Having fallen still again, Kovac's eyes shifted and strained to follow his crystalline heart skid across the floor. Chemar's deceptively smooth voice taunted him again, the nonchalance of her tone contrasted eerily with the bizarre horror of her deeds. The bloody inarta moved like an apparition around him, and it seemed almost imperceptible as the wall disappeared and she stood behind him. He felt her push against the blood-turned-mask, and it tumbled to the floor to crash as his heart had.
He gasped with relief, free of the terrible restraint, but the man was not given back his movement. Soft hands, fingers like the legs of spiders crept onto his muscled shoulders, and he started as her smooth cheek leaned in to rest against his. Chemar's touch proved both exhilarating and terrifying, for she possessed a magnetism that played upon the malevolent things she had done. She was like a dark addiction, like seeing someone tortured, and getting a sick thrill out of it.
Kovac shuddered, he did not know if in fear or anticipation, as the woman's warm breath flowed by his face and swirled around them in an expanding cyclone. In amazement he stared as the strange, nowhere-ness of the room dissolved and the wintry landscape returned. But this time, the avora's skin tightened at the frigid sting of the cold air and blowing snow. As his lungs ached and resisted breathing in the frozen atmosphere, his flesh screamed in pain until the cold had numbed his nerves, his bones rattling with uncontrolled shivers.
From the corner of his eye, Kovac saw the red-head lean in again. He did not feel her lips against his skin at first. But soon, amidst the overwhelming cold, a warmth crept through to his cheek, gaining momentum and heat as it spread from her soft mouth to encompass his body, returning sensation to his skin, stillness to his bones and relief to his laboring lungs. Then he could feel Chemar, the fullness of her lips against his face, even the delicate flutter of her long eyelashes. Kovac felt a longing for her contact to persist, to feel more of her kiss drag across his skin. But she would not offer him even that luxury.
Kovac made an attempt to move, still unsure whether he would run from or to the dream walker if he found his freedom. But he was still held fast by the touch of her hands on his shoulders, and all he could do was stare in helpless confusion as his mother appeared before him again within the blizzard, her arrow again pointed at him. He heard Chemar's voice again, so close, like a dark angel poised upon his shoulder, breathing temptations into his ear.
Revenge. It was not the first thing that came to mind when he thought of his mother. But Chemar breathed her beguiling words into his ear like smooth oil, her body pressed against his so that the expansion and contraction of his torso moved in rhythm with the woman's as if she had become one with him, influencing his body and mind. Revenge, yes. His mother had left him alone in the world, with a father that blamed her death on his son. She left him without a mother to nurture him in his early childhood. She was not strong enough to deliver her child, and she failed him.
Do it. The words flowed into him and encircled his innards like a seductive serpent. Looking down, he saw the bow in his hand, arrow readied. though he did not will his arm to raise, it did nevertheless, and Kovac offered no resistance. The blustery winterstorm swirling around them seemed to fade a bit as the archer stared down the shaft of his arrow, the iron head aimed at his mother's chest. She did not move. All he was aware of was the vanthan woman, himself, and the whispering, warm form of Chemar that he both hated and longed to envelope within himself.
"Take what you deserve...take her life. You've done it before." her words were not accusatory, but spoken with sweet persuasion. And they cut him like a impaling pole. He did do it. He had killed her, she died giving him life. Crushing pain, guilt and anger fell upon his soul as he felt his own fingers release the string. He watched with horror as the arrow streaked across the short distance and plunged into his mother's chest. She had never moved, nor did she release her arrow this time. Wide-eyed, Kovac stared into the swirling hues of the vanthan woman's eyes. He saw love. Love that he had never seen before. No one has ever looked at him like that, not his father, not Kalle, not Shayth. It was the unconditional love of a mother, that which he had never known. As she toppled, dissipating into a dusty heap, Kovac thought it was as if she wanted to die.
The bow lowered, and the mixed-blood stared at the pile of ashes. he felt emotionally exhausted, feeling great loss, and great gain. Chemar moved towards the heap. Her words, spoken no longer with insidious coercion, but with a poignant bit of advice, a truth about a mother he had never known.
