A thing happened a time ago when I was a different version of me. I was asked to make some words for it and I did. The ones I made then weren't this, but I couldn't sleep tonight because what's here wanted out in the way of all endless fictions. It's rough and I'm tired and good, even, but rough is how it is and, further, I figured if they wanted out so badly I should put them in a place other people could read them.
dead on impact
Wait. Waitwait. Ahem. Owohgod. Heart thrust HUGE scrape it hurts, hurts blinding big unwinding. We aren't meant to deal with this. Can't and fragile OW Where are -- You. Your skin by bonfire and laughs catching up every stray syllable plus my soul. You -- no, not this, not ready. Too soon. Lollipop eyes to wake us up, sticky lips don't let go. Don't. Don't, can't. Shit. Ahem. Wait. Wait I have three billion words but your face is backlit by the gasp of the galaxy we long strayed from the center of and I need, need feel fingers -- yours, yes -- gliding up my arm, crumpled stained with wine sneak touching my hair. HOLD ON. I know. I knowIknowOW. Quick. I'll say it fleet, tongue to teeth like all the hours we aren't going to have. You. Arms snaked, heave of your body brought me back home. I didn't know. Bad voices, trying tunes, mouths opened anyway while treetops watched through car glass and my mother laughed perfectperfect. Fuck. Constricting. Shrink and numb. NO. Wait. Infinity, hold. OW. Ahem. Flaws like joy crunching to fizz and pop - you. Don't let this take that dance from off your shit kicking feet and keep up with yourself, not with Mrs. Jones and not with me 'cause ghosts can't hold, memory can trap, lovelovelove, turn your headlights to a tunnel through this pitch and mire, my dear.. Dear. Ow. Slip and it goes softer. Din is squeezing in itself and I.. I can't.. Listen, you left me reveling. You.. NOnono. God. Crap. Please. YOU. You told me symphonies with your glance. You I love. You. You remember that. Immobile. GaspscreechairthroatOW. Wait. WAIT. You.. I love. Just that. Light. Love that I love you. Love you. I love youiloveyouiloveyouiloveilo |