Summer, 15, 511 AV When you didn’t eat and drink, when you never slept, time seemed to drag on forever. Even as a new Nuit, a man who had been alive but a month or two ago, the former Vantha found that unbearable. He had never realized how many hours were in a day until now – and how many hours he had wasted in bed when his heart had still been beating. He was alone for seven or eight hours each and every day, with nothing but his unpleasant and melancholic thoughts to keep him company. It was a challenge to fill all that empty time with something meaningful. Since his return he had come to know Avanthal better than when he had been alive, when he had still been living among the members of the Snowsong Hold. He had taken countless walks through the city, but most often he lingered in the market place, looking at the wares that were on display. Sometimes he bought a bit of food, even though his dead body couldn’t digest it anymore. He still enjoyed the feel of it, the smell, the warmth of something freshly cooked. Sometimes, like today, he walked through the Menagerie, admiring the animals, wondering if maybe a pet would fill the emptiness inside his soul. Would an animal tolerate the presence of a creature such as the one he had become, a walking, talking corpse? Would an animal notice that there was something strange about him? Or did animals not care as long as you fed them and gave them a little love, whatever form the love of a man whose skin was cold to the touch took? He stood in front of the fire in the center of the Menagerie for a moment, rubbing his hands together, but then he abruptly stepped away, worried that the heat would dry his fragile body out, that he would be burned, that he would only lose the body he had had for all the twenty-four years that he had existed in this world faster. He had become careful since his death in Ravok, ever aware of how quickly it could be over, how soon he would have to wear a stranger’s face. He approached one of the small buildings that housed the vendors instead and stood in front of the window. It was covered with a bit of snow and ice. He raised a gloved hand, to wipe some of it away. Had a mortal man touched the frozen window, some of the ice would eventually have melted, but his body lacked warmth, and thus the ice remained, keeping him from looking through the window, into the house. |