Seros did not quite grasp Sayana's reaction to what he had told her, but it did not escape Aren's notice; she wasn't too thrilled by the fact that she had to think of the brothers as separate entities, and it showed. The long sighs, the busy work; the signs were obvious that there was clearly a lot on her mind. It was important, however, that she realize that nothing had to change between them. Aren was still the same person he had been an hour ago.
"I am," The Akalak replied, having regained his composure. He briefly took notice of the fact that Sayana chose to sit on the chair opposite the couch, instead of next to him. Was this a conscious choice, he wondered. Was she simply uncomfortable before, or was it something else?
"And he does like you, you know, even if he stubbornly refuses to admit it," Aren said, recalling one of her earlier questions. "If he didn't, he wouldn't have put up with my melancholy for days after that first night with you, when I honestly believed I would never see you again," The Akalak admitted, somewhat sheepishly, determined to see her smile or laugh again.
It was a lot to take in, he suspected, the secret of his true nature, but he fervently hoped this didn't alter the way she looked at him. Although Aren knew that might be asking a lot considering what she had just learned, he didn't want things between them to change, and he was loathe to think that confiding in Sayana might have proven a costly gamble.
He could tell from the way she looked at him, however, straining to identify the often subtle changes in his demeanor, that things weren't the same anymore. The Akalak didn't know if this new paradigm would last, or if it would prove better or worse, but he had to resolve himself to the idea that it was done. There was no going back, and Aren could only pray to every god he'd ever heard of that this wouldn't be the last conversation he and Sayana would ever share.
She was so quiet now, so lacking in the exuberance the Eypharian had earlier demonstrated during her barrage of queries,
"Have I just made the second worst mistake of my life?" Aren questioned himself, allowing uncertainty to creep into the back of his mind.
"Do you really believe that?" Seros replied, absent judgement or conclusion.
The Akalak almost imperceptibly shook his head,
"No. If I hadn't told her, it would have been an error just the same, and I will never make that particular one twice." Aren admitted, prompting a feeling akin to appreciation from his brother.
"Just..." The injured warrior strained every muscle in his maimed body as he tried to right himself on Sayana's couch. Though he nearly had to bite his tongue to endure the pain of the attempt, Aren knew he had to look her in the eye. To know that when she answered his question, she concealed no doubt from him in order to spare his feelings, or perhaps even out of fear, "...tell me if you're alright with all this. Tell me the truth, and If you're not, I swear you'll never have to see me again." The Akalak wanted to giver her an out, he felt like he owed her that much, at least, but Aren was desperately hoping she wouldn't take it.
In contrast to so long ago, this had been the right choice, whatever happened. Now, unlike then, he and his brother could agree on that much. |
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