication, division and measurements. Basic math for any one whos not going to go into a field that requires alot of it, is fine, but if you wanted to get into a field where it requires you to really know your math, yeah, I understand NEEDING it. Like engineers, scientists, mathematicians, nurses, doctors ect ect ect. (to give you the correct ammount of prescriptions drugs so its not fatal, thats really important.)
>.> Am I going to be any of that? Nope.
Though if I want to have a broad list of jobs I could take up, I would need algebra for programming ( it does alot of x and y coordinates and such) But do I need geometry? NOPE. NOPE. Not at all. =n= But apparently, I do because I have to take it to get to Algebra 2, what the hell is up with that?
Algebra 1 --> GEOMETRY --> Algebra 2
Why not just teach the petching geometry during Algebra 2 when its actually needed? and how the hell do the two even relate besides they're both math stuff?! Honestly, I swear this school is somewhat the R word (retarded.)
I can do Algebra, its easy, though I need to brush up on it a bit because of school, but geometry was hard, it required so many theorems and names, NAMES, of propreties that I had to know for the class, it was stupid, seriously. Considering I have trouble remembering names already, haha, I call someone who I know (mostly anyone whos not around me 24/7) as "Person" because I can't remember their name, I know them by appearence, but their name is out the window unless for some miraculous reason I do remember their name (that means theres an obvious impression left on me, though it helps if I have their name in my adress book.. that way I see it all the time, most times) then yay.
Do I even need most of this stuff..? I initially want to be a character designer, draw out concepts for them, videogames and such. But if I could be a videogame programmer as well, that would be epic, I'd be making the videogames I love so much and when I see a videogame I worked on, and my character design is there for all to see, I think then I'll be proud of my ability to draw because then it will actually mean something, there will be meaning to the life I create with my pens and pencils. Yet heres another pattern, as soon as I started getting back into videogames, my want to draw comes back. xD So there is definitely a correlation to the two that should be had and exherted.
It really is getting to be that time where I have to be sure of what I want to do in life.. I only have senior year left after all. Then its off to college, to get a job, be independent, the very thought is scary, daunting, it taunts me with the maturity needed that I know I certainly don't have right now. Yes, I may be polite for my age, I understand things better than most my age, I don't get into trouble like others my age, I don't give into peer pressure, but the want to be independant is needed, which is something I don't have right now (I wanna enjoy my youth while it lasts, since as a child I had to grow up fast to understand what was going on around me.. XD Haha, I'm only just now getting into being a social flirt, I actually do like flirting with people now, or talking, but still rather shy.. Commentating on videogames helps my spontanious interactions and thoughts, because I'm talking to people through a video, I think so at least.)
Yet, does that make me mature enough to live on my own and keep a good routine going? Job.. Money.. Taxes.. Food.. Electricity.. Plumbing.. Rent?.. College?
@_@ hrm.. So many thoughts that are provoking..
I guess that doesn't answer the question if I'll be more active, post-wise.
My answer.. I'm trying to be. XD Some of these posts are just causing me to go into a panic attack because I can't remember how I use to write, its been that long.
As you can see, I've taken my invisibility status off so you all may know if I'm gone for a period of time or not.. Evidently, I check every day.
So yeaahhhh, ciao lovelys. |