Closed Grief of a Mother (Asen)

[Sayana]

Training. Yes, that seemed to explain it. Sayana gave a brief nod at Asen’s explanation. Squires were always training. Training, training, patrolling, training. Sayana was not in much condition to pry further. After the half-dhani climbed up onto the pier, Sayana placed her two mid hands on the edge to pull herself up and at the same time grasped Asen’s offered hand with one of her highs. Once she had clambered up and stood before the woman, she gave a long soft sigh. It was done. She could look for peace, if she could find it. She gave a quick glance at the part of the dock where the baby had been buried beneath.

Then it was time for Asen to go. “Just one more thing,” the Eypharian spoke quickly. She stepped forwards to give the squire one more embrace. She might have even held it for a whole chime and after she broke it she said, “Thank you Asen. For everything. I… I am glad I didn’t have to do it alone. And I’ll come and find you if I need any more help. Or just someone to talk to. You’re at the squire dormitories, yes? I can barge in there shouting your name?” She smiled slightly at the bit of humor in her last sentence.

“You’re a good friend Asen. Maybe I’ll have you over at my place sometime.” Despite the way her heart still ached for the loss of her son, it helped to focus on the people who were still part of her life. It seemed that she might have a brief lapse in her sorrows, where things felt just a little more okay. It was dark though, and it was really time for them both to go home. “Bye Asen. I’ll see you again.” Sayana said with a wave of a high hand. With that she began heading in the direction of her home.

OOCIt was a little short, but it felt like the thread was finishing up.

[Asen]

Just one more thing? Asen took a half-step back, a physical attempt to avoid further conflict. Was Sayana going to unleash her anger at herself and Asen? Was she going to jerk her sleeves up to inspect her injuries? Did she plan on shoving her off the pier to hide what she'd done? The last one would've been a blessing, not having to do it herself.

What they Eypharian did was much worse. Her many arms enveloped the half-Dhani in what felt like a tight embrace, summoning unwanted memories.

She was trapped. She couldn't get out. She couldn't scream for help. There was no one around to hear. She couldn't stop moving. The blue body that held her captive would do terrible things to her. He promised. He promised that he would do it, and here he was. He had his body pressed into hers and she couldn't escape.

The arms withdrew.

The fear went with them, albeit slowly. The squire waited a tick, Sayana's soothing voice drawing her back to what was real. "I- Dorms, yeah. Or the Stallion. Or Trainin' Grounds. Just ask a squire or a knight t'come an' find me. You en't allowed in the Trainin' Grounds," she said.

Soon you'll find me at bottom of the harbor.

The words good and friend lined up next to each other punched a hole in her chest, one bigger than the one that was already there. A good friend? She was the worst friend in history. She helped bury someone's child, that could hardly warrant the title of 'good friend.' In fact, it would make more sense to not ever want to be around her ever again. Surely it would just bring back the pain?

"Bye, Sayana," she whispered, watching the many-armed woman go. When she was out of sight the blonde turned back to the water, staring at it. For a short moment she wanted to live a bit longer, but that feeling was swept away in a torrent of grief. No, she would never be a good friend. Sayana was mistaken.

That tiny spark of life, however, was what told her to walk away from the edge of the pier and wait just a few more days. Perhaps then Sayana would regret calling her a good friend.

OOCI'll go ahead and turn it in if you don't have any objections

[Nivel]

Sayana : XP Award: Endurance 3 Rhetoric 3 Digging 1 Body Building 1 Interrogation 1 Lore: Mourning the loss of a child Location:The Syrian Harbour Asen: Lost two twin girls What your body does doesn’t make you a monster. Admitting an uncomfortable truth to Asen The gods don’t curse that easily Asen: Has Mysterious cuts on her arms. Asen: A good friend. Notes: O__O why are you doing this to me? T__T The feels! Asen : XP Award: Rhetoric 3 Interrogation 1 Observation 3 Endurance 4 Philosophy 2 Digging 2 Body building 2 Subterfuge 1 Lore: Sayana: Lost her child Bonding over pain with Sayana Remembering the twins What your body does doesn’t make you a monster Sayana’s confession Sayana: Strongest women I know Sayana’s lost baby was going to be named Serend Notes:Is anything going to go good for Asen? in the next thread you do can you give her a puppy or something, make sure it’s extra cute, fluffy and immortal. Additional Comments: If you have any questions or concerns please feel free to message me.