Listen, I could care less what you (the reader) are doing right now. I just want you to know that this number 1-800-273-8255 is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline in the USA. If you or anyone you know is thinking about suicide please don't think they are joking around and call the number. If you live outside of the USA (Which I knew a good number of our members do) than play with this map
http://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_CentresI am telling you this as I have lost someone close to me within the past week. A friend I have known for about 5 years took their own life and hours beforehand they told people on facebook. I called the number above when I got home and saw the status message and in turn they gave me the number to the police in the area where they lived. While the officer at first sounded bored when I told the word "Suicide" they jumped up and brought in 911 on the line.
I was just to late it would seem.
I won't be able to attend the funeral due to the location but I wish the family the best I can offer.
I wish I knew beforehand but I am sure everyone does. Just a few days before the event we were talking over skype and we were making plans for her to come down to where I live and spend time out here for the spring. That day I even talked to her little girl and watching a movie with them on netflix. For x-mas she said she was planning to get me a copy of borderlands 2 so I would play with her online even if I had it on the pc.
Just a few days before that we were talking about outfits. She got a new one on ebay and I was talking about once the weather was cooler how I would be wearing suits out and about with my fedoro hat and pocket watch.
It's the small things you know?
I have not vented yet. Have not broke down in tears and done anything to really talk about it until tonight. Really past few nights I have been drinking. Listen kids, drinking when your sad does not help. First hand talking.
I miss her. I really do. I don't make many friends. Rather blunt and well I can be a few choice words off mizahar. I know this and people know this. Yet I am the type that will give you the shirt off my back if you need it.
I have not posted for Vick in a few days. Please understand if you are waiting for me to reply than please wait a bit longer. With how he deals with the dead right now I just can't write about it.