Long accustomed with the inability to speak, Kovac simply watched Chemar as she turned towards him, his mother's fresh heart still skewered on his arrow. Her wry grin returned as she removed the arrow and toyed with the organ as if it were a ball, horrifying the man. His eyes met her yellow-rimmed gaze again, and they smiled back at him. Then, she finally yanked free the arrow still lodged in his own shoulder. Kovac felt the iron arrowhead tear through every inch if its withdraw, dragging torn flesh with it. The pain was excruciating, and to his surprise, the air was split by his shriek of agony, almost deafening in his ears. Still unsure of whether he could speak, the point was moot, for he was in too much misery to form words. But his torture was just beginning. His cries and yells and grunts of anguish rang out as he felt his flesh rent open by Chemars hand, peeling back skin and tissue. The dreamwalker seem oblivious to his torment, even giggling as she pulled apart bone to make way for the beating heart in her clutch. His body shook and shifted as she tugged at his torn muscles until she could push the heart into the cavity in Kovac's torso.
Finally she pulled her hands from his chest, leaving the heart within him. Kovac reeled from the experience, looking down with amazed fright at his mother's heart beating in his chest. He panted from the trauma, his breathes coming with sharp, pained grunts. Though he may have been able to speak, Kovac could find no words to reply, only watching with anxiety as the blood-spattered woman returned to him, felt her hands teasingly placed on his hips. Again, she blew her warm breath over his skin, and it knit together as if a goddess had sealed it with her own hand.
Once the opening in his chest was closed, the pain subsiding, tears of agony drying on the man's cheeks, Kovac looked down into Chemar's eyes. he felt distinctly her hands on him, the light touch of her thumbs on the sensitive skin of his stomach. He searched the gold-rimmed eyes for a moment, his emotions, his intent unclear for the first time. Then, a smile fell across his face, a wry grin he was reknowned for.
His hand shot up to Chemar's throat, clamping around it tightly, his hand tilting her head back. Kovac pushed her back a step, holding firm to her neck until a small choking gag was heard. His eyes did not leave her gaze, and with his other hand, he pressed his fingers to his side. Much as the inarta had done, he finger by finger, pushed his hand into his own flesh, just below his ribcage. He grunted in pain, breathing in sharp, hard blasts that sent flecks of saliva to pepper Chemar's face. Finally the man's hand wrapped around the floating rib in his side, and with a sick crack, he twisted his hand until the bone snapped free. He let out a loud cry, his eyes fluttering closed only a moment before fixing again on Chemar's.
Carefully, he pulled the bone from his side, blood seeping from the wound and dripping from his hand. He raised the sharp tip of the rib to the dreamwalker's throat, the tip pricking at her skin. "Yes, Chemar, I am feeling better." He muttered in a strained, hoarse voice. Kovac's face drew nearer to hers, inhaling, she smelt of the scent of the Dreaming Lady. Then the bone was lowered until the tip rested at her side, pressed against her soft skin exposed below her vinati. With a sudden shove, Kovac drove the bone into her side. Her eyes widened and a shriek was stifled in her constricted throat. Pushing the rib into her body, Kovac's hand followed. He guided the bone until the tip rested against her spine, where is adhered instantly. Carefully withdrawing his hand, Kovac raised his hand to his open mouth, dragging the bloody palm across his wet tongue. Then he pressed the messy hand back to the open wound in Chemar's side, rubbing the saliva and blood on the torn skin until it drew closed. Unlike the neat closure that the dreamwalker had made in his chest, the avora's ministrations left a scar along the soft flesh of her side.
Kovac's grip on her throat loosened, and his hand dropped. The other, still dripping, came to rest on the side of her lovely pale cheek. "I know what you did here, Chemar. I am forever grateful that you have given me closure. I have little to give you in return, but what I have left you will always be with you."
His gaze remained upon the woman, who elicited a turmoil of emotions within the man, repulsion, attraction, gratitude, amazement, arousal, horror...all tied up around his core. |