When You're Young "You give what you give cause they make you Trapped inside a place that won't take you And they want you to be what they make you It's already over and done When you're young" This topic is something that is a big one for me. While I feel mature I know I am young, or at least younger. Most people I interact with are much older than me. It is not that I am upset about this fact. It's more so that it just gets me thinking. I really want to make people proud and like me. I know it is silly. I cannot make everyone proud but I really want to. I want people to see me as a capable because I don't want to be seen as an age, but as my skills. I am touched when people say "Oh! You are seventeen? You are so mature for a teenager/You write so well for a teenager!" Trust me, it makes me feel seven kinds of happy. In the same stroke, I want people to see that not everyone my age is a group of nut jobs. It is not just on people older than me. I am not sitting here saying "Adults! Stop looking at teenagers as a bunch of dorks!" because really, we are. The majority of people my age can me immature, idiotic, and disrespectful. I've seen it in schools, I've seen it in my friends, I've even seen it just walking around in public. People my age want to be seen as adults but they act like total idiots. It is on teenagers to try to act the way they want to be treated. You want people to respect you as an adult? Okay, then don't go out drinking or mouth of people just because. No one is going to just start respecting you because you have made it into high school/college. You gotta earn it. On the other hand, there are people who do act mature and try to set a good example and they are treated like the dorks who are really, the worst of the group. I've been through a lot with with living with my dad and his wife. They really were not mature at all and it forced me to grow up a lot sooner than I should have. If you are not getting what I mean, put yourself in this scenario. If you disagree with something I say, you are not getting any presents for the holidays. Something like that causes you to be mature hella fast. In the end, I can only try to seem mature. People are going to look at me and see what ever they want. I can only try to do my best to make people see me the way I want to be seen. What really tends to bother me is when I try REALLY hard to have people like me, like go out of my way kinda hard, and they still treat me like some whatever just sitting around. It really makes me want to stop trying to be nice and friendly. I put a lot of thought into this. Why do I try so hard to impress people who really don't care one way or another about me?" Why put effort into people who are going to idolize others who don't try as hard as me? I really think hard about this because if you think about it logically, it makes no sense. That is the beauty of it. There is no reason to work my tail off to impress people who don't give to shakes about what I do to try and be friendly with them. I just need to stop. If have tried and tried again to make someone see me and appreciate me and they are not responding, they aren't worth my time. I know I am better than that. I know that I deserve to associate myself with people appreciate me even when I am not trying to impress them. The bottom line is, I am going to try to stop putting so much effort into the people who don't appreciate me and more into those who do. I think it will make me much less stressed out. |