Barely Hanging On
This time of year is unusually rough for me to be active here on Mizahar. I'm really trying but most of the Pacific Northwest is in turmoil and I've noticed some of my favorite Northwesterners on here have dropped off too. It's not our faults. Let me explain.
We got a monster storm last week. Now while in the context of things its probably not your definition of 'monster storm' but it is for us. We rarely have anything but mild weather and rain all winter long. So when we get snow, it shuts things down. Most of last week was filled with tossing and turning and strange dreams. I went to bed late, work up early, and then did this mad dance of 'watching the news' and surfing the weather channel, going outside, starting at the conditions, getting back inside, etc. The first part of the week was devoted to stocking up and getting supplies for cold weather, snow, power outages, etc.
Then, tues we had our first snow. 10 inches. It shuts things down. Wednesday we got 14 more inches. Thurs we had a mega ice storm and tons of freezing rain. I had two feet of powder and missed work wednesday but managed on thurs to get back. I didn't play much here though because I couldn't settle down. Thurs we were without power but things were back up and running, and friday was a stress day at work filled with 'making up runs' that didn't get delivered on Weds because of the snow.
Now we're raining solid, all the snow is melting, and we're setting up for epic floods. My horse barn is flooded and the horses are standing in water which I can't help. I can't turn them out because my pasture is flooded. They'd be wet either way but at least this way they are wet footed and dry the rest of the places. We still have ice and snow.
Through this whole thing your brain kinda freaks out and shorts out. I sat down a dozen times to write a post and couldn't. It has nothing to do with any retarded 'muse' concept. I am just worried, exhausted, not feeling creative, and a whole host of other things. In the midst of that my car started acting up in the transmission, and my boss threatened to fire me several times for calling in on wednesday.
Yesterday, Saturday, I took a 'me day' and went and got my hair cut, hit the movies, and got my hubby to take me out to dinner. It was an A+ day. We saw Underworld which was great, but way too short and part1 feeling... and today I must go subject myself to my mother since she hasn't seen me in a while and needs Gillar to fix her computer.
I always try to be back early but end up getting back after dark. I woke up at 6am this morning after going to bed at 3am. I'm exhausted but I can't sleep. I don't want to go south, but its really needed. I need to stay home and clean too but that's not happening either.
So anyhow, I've hit the HD and PMs but that's about all I can manage for the moment. I'll try to post when I get home, but I imagine I'll need some pain killers and a nap to even remotely function. I'm not whining, mind you, but just telling you where things are in my life and why I haven't been around a lot this week. |