Inari felt her anger disappear in a puff of smoke, and painful bewilderment replace it. She was always this terse with him; that was just the way they were with each other. Why had he taken it so awfully...wrong this time? A few years ago, she might have reacted in tears. After all, if there was one thing as equally unfamiliar to her as poverty or a life of enslavement, it was rejection. The first time it had happened, she had spent months in a horrid wreckage of the shattered bits of her heart and soul, barely able to find the effort to chew what little food she had interest in, let alone stand up and fight her way back to wholeness and sanity. After that, she simply refused to let it happen again. Inari never gave anyone any reason to dislike her, and therefore rarely, if ever, faced the outright spurn of someone she trusted. She'd rather die, though, than admit such a cowardly strategy even existed. But, as things stood, she was much too far past that initial phase of despair and confusion to simply reduce to a heap of useless liquids and even more useless emotions. Instead, her first instinct was to narrow her eyes and grab at Rowan's sleeve, matching glare for glare. "Something's wrong." It wasn't a question. She stared at the back of his head, wishing more than ever she had the power to peer inside of it. Whatever had been eating at him all night was making him act stranger than ever, and despite his usual jokes and shrugs, it was tearing him at the seams. She could see it clear as day, what with the way he was running around, babbling as though a small fire had lit the seat of his trousers. And what was this? Using her aunt as some kind of shield? How horribly, utterly predictable. Inari was going to have none of it. At first. And then, like a quiet cloud of balmy plague, a familiar feeling of dread and hopelessness crept in, blackening her resolve till it was no more than charred bits of will. She was forced to realize, for the thousandth time, that their days of easy friendship had long since died, and so too had all his grand promises of happiness and forevers. She let his sleeve go, her own hand falling uselessly to her side. Her face was blank, and so was her mind. What was the point? Oh, right, there isn't one. "Nevermind. I'm sorry to see you two go so soon, I really am. Enjoy your night." And then she turned to rejoin the ranks of peers and fellow performers behind the back door, carefully rearranging herself back into the composed, wry visage of hostess and storyteller. |