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She had finished telling him what was on her heart, the feeling of brokenness inside and was expecting sympathy, perhaps some tenderness, but instead she received scolding. It wasn't that she didn't deserve it. She was being stupid and she knew it. Did she even know why she felt broken and insecure one moment and flighty and happy the next? So much bad had come recently, and with it was intermixed good things...very good things. She was dealing with so many struggles in life at the moment and yet had so many good things happen to her that perhaps it was why she felt broken.
"I don't know..." Was all she could say at first. She slowly let go of his hand and moved to set Aneeka down on the rug and fur behind her, wanting full focus of what she was doing. "I just feel that way inside. I feel like these struggles just keep adding onto me, testing me...which maybe it is a test. I've just had so many good things and so many bad things happen to me at the same time that just when I feel I've dealt with something, another bad thing comes to tear me down. I just feel pulled apart inside...broken. You told me last night you loved me, that you want to be my husband..." She now reached out for Phobos, moving the baby who was now chewing on his toy next to his sister. Elann then moved to draw onto Noah's lap, slinging her arms around his neck.
She found her spot there in his arms and then looked up to him. "You told me last night that you loved me and wanted to be my husband," she voiced as if the new position in his lap made her statement all the more clear. "I guess I was afraid that something bad would come again and I didn't want it to be something with us...because I love you too, very much. That is why I asked...I'm sorry Noah."
Her eyes searched his, hoping that his sternness had melted away and the scolding was finished. She knew where she was, that she had broken a barrier between them that they had not discussed, but she couldn't take him being angry at her in the moment. In a way, her behavior was an apology, pleading for forgiveness for her stupidity. The light scent of the winter furs she was wearing could be smelled as well as her normal earthen smell. Her hands upon his neck were slightly warm to the touch, much less so than the previous night, and he could feel that her body was far lighter than it seemed given the exuberant amount of cloth she wore any given day.
She had finished telling him what was on her heart, the feeling of brokenness inside and was expecting sympathy, perhaps some tenderness, but instead she received scolding. It wasn't that she didn't deserve it. She was being stupid and she knew it. Did she even know why she felt broken and insecure one moment and flighty and happy the next? So much bad had come recently, and with it was intermixed good things...very good things. She was dealing with so many struggles in life at the moment and yet had so many good things happen to her that perhaps it was why she felt broken.
"I don't know..." Was all she could say at first. She slowly let go of his hand and moved to set Aneeka down on the rug and fur behind her, wanting full focus of what she was doing. "I just feel that way inside. I feel like these struggles just keep adding onto me, testing me...which maybe it is a test. I've just had so many good things and so many bad things happen to me at the same time that just when I feel I've dealt with something, another bad thing comes to tear me down. I just feel pulled apart inside...broken. You told me last night you loved me, that you want to be my husband..." She now reached out for Phobos, moving the baby who was now chewing on his toy next to his sister. Elann then moved to draw onto Noah's lap, slinging her arms around his neck.
She found her spot there in his arms and then looked up to him. "You told me last night that you loved me and wanted to be my husband," she voiced as if the new position in his lap made her statement all the more clear. "I guess I was afraid that something bad would come again and I didn't want it to be something with us...because I love you too, very much. That is why I asked...I'm sorry Noah."
Her eyes searched his, hoping that his sternness had melted away and the scolding was finished. She knew where she was, that she had broken a barrier between them that they had not discussed, but she couldn't take him being angry at her in the moment. In a way, her behavior was an apology, pleading for forgiveness for her stupidity. The light scent of the winter furs she was wearing could be smelled as well as her normal earthen smell. Her hands upon his neck were slightly warm to the touch, much less so than the previous night, and he could feel that her body was far lighter than it seemed given the exuberant amount of cloth she wore any given day.
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