There had been days where he’d promised himself that he’d seek out Seodai; that he’d tell him, show him, the man—the boy—he was before he died. The body in which he would spend half of his life; a life with no end, he’d been told, barring disease or mortal wound; a life free of age, however badly he would come to want it. Whenever he managed to shuffle his iron-weighted feet to the bend in the road that lead towards Theo’s farm, he stopped, and that familiar sick feeling in his stomach sent him running home. It felt like deception, and because he could never rationalize what motivated him, the game inspired as much confusion as it did guilt.
A careless stumble seconds earlier could have very well brought a means to end it—and despite his reservations in continuing the facade, Lysander was positive that a public festival was no place for such an unveiling.
Lysander had opened his mouth to yell at Talen, stupid Talen, for shouting his name like some meat-headed oaf, but something drew the very breath from his lungs and bathed him in blinding light. He was deaf to the shuffle and murmur of the immediate crowd as Leth claimed him, aged him, made him beautiful as day officially rolled over for night. When the light petered out, and Lysander was left in the glory of his autumn colors before Seodai and Talen—gold on gold on gold—he smiled sheepishly. “Of course I came.” The truth was he hadn’t planned on seeking out the farmer until he had safely changed elsewhere. In private. Discomfort rotted the lining of his stomach. He had felt the eyes on him, but the sensation passed as the hum of a thousand conversations at once started up again.
The Ethaefal dipped and swung his legs over the long bench to sit beside Seodai before rolling up a set of sleeves that were too short on a shirt that was almost suffocating across his chest. “I will have a drink, thank you,” his belated reply to Talen was far calmer than his initial instinct. When the mug of degtine was slid across the table to land in the junction of his palms, he lifted it and drank deep, aching for that tingling burn on his lips, hot fingertips reaching down his throat, through his chest. When he tilted his head sideways, gravity pulled him further than he intended, and curvaceous horn grazed the gentle slope of Seodai’s shoulder. Lysander jerked away almost immediately, lifting his mug back to his lips with a chuckle. However apparent it was to the rest of their tiny world, the fallen knew naught of the fire he lit in the poor blonde’s heart.
“You sound surprised,” he added, turning his honeyed smile on Seodai’s sun-kissed face, “that I’m here, that is.”
A careless stumble seconds earlier could have very well brought a means to end it—and despite his reservations in continuing the facade, Lysander was positive that a public festival was no place for such an unveiling.
Lysander had opened his mouth to yell at Talen, stupid Talen, for shouting his name like some meat-headed oaf, but something drew the very breath from his lungs and bathed him in blinding light. He was deaf to the shuffle and murmur of the immediate crowd as Leth claimed him, aged him, made him beautiful as day officially rolled over for night. When the light petered out, and Lysander was left in the glory of his autumn colors before Seodai and Talen—gold on gold on gold—he smiled sheepishly. “Of course I came.” The truth was he hadn’t planned on seeking out the farmer until he had safely changed elsewhere. In private. Discomfort rotted the lining of his stomach. He had felt the eyes on him, but the sensation passed as the hum of a thousand conversations at once started up again.
The Ethaefal dipped and swung his legs over the long bench to sit beside Seodai before rolling up a set of sleeves that were too short on a shirt that was almost suffocating across his chest. “I will have a drink, thank you,” his belated reply to Talen was far calmer than his initial instinct. When the mug of degtine was slid across the table to land in the junction of his palms, he lifted it and drank deep, aching for that tingling burn on his lips, hot fingertips reaching down his throat, through his chest. When he tilted his head sideways, gravity pulled him further than he intended, and curvaceous horn grazed the gentle slope of Seodai’s shoulder. Lysander jerked away almost immediately, lifting his mug back to his lips with a chuckle. However apparent it was to the rest of their tiny world, the fallen knew naught of the fire he lit in the poor blonde’s heart.
“You sound surprised,” he added, turning his honeyed smile on Seodai’s sun-kissed face, “that I’m here, that is.”