We hear it often.
"Life happened."
"Life got crazy."
"I was really sick."
"Work picked up."
"My professors went insane with projects this semester."
"I'm moving."
All of these mean the same thing to an RPer- the writing time is about to get scarce. Sad but true, this affects just about everyone I've ever encountered on roleplay forums. It's nice that we're all equally targeted by the world because it creates an environment of understanding and sympathy for the situation. It's also a bit of a pain because you know that, at some point, your favorite writing partner is going to wane on you.
Goss paid me a compliment the other day. She said "Prophet's a really good writer, too. He just needs to focus on a PC." Something to that extent (I'm going off memory since it was thousands of messages back in Discord) but you get the gist. As staff, we communicate more than the rest of the members and for a plethora of reasons. One of the main ones is that we all have a pretty good idea of what our individual lives are like outside of Miz. I've been struggling to post on a consistent basis as of late. I took on a big project with Ravok -which is glorious- but also time-consuming. In an effort to help get the ball rolling, I set all of my PCs aside for winter to try and get a little more caught up in their stories. If any of you are thread partners with me, you know I haven't made much progress.
That being said, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and have come to the only fair conclusion I can think of- a culling. My time on Miz seems to be less consistent than it used to be but such is the life of a man with young children. I do not wish to see Ravok closed. I'm not finished with it and I don't think it's fair to the PCs who have just started to create their stories and establish themselves (I also like the power of wearing DS pants even if they are teal). So where does that leave me? I have 5 PCs.... yes, 5. I've been a horrible thread partner for (likely) close to a year and that needs to change.
I've spent so much energy trying to balance everyone and everything that I've lost direction with some of my PCs (completely lost, in one case) and I need a way to jump start my writing again. In the spirit of Mizahar being a game, I took all of my PCs and put them in a list alphabetically from 1-10 in a repeating order. I then used chat to roll over and over until I could eliminate one after the other. I know some people will be upset or hurt and others might get mad but the truth is that if I didn't do SOMETHING, I was going to burn myself right out of Miz.
I am not retiring any PCs but I am putting a few of them on hold indefinitely. This is just the way it is. So without any further ado, the TWO surviving PCs are Allister and Berkley. For Azmere, Rhodri and Titus, their tales will have to wait until another time or when I can find more time to write. Please feel free to contact me if you need some kind of resolution. I will try to wrap up lingering threads but my main focus will be on my beautiful city and the two PCs that Discord's DiceBot selected.
I am not going anywhere! <---let it sink in. I am, however, trying to be more responsible with my time. I felt horribly guilty for almost the entire second half of 2017 because I couldn't seem to finish any plots with my PCs and that left a lot of people high and dry. I cannot write for five PCs; it's simply too much and drains my creative juices on self-defeating mantras. This is my decision and I am willing to accept that not everyone will be happy with it. Not sure what to say other than I'm sorry.
One final thing and I'll terminate this rant. The reason I set about this soul-searching is because my wife and I found out we're going to have another baby sometime this fall. I cannot, in good conscience, allow myself to be stressed over Mizahar given my present home life. Rather than give it up entirely, I made a decision to trim my load back to see if that puts me back to where writing can be cathartic and full of feels instead of grinding myself to dust over taking a nap instead of posting.
If you need me, you know where to find me. That is all.
"Life happened."
"Life got crazy."
"I was really sick."
"Work picked up."
"My professors went insane with projects this semester."
"I'm moving."
All of these mean the same thing to an RPer- the writing time is about to get scarce. Sad but true, this affects just about everyone I've ever encountered on roleplay forums. It's nice that we're all equally targeted by the world because it creates an environment of understanding and sympathy for the situation. It's also a bit of a pain because you know that, at some point, your favorite writing partner is going to wane on you.
Goss paid me a compliment the other day. She said "Prophet's a really good writer, too. He just needs to focus on a PC." Something to that extent (I'm going off memory since it was thousands of messages back in Discord) but you get the gist. As staff, we communicate more than the rest of the members and for a plethora of reasons. One of the main ones is that we all have a pretty good idea of what our individual lives are like outside of Miz. I've been struggling to post on a consistent basis as of late. I took on a big project with Ravok -which is glorious- but also time-consuming. In an effort to help get the ball rolling, I set all of my PCs aside for winter to try and get a little more caught up in their stories. If any of you are thread partners with me, you know I haven't made much progress.
That being said, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and have come to the only fair conclusion I can think of- a culling. My time on Miz seems to be less consistent than it used to be but such is the life of a man with young children. I do not wish to see Ravok closed. I'm not finished with it and I don't think it's fair to the PCs who have just started to create their stories and establish themselves (I also like the power of wearing DS pants even if they are teal). So where does that leave me? I have 5 PCs.... yes, 5. I've been a horrible thread partner for (likely) close to a year and that needs to change.
I've spent so much energy trying to balance everyone and everything that I've lost direction with some of my PCs (completely lost, in one case) and I need a way to jump start my writing again. In the spirit of Mizahar being a game, I took all of my PCs and put them in a list alphabetically from 1-10 in a repeating order. I then used chat to roll over and over until I could eliminate one after the other. I know some people will be upset or hurt and others might get mad but the truth is that if I didn't do SOMETHING, I was going to burn myself right out of Miz.
I am not retiring any PCs but I am putting a few of them on hold indefinitely. This is just the way it is. So without any further ado, the TWO surviving PCs are Allister and Berkley. For Azmere, Rhodri and Titus, their tales will have to wait until another time or when I can find more time to write. Please feel free to contact me if you need some kind of resolution. I will try to wrap up lingering threads but my main focus will be on my beautiful city and the two PCs that Discord's DiceBot selected.
I am not going anywhere! <---let it sink in. I am, however, trying to be more responsible with my time. I felt horribly guilty for almost the entire second half of 2017 because I couldn't seem to finish any plots with my PCs and that left a lot of people high and dry. I cannot write for five PCs; it's simply too much and drains my creative juices on self-defeating mantras. This is my decision and I am willing to accept that not everyone will be happy with it. Not sure what to say other than I'm sorry.
One final thing and I'll terminate this rant. The reason I set about this soul-searching is because my wife and I found out we're going to have another baby sometime this fall. I cannot, in good conscience, allow myself to be stressed over Mizahar given my present home life. Rather than give it up entirely, I made a decision to trim my load back to see if that puts me back to where writing can be cathartic and full of feels instead of grinding myself to dust over taking a nap instead of posting.
If you need me, you know where to find me. That is all.
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