[Gossamer's Scrapbook] The Ethereal Canyon I

[Sira]

The only time I ever really log into chat is during the hour drive from my house to work when my co-worker is driving instead of me. And sometimes on lunch if I am bored. I don't really have an interest in chat unless I need something, or as a last resort to cure my boredom. Mostly because I am rarely interested in the things people have to say. Also, I almost never click on videos or links, people, unless they are Mizahar links. So please.. stop linking stupid videos. I don't care, nobody cares except you, and you probably don't even care that much either.

But yeah, maybe if people were talking about Miz I might stay in chat for more than fifteen minutes at a time. *shrug* We'll see.

[Oluse]

Cool, maybe I'll try going back to chat some time soon. I went in a lot when I first got here, but after getting roped into some rather unpleasant convos I just stopped going in. Hope these changes remain. That said chat is usually just a diversion from the real reason I'm here, to post. So thought the chat is a cool feature I feel like it can be a really annoying pitfall in fun making at times. My favorite rules: if you complain about being bored you are told to go start a thread. Total win.

Thanks for not putting up with any more bullshit Jen. I do love a bullshitless chat. Makes for a squeaky clean and fun loving Jen too <3

[Gossamer]

. RESPECT Respect is a very important thing to me. I try to respect people every day - their thoughts, their feelings, their emotions and most importantly their needs. Mizahar is filled with the Founders respecting the needs of roleplayers everywhere and trying to provide a creative outlet for them. It should be clear with every post we make, ever improvement to the site that happens, and every way we try to establish boundaries on here for people to interact within. To me, respect includes taking someone's feelings, thoughts, needs, ideas, wishes and preferences into consideration. It's basically the makeup of an individual, if you think about it. And so by taking these things seriously you are giving that other person worth and value. Take a minute and think about that. Respect includes acknowledging all of these things about others, listening, being truthful, and accepting their individuality and idiosyncrasies. In creating Mizahar, we took all this into consideration. All of it. Now. We do this for you. We expect you to do this for us. Respect is both something that can be shown and felt. It is our goal to show you respect via all the ways I've outlined above. You don't have to earn our respect. We already respect you. It's a given in the way we've carefully designed this game and allowed for everyone who wants to give something back to contribute. We act in ways which I consider respectful, yet we can also feel respect for someone and feel respected by someone. The fact is lately that hasn't been going on. By that I mean I feel like the players haven't been respecting the staff and leadership of this game at all. Months ago I've started feeling that people just 'want want want want want' to the point where they feel there's a right to get whatever they think they want without any effort or exposure. Do you know how often a staffer hears 'thank you'? Probably not as much as you'd expect. I always think great thoughts of people that take the time to simply say 'thanks' when something gets done for them. Unfortunately there's a lack of those sorts about these days. Chat is just another reflection of this. We have chat rules. We put chat up for folks to interact in real time and discuss their characters, get help, ask questions, and discuss Mizahar. It's not for tomfoolery or those that need attention. Its just what it is. That's it. We ask you to respect that in the same way we respected you by providing you with a place to chat. How is this not a simple concept? I'm not sure. Maybe its youth, excitement, the fact that other chatrooms are for other things besides what Mizahar's is... but its still so far left of respect its not even funny. It just feels like recently that everyone's world is revolving only around them and their needs, at the expense of others. You wouldn't believe how sad this makes me. So utterly and wholly sad. .

[Gossamer]

