Such a question was difficult to answer, yet it had been on his mind for days now. Yet, he ignored it, until it was asked by the Knighthood. Could he truly dedicate himself fully to them? He had never dedicated himself fully to anything. He had offered up his life countless times for Endrykas, risked his life for friends, and even sacrificed comfort for vengeance. However, he had never fully donated everything he was to a cause. He stood there for a moment, a long painful uncomfortable moment. He was a responsible man, and he would do anything he promised to do, but the question was, would this promise help him recover what he had lost? Or would it only trap him in disappointment and distress. Eldon, after a long moment, shook his head slowly. "I'm sorry, I have wasted your time. I need to think this over. A long, careful judgement. Please, give me time to see more of these lands, talk more to your people, and I'll return with my answer, someday." Eldon sighed, feeling that he had disappointed yet another pair of people, perhaps three if you counted his Drykas translator. So be it, he had to think about himself for now, else he wouldn't be able to assist anybody, needy or not, in anything. Slowly, he turned and exited the room, then without much more than an embarrassed smile towards the one-armed receptionist, left the building. He would return someday, perhaps with the desire to fully marry himself to the Syliran Knighthood, to honorable duty, but for now, he just couldn't accept that. Not until he was ready, and sure of it. |