[Aidara's Scrapbook] It's Real For Us

by **Siiri** on March 15th, 2012, 1:06 pm

1. I read Cay's post first and I thought, "Wait, what? Did something happen to me?" And then I scrolled up.

2. I'm glad you're okay Jubes.

by **Aidara** on March 17th, 2012, 10:29 pm

You know, Siiiiiiriiii, every time I see those iPhone commercials where they're talking to the Siri thing, I think of you. Just thought you should know

by **Paragon** on March 19th, 2012, 5:38 pm

I'm a slooowww read atm, but I'm absolutely loving Ruins of Ambria! Thanks for showing it to me ^^

by **Indigo** on March 20th, 2012, 7:39 pm

Valuable gift for you for those extra 'special' moments like last night...

card :

by **Aidara** on March 24th, 2012, 4:24 pm

Luke- I'm so glad that you love them! I am currently in the middle of the Dresden Files series but I have Daggerspell ready and waiting in the wings as soon as I finish. I'm excited to read it!

Lisa- Hahahaha! That totally almost made coffee come out of my nose. And it's a good thing it didn't because I doubt I would have found it very amusing if it had

by **Aidara** on March 29th, 2012, 6:38 pm

Ugh! I feel like I have SO much to catch up on!

Ian finally, FINALLY, got his own computer so I have my laptop back to myself!!!!! Until this point, the whole month of March has seen me running around like a chicken with my head cut off, busy to the point where I couldn't find any time to Miz or do anything else that I wanted. Further restricted in my downtime, Ian had to use my computer for school and with his five heavy hitting classes, he always had homework or an exam going on. So that left me with zero time at all. I am not bitchy enough to demand to use the only computer when he's trying to pass classes. School > Everything else.

But I'm back now! And though I have done my best to answer PM's and keep up on current events on my phone, I feel so so so so behind. I have used my short computer moments to keep up with my Mod account and try to make sure that Phoenix's posts get answered. All my other Pcs have fallen by the wayside and I apologize to anyone who is waiting on me.

I don't even know where to start!

by **Aidara** on April 20th, 2012, 5:15 pm

It really makes me sad how little time I have had to write lately. Wind Reach is growing dusty because I don't even have the time to log on and check to make sure it hasn't blown up in my absence. This is actually one of the first days since before my mom came to visit that I was able to open the website on something other than my phone.

For those that even noticed, I'm still here. I'm not disappearing or going any where. As it happens to everyone at one point or another, Real Life is simply eating me alive.

by **Aidara** on May 16th, 2012, 7:01 am

Why?

So, after my DVR decided to be a little brat last night and not record and of the shows I have scheduled, I missed House.

Then, I waited all day today for the 24 hour mark in hopes that it would be OnDemand and I could catch it there. No luck.

So I tried hulu, piratebay and fox.com. Nada.

I paid $2.99 on iTunes just so I didn't have to wait 8 days to watch it.

... I don't know if it's because I'm overly emotional right now (gotta love girl problems) or because of all of the stresses that I've been feeling lately...but I absolutely bawled like a little baby.

Ive always had some kind of abandonment issues, but nothing major. Make fun of me all you want, but when I attach myself to something, no matter what it is, it's hard for me to let go. I sobbed on the episode of The Office when Michael left.

Unfortunately, I am not one of those women who can cry prettily. It's a mess.

So yeah.. snotty nosed, blotchy, sniffly, overly emotional, crybaby Jules is sad. I don't want House to end. I don't want to let go of Wilson. I want everything to be happy, with puppies and rainbows, damnit. I'm going to be absolutely devastated next week. Just a warning.

by **Aidara** on May 19th, 2012, 3:36 am

Girl Stuff
Don't worry about it.

So, I haven't continued on with Weight Watchers. I found myself obsessing over food. I thought about it all the time, even when I wasn't hungry. Although I wasn't necessarily thinking about eating the food all the time, I was wondering what I would be able to eat for dinner, points wise, or would I have enough for ___ resturant I was invited to go eat out at. I turned down a lot of invitations because it was just too difficult sometimes to figure out what the points values were for each part of the meal.

Don't get me wrong- WW is an AWESOME program. It taught me portion control when I didn't even realize I was over-eating. It made me look at the nutrition labels and learn to, at a glance, decide whether it was worth the bad ingredients or not. But, at this point in my life, it's not worth being on the program if I am not going to do it right.

So, I lost 20 pounds in 2 1/2 months. It's been about a month since I stopped doing weight watchers, and while I've not dropped a considerable amount of weight comparitavely, I haven't gained any either. None at all. I look at this as a positive:

I have re-taught myself how to eat and I actually lost those 20 pounds. Lots of diets have you shed the weight in a snap but the second you deviate from the diet, you go right back to what you were. I'm proud that I've kept it off.

I also feel proud of myself that I am able to control my urges now, also. Its HARD to get all that junk food out of your system because you crave it so. I've gone quite a while without eating crappy things (Everyone slips up a little bit and I know I have) and I just feel better. Chips were my kryptonite and I just couldn't say no. Even if there are some in the house now, I can just turn away. It's not worth it. It's just not.

The downside: None of my clothes fit. Not only that, but since I don't have a job right now, I don't have the money to go buy clothes. Buying clothes is expensive, even if you shop clearance.

But I got a pretty dress today. And another pair of jeans are now a couple sizes too big. While I am excited about that, it's drastically cutting down on my already less-than fabulous wardrobe.

I'm not a fashionista. I'd rather be comfortable than "in". That said, I've never enjoyed shopping. None of the clothes that I liked would fit, I'd look like a huge ball of ugly (in my own eyes) and it was just depressing. The fact that I willingly decided to walk into a store and try on some dresses says a lot. A LOT. I have some self esteem back.

Yippee!

by **Aidara** on May 19th, 2012, 5:02 am

It's True Love.
if maybe a little dyslexic.