I'm so glad y'all liked that article. I got a lot from it too.
Forward Motion
I used to hate running. It was something I did because I wanted to stay in shape but completely sucked at any other sport save for swimming. I am a complete klutz and have a permanent case of the dropsies. So I ran, and I also swam because I live on an island and life on the water means swimming is second nature, but I didn’t like it really. I just liked it more than the other options. I also used to smoke and that obviously didn’t help the whole running thing in any way. When I got sick last year, I had to stop. I was physically unable to walk for a week and to walk without assistance for at least two more weeks. When I was finally able to retire the old-lady walker, I was still just sort of shuffling. So obviously running was out.
A few months went by and I was released to essentially “power walk”, but real running was still a no-go. I did that as often as I could, but it wasn’t the same and I hated it even more than I hated running. I only kept up with it because I was determined to get my strength back and by then I thought my prescribed physical therapy was a joke. (Before that point, I thought it was an unconquerable country; but things change, and heal.) Then I had another bump in the health and so it got pushed out again. By the time I was released to run again the first day was so terrible that I had to stop halfway through and sit down on the side of the road and, yeah, actually cry. I’m pretty sure I wept. We’re talking scare-the-neighborhood-kids ugly cry. It hurt. My body wasn’t working. Everything was different, and harder.
Up until recently I only ran sporadically. It hurt too much to do every day or even often, and not just physically. I had a much, much more minor thing done by the doctor a couple weeks ago and was released this past Friday to do “whatever” again. Monday, I ran. And, guys? I don’t know what all has changed, though I can make a few guesses as to some of them, but it was wonderful. It was all it used to be, and more.
I didn’t hate it. I loved it. I wasn’t as good and couldn’t go as long or as far, but I still loved it. I ached but felt great afterwards. So I did it again this morning before work, and the grace of it stayed. I feel good. Lighter. And propelled in the right direction again.
So, hey. I need some new music. Anyone have any suggestions as to good songs to run to? |