Aren hated those moments when he was lost inside in own head, agonizing over things there was nothing he could do about, but sometimes he just couldn't help but be pulled there. At another stage in their relationship, his brother enjoyed trying to bring those memories which tended to have this effect to the surface of their minds, in an attempt to torment his captor and thus exact some small measure of revenge upon him. This, in turn, was one of the reasons that made Aren believe that his imprisonment was entirely justified.
"The past is past," Seros offered, a sour note in his voice suggesting that if forgiveness was not a possibility, then perhaps forgetting might be a good alternative.
"Yet it makes us who we are." Aren had never been one to shy away from responsibility, however. He couldn't help but remember, and sometimes, the Akalak knew, specters now long dead threatened to swallow him whole. Maybe one day he would simply give up on trying to fight them and recede into his own mind, allowing his brother free reign. Now, at least, that wasn't as horrible a prospect as it once had been. Perhaps in this particular instance, though, that wasn't necessarily a good thing. Luckily, however, Sayana seemed to have a knack for waking him from his reveries. Usually it involved a kiss, or a question... or a saucy suggestion, but the end result was usually the same. He would come back to the world, drawn to her like a beacon, and be himself once again.
Smiling at Sayana's response to his reply on the wound that Orin had caused, Aren's neck craned forward to try to intercept her lips as they moved towards his shoulders. Unfortunately, her "cooking" interrupted the moment, and the Eypharian rose to go check on her endeavor, much to her paramour's dismay. Eventually, her attention turned back to him, but the question she posed provoked a raised eyebrow from the Akalak.
His eyes narrowing, Aren gazed at Sayana with some measure of suspicion at what seemed like a rather carefully worded query. He almost felt like the word magic was the logical conclusion to the way she had phrased her sentence, which would have been perfectly understandable, but the fact that it looked like she consciously altered it put him on edge. Why was she curious now, all of a sudden? It had been over half a season since the day they met, and she had never seemed to demonstrate even the slightest bit of interest in how he had done that performance. Did she already know he was a mage, or was she merely suspicious, Aren wondered. Either way, how had this happened? The number of people in Syliras who knew he was capable of wielding magic could be counted on one hand. Of those, the number of people that the Reimancer was aware of knowing both him and her was even less. Was the question perfectly innocent, and he was just over thinking this out of a sense of paranoia? Or...
"Blessed by the gods...?" Aren smiled, trying to shake off the notion that perhaps somehow she knew something he hadn't quite been ready to tell her yet. If she did know, however, and he lied to her about it, then the trust they had built might be broken, and the Akalak refused to risk such a thing.
"I suppose that's one way of putting it, though anyone could do it, with sufficient practice," He said, being purposely vague about answering the question directly. Perhaps she would be satisfied with his reply, which was technically true, or maybe she would reveal something in an attempt to pry more information from him.
"If she does know... can we think of anyone she's familiar with whom we might have shown?" Seros wondered, his mind immediately going to Sayana's New Year's celebration. Of all the people that were there, who could have seen his brief display, and then had the opportunity and motive to turn around and tell her about it? The Zith certainly saw everything he would need to make the conclusion that Aren was a mage, but he couldn't see the creature having the prerequisite conversation with her needed to reveal this fact. A few others might have gotten a glance or two, maybe that guy who threatened to throw them in the tank, but he didn't seem like he knew Sayana very well at all. Maybe it didn't matter, even if she did know. After all, she was still here, with him, and whilst she seemed curious, the Akalak did not detect the tinge of fear in her voice.
"I trust you, if you think it's a good idea," Aren replied to her offer of medicine, exposing the torn flesh on his forearm, and trying to convince himself that there was no cause for concern. If she knew, it was just one less secret between them. If she didn't, he'd tell her when the time was right. |
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