[Redd's Scrapbook] My Ramblings

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[Redd's Scrapbook] How I Made Redd~

Postby Redd on September 9th, 2014, 3:16 pm

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How I Made Redd~

So, today I was asked in chat as to how and why I made Redd and so, instead of making some bull-crap right on the spot, I decided to voluntarily write 1,000+ words as to how and why I made my character, Redd. As is follows~

Redd was made for many specific reasons, but she was only born from two main ones. I had a strong liking for wolves, in fact I was going through a craze where I would watch or fan-girl, so to speak, over wolf images. So I wanted a character that could shift into a wolf. After much procrastinating, because I couldn’t actual decide as to whether I wanted to be a ghost or a kelvic, I chose kelvic. Why did I choose to be a kelvic? Because not only could they shift into animals, but they bonded with an actual bond which made them very unique in their own right. I also liked the fact that they were always seeking for some kind of connection because of this urge to bond, to find this person where they would instantly be able to connect with. Their aging process worried me a little because I wanted a character that would last for a while, but I now know that the chances of someone actually threading for more than six years is pretty slim. However! I hope to still be threading in six years, if I can manage to keep people around for Redd to thread with.

Now, I know that I mentioned in chat, that I also chose Redd to be kelvic because I have a deep seated love for animals. While it is true that I could have chosen Animal Husbandry as a skill for a normal character, I also had an affinity for trying to think as to why an animal may or may not do the things they do. I liked to try and get inside their minds, to see things from their point of view, to experiences things and question it, to show curiousity and possibly get burned from it, or injured from that type of curiousity. I also liked the idea of trying to show things, to try and describe to people as to how someone who has a human mind and body, may react when all they have really known is the life of an animal. That idea really popped up inside my mind and it struck me to the core, so I wanted to try and do this. To build a character, that experienced life as an animal, only to be thrust into the world of human beings, of people that live in the cities. To be someone, who knows how to be more of an animal than man. To be a stranger to civilization and to question every move that a human may make, to be someone, who doesn’t understand why material objects are so important to some people when a simple life could be had instead.

So after-wards, I had to develop a history that would not only make Redd run into the wilds, but also have a dis-trust of humans and their motives. So I came up with the idea of Redd having a human mother who couldn’t understand at first that her own daughter was kelvic, that Redd’s father had been a kelvic. So when Redd had first shifted into her wolf form, which she was only a pup in appearance, her mother freaked and had literally kicked the child that she did not understand, out the door. Now while that could have been a simple enough cause to have distrust of humans and their activities develop there, I also wanted to have the fact that Redd was also chased out of the city by children, also planting the seed of hate and anger there as well. A cause that would keep her away from the cities and from away humans long enough until she hit the three year mark. She would have also been young enough where, her doubting mother probably wouldn’t have named her, until she was sure that the child she had birth was not some creation of evil. Which is why Redd had disappeared into the wilds and named herself after her coat colour, as Redd. I was thinking that seeing as she couldn’t read or write, that adding an extra ‘d’ or something would make her feel as though that is what her name should look like when written. I don’t know, I haven’t exactly gotten that far down the written path of her life.

Her skills, well they were fairly simple to choose really, seeing as being as a wolf, she did need to have some kind of wilderness survival, some hunting which she would have learned from the pack of wolves that she joined. Foraging for when she was a pup and she would have had to have eaten something for her teeth wouldn’t have been fully developed at the age of two months, so she would have had to of eaten something like berries. While although wolves are primarily meat eaters, they have also been known to eat other things such as berries, especially when they cannot find a great deal in the way of meat. I also threw in tracking because she would have helped and learned a little bit in these skills for when she went hunting with the pack. Indeed! She was apart of a pack for a while. I wanted her to be in that pack so then she could settle into a more animalistic mind-frame, where she would see things more from an animal’s point of view, than that of a human’s, especially when she suddenly found herself in her world. In fact, her previous master found it easier for him to use the pack of wolves as reference in many of his explanations while trying to describe civilization.

In truth, I absolutely adore this character, because she is constantly questioning things and I made her so then, when she finds herself in trouble, she could always fall back onto the more primal instincts, which is survival. She had to survive as a pup on her own for so long and she almost perished because of it, almost died of starvation because she hadn’t experienced that until then. So when she suddenly finds that her master has left her behind with no food in a thread, she is able to recognize the signs of hunger, the familiar hollow feeling within her stomach and the strength that would soon leave her body. She knew that one thing would lead after another and eventually she would find herself back in the same position that she had once found herself in during a winter season. Half starving, cold and barely able to keep conscious. Which led to her attacking a human because he wouldn’t give her the food to survive, so she fell back onto the familiar and basic knowledge of, “Survival of the fittest.”

