He didn’t know what to expect. He knew that what had happened wasn’t a bad thing, from an objective point of view. But it was something big. It was divine, yes, but not just a mark of favor. Caiyha did not give, she enabled; it was a mark of duty. It compelled service, not through worship or sacrifice, but through action. His eyes had been opened, and in the span of a single evening, his entire life had changed. It was no longer a matter of just hunting; that was a job far too restrictive now.
With this mark, Caiyha had given him the entire world and then asked him to fix it.
Naiya stilled when her eyes landed on his arm. He tensed, inexplicably nervous; what would she think of it? Would it change anything? Would she look at him differently now it was there? Possibilities ran through his mind without end, and he waited with bated breath for her to react, and to give him any sort of clue as to what this new change would do to the both of them.
After long, painful moment, acceptance fell onto her shoulder. He blinked. Alright. That wasn’t exactly what he had been hoping for, but it was better than something more negative.
Then she set herself back to the task of his hair, hands speaking subtle questions about what she was seeing. He dipped his head to give her better access, but did his best to keep her face in sight. Was she angry? Was she sad? Was she happy?
The only thing he could clearly see was her focus. She took up a comb and began to work through the messy clumps and snarls atop his head.
“It was all so fast,” he murmured, desperate for some sort of communication. “I didn’t know what was waiting for me. I just wanted to make us safe from the spearbacks. They aren’t supposed to be awake in the winter, but they were. They killed the Hazelweeds. I wanted to make sure they wouldn’t do the same to us.” Hopeful, shy, love? Would understanding bring her back to him?
He turned his arm to gaze at what had come of it all. He watched the grass shiver in wind he couldn’t feel, and he watched the birds fluff up against it. Even through such a small window, it was easy to see that it was winter inside his skin; the grass was brown and brittle, and the birds were thick with seasonal plumage.
“I found them, and they were all… wrong. Their spines didn’t poison us, and they were starving. I didn’t know why. But then they came, men, not Drykas, but strangers. They had dogs and so I followed them to where they were making their camp.”
Here Shahar had to pause, as disgust began to stir within him. The evidence of their foul work might have gone up in flames, but the memory of it still had the power to make him feel sick.
“They had… they were hunters. And tanners. But…” revulsion, “they didn’t hunt. They slaughtered. Their camp, they had skins… so many skins, I couldn’t count them. More skins than I have ever hunted in my life. More skins than Endrykas has zibri. The Drykas could not take this many in seasons of hunting; they took the skins and kept them, and they didn’t eat the meat. They gave it to their dogs, or they threw it away. They had horse skins, Naiya.”
He halted again, hesitant to continue. The reality of their crimes had been revolting, it was true, but his response hadn’t been exactly far off. He held no guilt regarding the fates of the two tanners, or of what he had done to them. Whether or not they deserved it was not a question in his mind.
But to Naiya, he didn’t know it would seem like.
“I stopped them,” he said. It was a quick glossing over of the details. It was an easier truth to say than I killed them. “And then she came.” He gestured to his arm, traces of wonder still lingering on his posture at the thought of it. “She came to me, and she opened my eyes. I know things now… I can see like I couldn’t before. There are things in this world, Naiya, and they need to be fixed. She showed me how wrong things are, everywhere. There are wounds, and she’s telling me to heal them. Everywhere.”
He made a wide gesture, one that vaguely included the entire world in its scope. How else might he have described it? Through his arm, he knew that things were inherently not as they were supposed to be. It was a broad, vast knowledge that he couldn’t put to words; he just knew. And it was the closest place he could come to speaking of it.
With this mark, Caiyha had given him the entire world and then asked him to fix it.
Naiya stilled when her eyes landed on his arm. He tensed, inexplicably nervous; what would she think of it? Would it change anything? Would she look at him differently now it was there? Possibilities ran through his mind without end, and he waited with bated breath for her to react, and to give him any sort of clue as to what this new change would do to the both of them.
After long, painful moment, acceptance fell onto her shoulder. He blinked. Alright. That wasn’t exactly what he had been hoping for, but it was better than something more negative.
Then she set herself back to the task of his hair, hands speaking subtle questions about what she was seeing. He dipped his head to give her better access, but did his best to keep her face in sight. Was she angry? Was she sad? Was she happy?
The only thing he could clearly see was her focus. She took up a comb and began to work through the messy clumps and snarls atop his head.
“It was all so fast,” he murmured, desperate for some sort of communication. “I didn’t know what was waiting for me. I just wanted to make us safe from the spearbacks. They aren’t supposed to be awake in the winter, but they were. They killed the Hazelweeds. I wanted to make sure they wouldn’t do the same to us.” Hopeful, shy, love? Would understanding bring her back to him?
He turned his arm to gaze at what had come of it all. He watched the grass shiver in wind he couldn’t feel, and he watched the birds fluff up against it. Even through such a small window, it was easy to see that it was winter inside his skin; the grass was brown and brittle, and the birds were thick with seasonal plumage.
“I found them, and they were all… wrong. Their spines didn’t poison us, and they were starving. I didn’t know why. But then they came, men, not Drykas, but strangers. They had dogs and so I followed them to where they were making their camp.”
Here Shahar had to pause, as disgust began to stir within him. The evidence of their foul work might have gone up in flames, but the memory of it still had the power to make him feel sick.
“They had… they were hunters. And tanners. But…” revulsion, “they didn’t hunt. They slaughtered. Their camp, they had skins… so many skins, I couldn’t count them. More skins than I have ever hunted in my life. More skins than Endrykas has zibri. The Drykas could not take this many in seasons of hunting; they took the skins and kept them, and they didn’t eat the meat. They gave it to their dogs, or they threw it away. They had horse skins, Naiya.”
He halted again, hesitant to continue. The reality of their crimes had been revolting, it was true, but his response hadn’t been exactly far off. He held no guilt regarding the fates of the two tanners, or of what he had done to them. Whether or not they deserved it was not a question in his mind.
But to Naiya, he didn’t know it would seem like.
“I stopped them,” he said. It was a quick glossing over of the details. It was an easier truth to say than I killed them. “And then she came.” He gestured to his arm, traces of wonder still lingering on his posture at the thought of it. “She came to me, and she opened my eyes. I know things now… I can see like I couldn’t before. There are things in this world, Naiya, and they need to be fixed. She showed me how wrong things are, everywhere. There are wounds, and she’s telling me to heal them. Everywhere.”
He made a wide gesture, one that vaguely included the entire world in its scope. How else might he have described it? Through his arm, he knew that things were inherently not as they were supposed to be. It was a broad, vast knowledge that he couldn’t put to words; he just knew. And it was the closest place he could come to speaking of it.