As the Drykas brother looked out on the courtyard, his frustration over the stalemate between he and his sister continued to eat at him. He did not want to believe he was wrong. Doing so would be admitting he had wronged his beloved sister, that his wife was conniving, and that he had failed them both. He had failed Pygmy and Hex, even Khiara. He was tired of damaging the women around him. But none of those approached the depth of despair he felt at the notion he may lose Kavala. His precious pride was not so valuable as to risk that, though he felt it was already too late to mend what had been done. Then he heard Kavala's cup settle on the table, the rustle as she stood from her seat. Vanator turned as she stopped next to him and reached out to touch him. That simple contact shattered his hardness. Moved by the sudden contact, Van met her rich azure gaze The curtain seemed to pull back between them, her mask fallen away, the sterility of her features softer, more amiable. She was as beautiful as always. Though the stranger's face had faded, Kavala still did not appear as she did when he last laid eyes on her. Over the past two years, life's experiences had seemed to have touched her face making it leaner, more serious, with something intangible that surely was a testimony to the changes those experiences had made on the woman herself. The words she spoke washed over Vanator as spring rain over a smoldering grass fire. She talked to him as Kavala would, the sister he treasured, the same way she always had, honestly and with truth and compassion. He did not know what had inspired her to give him a second chance, but he thanked the gods that she did. His anger, sorrow and frustration drained from him, disarmed by the Konti, his heart lifted yet humbled as she opened to him in her familiar voice. Vanator's passionate Drykas blood often lead him to anger too quickly, his Grasslander pride to easily threatened. His sister knew his flaws, and as often as she tended a minor wound, she had ministered to heal his wounded pride, or gently admonish him for clinging to it so stubbornly. "Kavala," His gaze darted to Akela, acknowledging that he wanted her to hear him as well. "You have to know, I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you. Gods, I love you Kav. I have had no dearer friend than you. You have been my strength when I needed to be strong and my confidence when I had been in doubt. I could not willingly turn against you so lightly." His eyes drifted out again to see the lazy Kelvics, then back to Kavala. "I admit I should not have told Kashik so much about you. I know you guard your personal life closely and I have always honored that about you. I can see where I had violated that... and I apologize, Kav, for betraying your trust." The sincerity of his profession was echoed in his gold-flecked brown eyes. "I do not make it a practice to discuss the details of my family with anyone. I had lived most of the Spring with a Kelvic woman whom I did not even mention Tamar too." He paused, realizing how caddy that sounded. If anything, the past season had revealed to him how his easily shared affections could cause others heartache, including himself. The memory of the hurt and disappointment he had caused Pygmy, Khiara and Hex still haunted him. They were all good women, and friends, and he mourned how those relationships had ended. "Kav, you know I have not been...restrained with whom I have given my heart to since we lost Tamar. But when I met Kashik, there was a connection that I had not felt in a long time. She genuinely cared to learn about me, about who I was, about what I thought was important. I had not had someone to confide in for so long, I guess I allowed my affections to affect my judgment. That is why I told her what I did. I deeply regret violating your trust Kavala." His gaze drifted to the pair of Striders penned at the far end of the courtyard. "I believe you, what you said about Kashik and her visit here. But I don't know if I can believe that her intent was as malicious as you describe. Ironically, had I told her more about you, about your private personality, she may have not been so brash and forward with you. Kashik is friendly, sometimes to a fault. She does not know a stranger, and I don't doubt she poured it on here to try to earn your friendship, using what I told her to try to relate to you. She knows how clans work, how bonds need to be made. But her mistake was assuming you were a typical Drykas woman." He looked back down at Kavala. "Kav, I have only known her a short time. Could your accusations against her be true? It is possible. But father thought enough of her and her pavilion to put us together without knowing we had already met. I love her Kavala, enough to ask her to be my wife, you know that is something I would not take lightly. I have not lost my senses, she does not hold unbridled sway over me. She has done nothing but defer to my will. Father has raised me well, though I know I am not perfect in many ways. I have lived my own life for quite a while now, and I am sure my mother and our father are livid that I made Kashik my wife before an official ceremony. But, in the end, I have finally started a family again, which is what they have been wishing for. I will give them their ceremony in due time." He sighed, relieved to have been able to speak his heart to his sister. "I know you and Kashik are very different people, and you may never reconcile with each other, but I do not want to have to choose between the two of you." For now, Vanator would have to live with the regret that his sister could not trust him with her heart. But at least they were at a beginning again. "I will not ask you to share things you do not wish to discuss, but I hope that I can earn back your trust Kav." He could see it was not easy for her to invite Kashik back into her home, Vanator knew she did it for him. He looked down as she surveyed what she had accomplished at Sanctuary. The pride he felt then was in her. "Thank you Kavala." |