All of this, her basic instincts, her lack of a pack and lack of knowledge, made her become some-what a lone wolf, she sees herself as a lone wolf and that is what I wanted. A kelvic denied to truly become a part of a pack because she is also human, even though she considers herself more wolf than human. Not only that, but she is also denied from ever truly fitting in with the human civilization because she does not understand it and also because of her kelvic nature. Hench the catch phrase, ‘The Lone Wolf’ Now, with Redd, I also wanted her to be loyal in nature, not just because of the bonding thing, but because she wants to serve those that she trusts, she wants to serve those that deserves her loyalties. So after every time that she finds herself in a situation where her loyalties were mis-placed, a sense of loneliness also comes into play and she struggles with that fact. She feels like she cannot find some place, to call home, to find someone that she can truly trust in, to find someone, that will just simply accept her for who she truly is. All she wants, is to be accepted and that, is her over-all wish.

~So, now you know my reasoning and such behind Redd, feel free to drop any more questions down below. Once I have enough questions, I'll do up another post and I shall answer them as best as I possible can.


~Zebra



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[Redd's Scrapbook] Grading Book & Pen~

Postby Redd on September 11th, 2014, 9:11 am

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Grading Book & Pen~

Someone asked whether I grade with an actual pen and paper and so I decided to shared with you guys, an image of my grading book and pen.


~ Zebra


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[Redd's Scrapbook] Didn't Need to See That~

Postby Redd on September 13th, 2014, 8:29 am

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Didn't Need to See That~

I just absolutely had to share this with you all, it's just to damn funny not to!




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[Redd's Scrapbook] Just Because~

Postby Redd on September 16th, 2014, 7:27 am

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Just Because~

Because I needed a pick-me-up, that's why.
[WARNING: Contains the word 'Fuck' many times, as it's a video that explains the many uses for the word. If you do not like the word 'Fuck,' then do not watch. You have been warned!]




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[Redd's Scrapbook] An Update~

Postby Redd on September 19th, 2014, 1:20 am

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An Update~

So, I figured that I would give everyone a head's up. I may be moving AGAIN, so replies may become slow and some days, may not exist. If we are not moving again, I still have to make a five hour trip to see my specialist within the next five days. While I would love to put off my specialist appointment to stay on Mizahar and happily type away, I cannot unfortunately. So, if I do manage to post replies, it's because I'm on my tablet, so please bear with me.

Just a small update about the grading. I know I haven't done much in the way of grading because I have been focusing a great deal on my characters, but soon I will be having a day where I will just do grading once a week. I will mostly be focused upon Sunberth, Zeltiva and Kenash.

Other than that, enjoy some good ole Ronan Keating. I really like this song of his.




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[Redd's Scrapbook] A Chronic Thinker~

Postby Redd on September 26th, 2014, 9:01 am

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A Chronic Thinker~

Yes, I am what most people would call, a chronic thinker. My mind rarely shuts off because I'm always trying to find ways to pull myself apart or to help others. Indeed, I'm not always the cheerful person I seem to be, because I do tend to hide it under false pretenses. So what caused this post about self doubt and chronic thinking? My characters did. Well, more importantly, someone critiquing my character and it's name. Black Onyx. Ugh, I know, it's not very original. In fact, Onyx is Black and Black is Onyx, hence why I put the two together. Hey, apparently it's something to go all troll over and boy do I get sick of it. I mean, yes it's a flaming colour, but do you even know the character? I do have two characters named after colours, but they are kelvics, not that anyone cares about why I named so, so I'm not even gunna bother explaining myself.

I hate trolls, I really do, because they end up plunging me back in time when I was a high school student hiding in the library or the back of the class so then bullies would leave me alone. Making myself scarce in high school was a priority, it was my number one priority in school and at home. Bullies drove me to write, to start role-playing and I had for a while enjoyed role-playing on a site that wasn't Mizahar. Then trolls started cropping up and it turned into a, 'who could be the better troll' chat. I stopped role-playing because of that, because role-playing was no longer fun because of the trolls. So I stopped role-playing for a couple of years, no longer finding it fun.

