by Kane Roth on July 30th, 2010, 11:59 pm
"Whether you stay or leave makes no difference to me, it's up to you."
Finishing the exchange by putting the choice back into Kane's hands Maya departed, leaving Kane to think over the matter on his own, which without having to mention caused Kane irritation. Should he stay? Obviously he was getting on her nerves, though whether he should or not? He couldn't answer, watching as she vanished inside the shop, a clear decision eluding him as he pondered. He was here on her behalf, and she had said that it made no difference to her... though many times people could be fickle in that respect, speaking one thing and thinking another. Of course, he didn't want to over-impose himself, doing such would make him no better than the man she'd previously mentioned. So he thought on the matters, finding a small bench nearby to take a rest on as he debated mentally whether to stay or to go, the stone bench allowing for a rigid if not cool seat. She probably has better things to do than have you over her shoulder all day. Kane allowed his head to rest in his left hand, his elbow propped on the armrest, Of course, what if that fellow she'd mentioned before manages to reappear? What good would she be against such an adversary? Recalling easily enough how her lack of experience with a blade had showed itself the night prior, Kane's mind provided a quick rebuttal, Don't want to stalk the poor girl, honestly, she's barely 20, if not that! You're almost a decade her senior, shouldn't be carousing around with such girls. But what of the moral side of things, what was the 'good' thing to do? Was there a good thing to do in this scenario? I mean you are doing good aren't you? Helping others, isn't that why you came here? Technically it was true, all of it really, the 'black and white' perspective having been expected in his new life being quite far from the truth, all of the canvas seeming to have been woven in a vast swath of gray.
Perhaps it's for the better that I go. Kane looked about, watching many of the plebeians of the city go about their daily quest, whatever it might've been, Kane almost envying them. Such simple lives, untouched by the evils forbidden at the gates of Syliras by the will of the Knights, it was quite tempting, really, to just slip into the crowd, disappear, and lead a simple life. Not bothering anyone, keeping to himself, perhaps raising a family... all of it very nice, though his sins had forbidden such, their cries demanding retribution, the scales of justice needed to be leveled--if not tipped--before he could just... live. But then again, perhaps she didn't want him to go, what if she wanted him to stay? Such was possible, Kane could not deny, the whims of a great many people were beyond his understanding, for he couldn't read her mind. Still, he needed to do something, and if he didn't do this just what would he do today? Oil more leather or sharpen a blade? He couldn't afford to throw around money at the tavern, no matter how tempting that might sound. So he decided to sit, blade in the scabbard beside him, waiting for Maya to conclude her business in the glassworks.