Faces and Labels
Yesterday, I made a mistake and started an arguement in chat. It was rude, and sudden, and the reason for it was that someone said hi to me. Someone whom I didn't know, apart from a single occasion where they had offended me. At the time, I was not even particularily mad.
I was called a newb, and someone who shouldn't speak out of turn. The person appeared to me as a
bitch. That was what I concluded, and then thought that I didn't care.
When the person whom I had attached this title to suddenly appeared in chat and did no wrong, the only thing I knew about them was that it was a bitch. Someone who was rude, and whom I didn't like. I hadn't forgotten, and so I reacted not to the person I didn't know but to the title, label and face that I had given them based on a single action.
It wasn't planned, and it wasn't because I enjoy drama. I was a
raging idiot.I have a very tedious job with physical work, and as I walked I thought about it and came to the conclusion that I had now attached a face and a label to myself. Instead of trying to resolve anything, I had made matters worse by showing everyone the worst side of me. Just as the original person whom I am certain is not a bitch and does not want to be, I am not a raging idiot and I do not want to be.
Faces and labels are easy to give and to receive, and most arguements and fights are essentially coming from ignorance. I would like to remove the labels that I attached to the person I was arguing with, and apoligize for the way I did behave. I hope you will do the same.
This is my face down here. I am not a raging idiot named Talen I am just a young man named Lars.