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[Gossamer's Scrapbook] The Ethereal Canyon

Postby Gossamer on August 7th, 2015, 4:30 am



Just a quick note.

I'm going to catch up on my HD tickets and PMs Friday and Saturday. I'm working both days, but hopefully not long on friday (I already took a half day off for being sick - and came home sick today) because I'm fighting a bit of a chest/throat thing. My goal is to be ALL caught up by Sunday and back to rping on threads then. I even whined and got Gillar to stay home tonight to take care of me because I didn't want to be sick alone. :(


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Postby Tribal on August 7th, 2015, 8:17 am

Feel better soon, Jen. Lots of rest and water!
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Postby Rosela on August 7th, 2015, 1:12 pm

Sorry you're not feeling too hot :( Don't work too hard!
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Postby Gossamer on August 16th, 2015, 3:14 am

Moody As Hell


I've been listening to some dark and throaty music all day. There are some fantastic artists out there. This is my stand out favorite. Leonard Cohen doesn't get enough attention. This song makes me want to write an epic almost suicidal fight scene that ends with my character falling to her knees bloody after cutting down all the enemy in the name of justice.

Anyhow, play the song.



Following that there'd be her glorious death, of course. Too bad nothing that exciting ever happens.
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Postby Pulren Marsh on August 16th, 2015, 5:15 am

One of my favorite Leonard Cohen songs is called The Future. It is on my writing playlist for Pulren. Let's make exciting things happen, people. To the death!
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Postby Gossamer on August 16th, 2015, 6:38 am

This is the city of Chelan in Washington State tonight.
No matter how bad your life is,
please remember there are people that are facing unbelievable horrors.
If you look closely, those are homes and businesses burning.
The camera man in the boat (a friend's Uncle) was saying
the heat coming off the city was intense.



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Now, tell me about your problems again?
How would you feel being this man watching helplessly as his world goes up in ashes?
Is it really that bad what you are facing in comparison?
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Postby Ornea on August 16th, 2015, 9:19 am

I like Leonard Cohen, his music, and also the artist. Some artists are like a sparkle that burns for period of time but doesn’t last.
Others are like flames that lastforever. Leonard Cohen is one of those flames.

It's nice to see somebody post his music.

I watched a fantastic interview with him once upon a time. It's from 2001. It's the kind of stuff I'll never forget.

Thought I’d post it, so I found it on youtube. It’s in English of course, but with some short narrative parts in Swedish. The version with English subtexts to those comes in three parts.

Here it is.

Part one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ds7rFWUxpvU
Part two: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1eJIudmMBWc
Part three: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HmTM-HAZu1U

It’s one of the best and most interesting artist interviews I know.The best. I wasn’t able to not watch it again. If you get time, watch it.
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Postby Ball on August 16th, 2015, 1:39 pm

Holy crap, those poor people in Chelan. I can't say I ever had to deal with a situation like that. I know my cousins and aunt and uncle did to some fashion when Katrina hit their home, and I know the flood of 1972 hit my hometown pretty hard I guess... But I can't imagine a fire consuming a whole city, that's just scary.
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Postby Gossamer on August 30th, 2015, 9:25 am

The Long Road


My best friend died the last week in May. That was incredibly hard. Then my mother died June 1st. All of June and July have been a blur to me. There was a huge deal settling my mother's affairs. Then there was a battle with lawyers, banks, relatives, etc. I went from one place to another confused, dazed, and a whole lot lost. I went through a series of phases of grief that ended in a whole lot of pissed off. I had to deal with that anger somehow. I stayed the hell away from Mizahar because of it. My patience was threadbare and my tolerance non existent. And how I dealt with that was pretty interesting, at least to me, in retrospect. Going through it in the middle of it then and there it was just confounding. Looking back its probably textbook classic, but now that its almost over, I have to chuckle to myself.

When you go through tragedy, you learn who your friends are. They are the ones that stay up late or get up early and check on you. They are the ones that call you out of the blue and just chat about nothing. They are the ones that text you a joke for no reason whatsoever. And they are the ones that drive by just to make sure you are doing okay.. and sometimes stop to lend a quiet hand if you are outside doing something they think they can pitch in with. Friends are the ones that wade in when you are lost and take your hand and tell you everything will be okay and make phone calls for you because you are crying too hard to make them for yourself.

Friends don't have to be people. They can be souls trapped in other bodies that love and laugh and have all the same needs as people but just aren't people shaped. I have always liked those types of friends too, and have a deeper more heartfelt appreciation of them now than I had before. They just don't let you down. They are unselfish on a level I don't think us humans can understand.

Faith also becomes more important and something to lean on. I've leaned heavily. Believe me.

