by Philomena on February 12th, 2013, 2:46 pm
The funeral had already made the day long and exhausting. She had hardly had time to remove her bright silk robes, and yet... Perhaps before, she would have hid away in her room for the afternoon, perhaps. The announcements of Maria were not subtle things. She need not go to hear what was said - she would hear it rehashed and picked over by every lip in the city the next day.
And yet...
That piece of her heart that gnawed on the bones of this plague, that piece that she caught glancing from the corner of her eyes at shadowed figures, at heads of blond hair, at the movement of quiet, narrow forms in crowds, that piece would gnaw worse at her, there, alone, unknowing. And so she had put a dress on, her bravest tartan jumper with a sash tied around the middle, and thrown together a lunch quickly - so quickly that the fish knife had cut her own hand, the taste of her own blood on the fish she gobbled up to be off to the city. She bound the hand in linen, and went off quickly, driven by that insatiable need, to know, to hear.
And hear she did. She retained her composure through most of it, but then, Maria had looked out in the crowd with her sharp eyes.
*There is one among us that carries the will of their deity*
And the last of Minnie's guards had broken down. It was Lanie. It had to be. It had to be, it was just like before. All of it fell on Minnie with a crushing, suffocating force. And the city was looking for her. Minnie looked around the crowd, suddenly overpowered with a surety, that somewhere in this city, her sister was hiding, and the city wanted to kill her.
She began to shake in the crowd - and started to push through it, trying to see, trying to get closer to the front. She squeezed in beside a tall Waveguardsmen. She closed her eyes, and thought.
And she felt it.
It was not a real feeling - it was the sort of feeling one imagines in a situation where one needs to perceive a thing incapable of perception. But she closed her eyes and felt, in her mind, something, the cold pull of the plague around her, felt the threads of it, the warp and woof of it, and felt, almost, almost... almost the hand at the head of it, the block of the bloom, pressing more strangs onto its source. She opened her eyes and looked about her wildly, scanning the crowd - a tall woman, but too stout for Lanie. There, a golden head, but it was a man, a sailor. There, a graceful step, but... no. No, no it wasn't her. The crowd began to break up, to grow loud in muttered conversations, to disperse. Minnie squeezed through it, her linen bound hand banging painfully against the others in the crowd... no. No. No, she wasn't here. She wasn't here.