[Aidara's Scrapbook] It's Real For Us

by **Traverse** on July 4th, 2013, 2:55 pm

Its funny because the woman and the bird in your boxcode are looking up at the cat GIF like "Whaaaa....?"

by **Phoenix** on July 6th, 2013, 12:42 am

Hey, my Mizahar loves.

I am so sorry that I have been largely absent this week. I've been keeping up with my PMs and helping out here or there when I can, but I haven't been posting. It's been the week of hell.

I am home for reasons that are not the best. My grandfather is dying and my mother flew me home at the last minute so that I could be here. We don't know when it's going to happen, just that it is. It makes it especially hard for me to be so far away from my family while I'm at school in California because... well, we aren't rich. Not by a long shot. I almost couldn't even make this trip back to RI.

So, I have been coping the best that I can. I am sure those of you who talk to me often realize that I've been getting quieter and quieter, but it's simply because I am getting sadder and sadder and I just don't know how to deal with it. I've been keeping mostly to myself since I got back and not letting anyone know what was going on, And I am sorry, I don't mean to pull away. It has just been one thing after another that I havent really been able to fully cope with something before the other shoe drops and frankly I'm feeling very overwhelmed by not only my own emotions, but everything that everyone here in my Real Life is committing me to.

When I got back here, I was hit with the news that my other grandmother on the other side of the family is quickly succumbing to Alzheimer's, and I found out because I went over to pay her a visit and she didn't know who I was. It's been really hard to deal with.

Long story short, I am here but I am not my usual self.

x

by **Phoenix** on July 6th, 2013, 6:27 am

by **Vanator** on July 6th, 2013, 11:13 am

Jules, my heart goes out to you. I will share my thoughts with you in private. Left you a message on AIM.

by **Stardust** on July 6th, 2013, 4:56 pm

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry to hear that! If there is anything that I can do, please let me know! It's so tough when there's health problems in family members. So very very tough and extremely heartbreaking. I wish I could give you a billion hugs! <3