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I realized today that I don't handle disappointment very well. I hold myself to a ridiculous standard, one that I can't really ever live up too, but it keeps me motivated. I realize my limits, my strengths, and my weaknesses but I still hold myself to that high standard nonetheless.
It's been a hell of a week, that's for sure! I spent most of last week getting ready for my sisters visit. It's the first time she'll have come to see me in California since I moved from Rhode Island over a year ago, so it was pretty exciting. We were never really all that close, so I was a bit nervous for her to show up. Amy and I are only two years apart, the dreaded number. Two years was just enough space between us that we didn't have the same friends and she was that annoying little sister, and I was the bossy older sister. But it all went great! She had an amazing time and we had a lot of fun and she has already booked a ticket to come back out and visit over the next summer Maybe we are growing up (finally).
She went home today and now I'm playing cleanup! Rushing to finish all my homework and do all the housework that was left undone the past five days as we ran around the northern half of the state all week. Stress stress stress. I had an exam on Wednesday that I just got back today... I had studied for five days prior to the exam with the anticipation of it being a toughie. I went into it feeling pretty good, but by the time I left I knew that I hadn't done so well. Normally, I would have been a nervous wreck until I got the test back but instead I was distracted by my sisters visit. I got it back today and... it wasn't so good. This is where the disappointment comes in.
I know, I know. In a year, grades won't even matter and I won't even remember. I'm mostly upset because I'm absolutely exhausted and it was just the little bit of bad news that set me over the edge. I think it was the fact that I spent SO MUCH TIME studying... for nothing. Gah. I really can't wait 'till I don't have to study for exams anymore.
On a happier(ish) note... THANKS JEN! for that video. Gave me a little panic attack watching it... but I guess I should explain for everyone else.
So, Amy was visiting, like I said earlier, so of course one of the places that we took her was Pier 39 in San Fran. My sister is a little hard to deal with in the sense that she has to do what she wants, when she wants and she really has no regard for the other people she's with to an extent. Example: I was starving because I didn't ge breakfast. She had eaten and wasn't hungry, so we were running around for hours and it was not in the agenda to stop for food because she wasn't hungry. Simple as that.
On the way off the Pier, we passed one of those little hotdog stands and Amy stopped for a minute to answer a phone call and I jumped on my opportunity. A hotdog sounded so ridiculously good that I didn't care I had to stand in line behind the TWO SLOWEST OLD WOMEN ON THE FACE OF THE PLANET. I think the hotdog lady saw how impatient I was because she took my order over their heads while they applied mustard and catsup (I swear that word is spelled with a K, but spellcheck says no.) to their 'dogs.
One $5 Jumbo Hotdog, please!
Fifteen minutes later, dog in hand, I made my way back over to where my sister and Ian were now standing impatiently waiting for me to re-join them. I managed to get a bite while I was walking because I knew Amy wouldn't want to stand there while I ate. Only... as I was lifting my hotdog to my mouth, it disappeared.
Right out of my hand.
Just gone.
I stared at the little thin piece of wrapper that they give you to hold it in, because that was the only thing left as evidence that I had even had a hotdog to begin with. I realize in retrospect that I had a dumbfounded look on my face as I look up towards where my sister is, only to find her kneeling on the ground laughing so hard I thought she was going to pee her pants. And then I look down, about five feet away.
Three seagulls were fighting over my hotdog at my feet, but within twenty seconds TOPS the dog, bun and everything was just gone. I look at Amy and Ian again and ask "What just happened?!" before bursting out into tears.
Yes, I know. If my emotional level isn't between a 3 and a 7 on a scale of 1-10 (10 being WAY TOO HAPPY) then I'm crying. It's just what I do. I cry when I'm mad, I cry when I'm sad, I cry when I'm overwhelmed... I just can't help it. Trust me, I would if I could.
So, there I am, standing in the middle of Peir 39, traumatized, crying like a baby while seagulls eat my hotdog with my sister and Ian running over to give me hugs, while everyone nearby gives the crazy person (me, duh) a wide berth.
Turns out, I had walked by the seagulls without even seeing them and they swarmed up and over my head and literally snatched the hotdog from my mouth. Amy said it was the funniest thing she's ever seen, I beg to differ. I was fine a few minutes later, the shock wearing off and resulting crying ending as well.... until I call my mom to relate the story. At first, we were all laughing and joking around, but when I finally got into the part where I had the hotdog snatched away, I start bawling again. I think my exact quote was "I don't know if I want to laugh or cry. Why would they do that to me?!"
*bows*
... I will share the unflattering video that was recorded after the incident. Don't judge me. We had just gotten off the RocketBoat and were absolutely SOAKED and windblown and an overall mess.
Right after I got done crying and started to recover.
Alright peeps, I have a lot on my plate. If you're waiting for a reply from me, you'll get it soon. I'm slowly hacking away at everything I got behind on over the weekend.
-May Syna Smile quest -Disinclined quest -Description for Daydream
-Perfume and Sand (Kalesse) -Not coming Home (Kalesse) -Shadows Crossing (Cailet) -The Ill Effects of Spying (Cailet) -Leave me Alone (Cailet) -Into the Fire (Addy) -Unfortunate Incident (Addy) -Insomniac (Addy)
If you don't see it on this list and I owe you a reply, please let me know!
by Naama on September 30th, 2012, 8:25 pm 
I want wow toys 
Maybe we are growing up (finally). 
