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"Yes you have."
Zhol couldn't remember ever saying words with as much certainty as he said those. His brow furrowed, not in confusion or disapproval, but in sheer determination at how vital it was that he made himself understood. His hands shifted, gently, not suddenly; they slid beneath her forearms, twisting enough to take hold of her hands, raising them both to hang in the air between them. His thumbs gently caressed the length of her fingers, but his eyes never for a second broke their steadfast gaze into hers.
"Your mother looked at you like you were nothing," he echoed quietly, twisting Khara's words and story around to tell an entirely different view, "Merely because you did not live up to the expectations she chose for you. You want to be angry at her for not loving you unconditionally, but every time you try, all you see is the disappointment in her eyes, and all you feel is shame, and blame; it's your fault for not being good enough; it's your fault for letting her down."
A soft sigh escaped him; the faintest flicker of a bitter smile tugging at his lips. "I know that pain. I feel that pain." Gently he moved her hands, laying them against his chest, holding them there with his own. "I feel it here, every time my doubts speak to me with the voice of my father; every time I close my eyes and see his hate and disappointment staring back."
He fell silent, one hand breaking away to reach out towards her, brushing a loose strand of ginger hair back into place, tucked behind her ear. His fingers lingered against her skin a few moments longer than they should have; he found it hard to care. "I failed at every craft and skill I tried, the same as you. I lived in fear of falling off the bottom of society and into the mud below, same as you. Even here, even now, even as an Avora, I am still an outsider to these people, and I am seen as being less than I truly am, the same as you."
His hand settled into place against her shoulder, the backs of his fingers gently stroking down the soft skin of her neck. He shouldn't, but he was; he pushed the reluctance aside. "We are the same, Khara; and we understand what no one else can. If your mother, your friends, your peers, your people, your family; if they cannot give you the unconditional love and respect that you deserve, then ignore them. Forget them. Make a new family."
Only now did his eyes and his hands reluctantly fall away; his gaze was almost pleading when it finally climbed back to her. "Count me as the first, if you like."
Zhol couldn't remember ever saying words with as much certainty as he said those. His brow furrowed, not in confusion or disapproval, but in sheer determination at how vital it was that he made himself understood. His hands shifted, gently, not suddenly; they slid beneath her forearms, twisting enough to take hold of her hands, raising them both to hang in the air between them. His thumbs gently caressed the length of her fingers, but his eyes never for a second broke their steadfast gaze into hers.
"Your mother looked at you like you were nothing," he echoed quietly, twisting Khara's words and story around to tell an entirely different view, "Merely because you did not live up to the expectations she chose for you. You want to be angry at her for not loving you unconditionally, but every time you try, all you see is the disappointment in her eyes, and all you feel is shame, and blame; it's your fault for not being good enough; it's your fault for letting her down."
A soft sigh escaped him; the faintest flicker of a bitter smile tugging at his lips. "I know that pain. I feel that pain." Gently he moved her hands, laying them against his chest, holding them there with his own. "I feel it here, every time my doubts speak to me with the voice of my father; every time I close my eyes and see his hate and disappointment staring back."
He fell silent, one hand breaking away to reach out towards her, brushing a loose strand of ginger hair back into place, tucked behind her ear. His fingers lingered against her skin a few moments longer than they should have; he found it hard to care. "I failed at every craft and skill I tried, the same as you. I lived in fear of falling off the bottom of society and into the mud below, same as you. Even here, even now, even as an Avora, I am still an outsider to these people, and I am seen as being less than I truly am, the same as you."
His hand settled into place against her shoulder, the backs of his fingers gently stroking down the soft skin of her neck. He shouldn't, but he was; he pushed the reluctance aside. "We are the same, Khara; and we understand what no one else can. If your mother, your friends, your peers, your people, your family; if they cannot give you the unconditional love and respect that you deserve, then ignore them. Forget them. Make a new family."
Only now did his eyes and his hands reluctantly fall away; his gaze was almost pleading when it finally climbed back to her. "Count me as the first, if you like."
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