[Casper's Scrapbook] Doodle For Your Thoughts

by **Casper** on May 6th, 2012, 7:38 pm

Oh hey look I have a scrapbook now. I don't know what my plan was when I started making this thread, and I really haven't come up with anything in the process. So, what's up. Yeap. I dunno, I make a lot of doodles and thought I'd post miz-related stuff here. Seems appropriate, or something.

But honestly, I have a feeling that I'll just rant a lot in a bit.

by **Musca** on May 7th, 2012, 9:36 am

by blue-isle
Relax, it ain't a competition. Rant away, I'm all ears. Or eyes. Whatever.

by **Casper** on May 11th, 2012, 9:26 pm

Ah Musca, you hippie XD

So, I get confused by myself quite easily. It happens often. And I realized a few days ago that I have no idea why or how the hell I went about creating Casper's character. IRL, I tend to be an incredibly silly person who makes stupid jokes all the time, while Cas is this broody type of dude who takes everything seriously. Now, as much as I'm loving RPing him and everything, I feel like I might be messing up his reactions or being too rigid about them since I think so differently from him, as much as I try to put myself in his shoes. Plus, I don't know why I went with a guy for my first character since I'm a girl, I mean, I'm just challenging myself for no reason here.

I don't know, maybe I was influenced by how Mizahar is a very serious place, so I thought I should make a serious character. It's made it really hard for me to draw stuff too, because I have a very silly style and drawing more realistically is ridiculously time consuming. But that's a great challenge, I feel like I've already improved so much in my skills from all the effort I put into Musca and Erudite's character drawings

. It's great fun, to go out of your comfort zone. Well, my more personal doodles are far from realistic XD, and I did say I'd share my doodles in this scrapbook so:

Well, I wouldn't go so far as to say that this is an excerpt from my thread with Ana but rather that I was just inspired, I guess. Stuff is going down in the thread is going down much more "seriously"

, of course. Though I do find the prank that Ana pulled on poor Cas to be exceptionally funny.

by **Casper** on May 15th, 2012, 12:34 pm

That Awkward Moment When...

So, I had to go to the dentist earlier, which is definitely on my list of worst experiences ever due to a bit of an irrational phobia of everything that has to do with dentistry. It didn't go too badly even though I was sweating and fidgeting and all of that. And after the worst is over, I'm like "cool, let's go home," except I almost pass out and have to sit down for a few minutes, which is definitely not supposed to happen after treating a tiny cavity.

So, I have a phobia to the point of blacking out? Shit, that's bad. Not to mention I have dentist appointments lined up for me throughout the next 2 months at least, so I have to figure out a way to deal with this. If any of you have had any experience dealing with phobias, I'd really like to know how you calm yourself down or whatever, because I certainly can't.