. Insight Overdo I think. As always, its my scrap. If you don't like it don't read it. Someone once said they believe in their hearts and in their faith that life is just a dream and that we all are dreamers instead of actual voyagers through a situation we can't control. We create our circumstances. If that's true though, wouldn't my dream be perfect for me, aka my life? Wouldn't yours be perfect for you with everyone agreeing? Well maybe not, but I do have the most interesting dreams. No one certainly gets as hurt in them as they seem to get in life, even if that hurt comes of their own actions and attentions. But anyhow... that's off topic to whats on topic in my brain tonight. There's a lot of not taking responsibility for ones actions. Is it the dream? Maybe. Is it the whole Generation Y that sits there privileged with their hands held out wanting them filled without effort? Maybe. Mizahar isn't really the place for that sort of speculation, though my scrap is suitable enough. I've always felt like no one is entitled to anything in this life, not even breath. You earn it. You work for it. You make your own dreams happen. I was sharing this with someone else and they had some colorful insight to chat behavior. I thought I'd share. My friend is a contradiction. They love, they hate, they tolerate infinite amounts of bullshit and seem to grow stronger daily through that. I've watched them really come into their own and temper in the last year. I think, often, they are more intelligent than they give themselves credit for. Today's insight was of this same expected quality of insight. And inspired me to create some signs. Here's a little about what they said and truthfully it makes me think about the situation a whole lot more and get a little more sad and less angry. What they said: "Chat really does a number on people's egos. When you're any kind of celebrity it inflates more than [censored]." "Sit there for hours and listen to people tell you your awesome or see 19 people caps lock your name when you log on. To some, that's better than crack" The conversation went on, but the more I think about it, the more I feel bad for people that have to act out in chat, spam, grandstand, and feel they are above the rules. You probably should too. .

[Gossamer]

. Signs .

[Liar]

I wholeheartedly agree with your first sign. Unfortunately, there are too many people who think the judgement of strangers matters.

Also I approve of the somewhat irrelevant (but wholly attractive) man in them.

[Kadrath Onktaka]

I've never tried the make my own sign thing before but here goes:

[Gossamer]

Lovely!

[Gossamer]

. Its Been A Hell Of A Week I'm on emotional rollercoaster this week ranging from going totally numb to randomly bursting into tears. That sounds terribly weak to me, but its the truth. I'm overworked, been training new people, and have to go in on my sixth day to drive. You see, we had a driver whom I'm really close to call in sick last Saturday. He was a noshow for work Monday and Tuesday. I had to listen to the boss complain about this guy, how insensitive he was, how he was so getting written up, etc. It wasn't like the driver at all. He was one of the nicest guys on the planet and someone I loved seeing every day. Wednesday when his landlady couldn't get ahold of him, she keyed his house door knowing this was completely and utterly unlike him, and found him dead. He was 44. I can't tell you what this did to me, how upset I really am, and how it made my supervisors random comments and anger even worse. Then, probably my best friend at work, the one guy I love the most, collapsed with a massive heart attack thursday. He accepted a load earlier that morning, then as he was having a heart attack, called my boss to say he was not going to be able to take it. He died twice on the operating table and then they docs were able to put him back together. I called his cellphone and just absolutely broke down in his voice mail sobbing, telling him how he was my favorite driver ever and how much we'd all miss him and how we were all thinking of him and that he'd better not die and all this other rambling stuff. I really lost it. He got the message two hours after they took the ventilator off and with his daughter telling him no repeatedly, he called me back barely able to talk to personally reassure me he wasn't going anywhere anytime soon. I'm still sitting here hugely upset. I hate loosing people, especially friends, and especially the people I think have great hearts. Its like the world goes a little greyer when that happens. But we can't keep them forever, we can only enjoy them the length of time we get too. When things like this happen, it makes me want to call my mother and cry on her shoulder or reach out to people whom I might be having difficulties with irl for things that don't really matter after all. But sometimes that is the right thing to do and sometimes its the wrong thing to do. Also, I've been bombed with a lot of questions in my PM box, as to be expected during this big seasonal event. I want to thank each and every one of you who's been patient waiting for answers and who hasn't minded when I've said no or asked you to revise an idea so it suits some parameters we've set up. Thank you for that. Sometimes us ST's and Founders need a bit of a break because this game and its players ends up kinda resembling a nest full of beautiful hatchlings all with their mouths open wanting food - and you just have one delicious juicy worm to give one of them. I can't feed all the chicks atm. I'm barely getting myself fed. Thank you for understanding. .

[Legion]

On phone, so brief.

This week feels like we are all tuned in for The Cosmos Comedy Channel or something equally as ridiculous. You are in my prayers and there are a lot of them going on. You might even say they are legion. (I crack myself up.)

Take care of you,
k.