At the start of this year, I found myself out of work and constantly seeing doctors. I started feeling down again, so, I decided that role-playing would be good for me, so I found Mizahar. I signed up and I have been enjoying it. The threading has been great and MOST people are cool and lack most of the trolling traits that the last site had. I could sit in chat, discuss plots and have a general laugh. If I had questions, I could ask and if somone else had questions that I could answer, I would. Sure, some people got on my nerves, but I held my tongue, until today. I hate trolls, I really do, because they take the fun out of everything, just to please themselves. To make themselves out to be the top dog, the better person. I deal with people who troll me and bring me down on a daily basis in real life, I don't need to deal with it where I go to escape from it all as well.

Anyway, that's enough of my thinking thoughts, so I shall leave you with a funny video.


~Zebra




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[Redd's Scrapbook] ~Just Because

Postby Redd on October 8th, 2014, 5:09 am

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~Just Because




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[Redd's Scrapbook] ~Me and My Red Hair!

Postby Redd on October 13th, 2014, 8:50 am

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~Me and My Red Hair!

For those of who wanted to see my awesome red hair. xD

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[Redd's Scrapbook] ~A Heads Up

Postby Redd on October 16th, 2014, 4:02 pm

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~A Heads Up

Hey guys,

I know I've sort of been a little vacant of late, mostly because I've been feeling a little meh. So, I apologize for my slow replies and soon everything will get back on track with the posting. Expect replies within the next couple of days!

~Zebra




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[Redd's Scrapbook] ~A Rant of Some Kind

Postby Redd on October 20th, 2014, 8:08 pm

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~A Rant of Some Kind

So... Yes I'm back, kinda. I know, it's pretty early for me at he moment, six in the morning to be exact. Insomnia caught a tight hold on me and I'm pretty sure that it's because I have a lot on my mind. I'm slowly going through my thread list replying to everyone that I owe replies to, but I have to tell you guys the truth. My heart just ain't in it anymore. Redd, my main gal has basically come to a stand still and every idea that I come up with, breaks and burns up before it has even begun. Bondmate? Went out the window due to a lot of complications arising. Her first master? Promised to stick around, but had to disappear because of real life. Her half sister? Retired before Redd could even find out that she had one. Her second master? Has sorta disappeared because they have decided to start partying away and getting drunk.

Don't you have other characters? Yes! I do! However, Lynx has even took a plunge as only one person seems to be threading with her at the moment and everyone else that she had threads with, just sorta disappeared for one reason or another. Shalita is just... Slow. Mostly she has one person threading with her at any one point, although someone wants to start hitting on her and I don't know. I'll do the thread, but again, my heart just ain't in it. Black and Shadiss seems to be the only characters that have people that stick around to thread with, but for how long? I have no idea. It's all just dis-encouraging and I really want to say 'Fuck it, I give up,' but something inside of me just keeps pushing in hopes that things will get better. However, it all just seems grim to me as I count up all of my threads. Thirty-four in total and only ten are getting replies and even those active threads are dwindling as people just stop replying.

Can you imagine all of those inactive threads just sitting there? I can, because I stare at my list every day and just simply seethe in anger. Honestly, some days I just want to break something and so, the last week, I dashed underneath the covers of my blankets and watched The Vampire Diaries. I even re-watched all of my NCIS from seasons one to ten. I sit in chat and half the time I don't even say anything, because I don't know what to say without sounding negative. For once I just want someone to follow through on something, but I honestly doubt it. I don't make any main story plot lines for my characters because I tell myself 'What is the point?'

I have to tell you guys and be honest. More than once I've juggled the idea of just simply retiring my PCs, but I feel like I have a duty to the people that I'm currently threading with, to complete them and have since stopped accepting any new threads. Chances are, I'll probably back burn a couple of characters and just thread with a couple, but it won't be as much as I used to, because I'm tired of feeling like I'm always left hanging. People tell me that they will reply, but half the time I don't get them and I have honestly stopped expecting that I will get replies. I'm tired and honestly, the past few days that I have been doing replies, I have been fighting the urge to just quit and put it off for another day. To just go curl up under the blankets. Sometimes I even wonder if people actually give a damn as to whether they thread with me or not. Whether they are just pity threading with me because I just don't make the cut of being worthy to keep track of.

Anyway, that's all I guess that I had to get off of my mind, but it didn't really help my insomnia. I haven't exactly decided to leave, so for now I'm staying but if things just don't improve over the next season or two, I'm just gunna end up giving up. I can only hold out hope for so long.

~Zebra



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