So back to that pissed off. I had to do something... constructive with all that pissed off. Its really hard to explain. Really hard. But I felt myself changing and everything around me was the same. It was.... unacceptable. How could everything be different suddenly inside and everything on the outside be the same? I couldn't allow that. It was so wrong to me. I was touched and utterly different inside... but my outside was the same. I wanted to scream. I wanted to destroy it all. I wanted everything to change as much on the outside as I'd changed on the inside.

I threw away practically all my clothes. I kid you not. I got a whole new wardrobe. But it wasn't enough. New makeup and a fresh haircut wasn't enough. It still didn't reflect how I was actually feeling. I was different. And with the horrible drought we'd been facing in Washington State, it even felt like the world itself - the climate - was different.

We had 90 and 100 degree days end on end and it was something we'd never seen before. Washington was burning up like I was burning up. Fires started. We were under evacuation watch several times. I joined a group that was newly forming for my county all about emergency preparedness. I met new people. Some I had to explain that I was 'under transition' and that I wasn't sure me was me. And some of them completely understood and I made new friends too. I'm getting my ham operator license. I'm an animal evacuation coordinator now. But still these changes weren't enough.

My husband once told me it was impossible for me to do something only 'a little bit'. Yea. I guess that's true. Nothing was enough. Nothing made me happy.

Now... I'm finally happy. It only took the whole month of August to do it. And at this last week utterly free of work. I took vacation. Me. One who never takes vacation took an entire week off and didn't worry one bit about doing so. August became a blur. We gutted and remodeled the house on a whim. How could I be so different when my house stayed the same? The carpet - the carpet I hated - got yanked and hauled to the dump. Furniture got hauled to the dump as well. I wanted something.... something incredibly different. I wanted something no one had to reflect the uniqueness inside me.

I created a pinterest board filled with inspiration. Some of the very same furniture pinned there I bought to put into my new space and some of the pictures are of my actual place (like the metal tree on the orange wall). The new stuff is more me than anything I owned already and it wasn't colored by the judgement of my family. I didn't have to think twice about what color I wanted the majority of the living room. I only had to decide on the flooring to pick the exact perfect shade. I ended up deciding on hardwood floors in a hickory that's super warm (its on the board) and took the piece to the paint store and Ralf Lauren's Istanbul jumped off the wall of chips at me (also on the board). Then I remembered this quote.

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You see... orange is a special color. It's always been special.



The color orange radiates warmth and happiness, combining the physical energy and stimulation of red with the cheerfulness of yellow.

Orange relates to 'gut reaction' or our gut instincts, as opposed to the physical reaction of red or the mental reaction of yellow.

Orange offers emotional strength in difficult times. It helps us to bounce back from disappointments and despair, assisting in recovery from grief.

The color psychology of orange is optimistic and uplifting, rejuvenating our spirit. In fact orange is so optimistic and uplifting that we should all find ways to use it in our everyday life, even if it is just an orange colored pen that we use.

Orange brings spontaneity and a positive outlook on life and is a great color to use during tough economic times, keeping us motivated and helping us to look on the bright side of life.

With its enthusiasm for life, the color orange relates to adventure and risk-taking, inspiring physical confidence, competition and independence. Those inspired by orange are always on the go!

The color orange relates to social communication, stimulating two way conversations. A warm and inviting color, it is both physically and mentally stimulating, so it gets people thinking and talking!

Orange aids in the assimilation of new ideas and frees the spirit of its limitations, giving us the freedom to be ourselves. At the same time it encourages self-respect and respect of others.


So flooring, walls, a giant dark chocolate sectional, a rug that blended all the best of the colors of everything else into the room, and little touches that make it more like home. It's done. There's just tiny little things left.. a few original art pieces to finish, some curtains to hem, etc. Then its utterly done. The last piece of the equation is a breakfast nook I'm awaiting arrival on (from china - shipped unfinished so I could finish it myself in white and seaglass) and a dinning room table for my absolutely tiny dining room. I want the tall type, such as you find in a fine dining area. Once I find the perfect one, I'm done.

The room is decorated with Windstones and my zillions of crystal skulls and a whole host of things I love but have kept hidden away for years.

I feel better. My outside matches my inside. We did all the work ourselves and its been a labor of love. Gillar has trusted my color and taste at every turn, leaving this healing process up to me but assisting when he was needed and putting in every single plank of new flooring himself. I hauled endless runs to the recycle (flooring boxes pile up) and then took endless runs to the dump, appliance recycle, and a whole host of other things.

And that's a relief. We just have art to go on the walls now - stuff I need to finish based on pieces I like but don't quite like enough to buy - or things I want to create based on my imagination or the slowness I have to make things at stained glass class.

Its all coming together. I go back to work Monday morning early - 1am - and start two weeks of 6 days a week work making up for vacation time. And once I'm back to work, I'm going to focus on Mizahar more. I'll get the help desk caught up. I'll restore the monthly awards. Things should get back to normal. It will take me some time to get completely back into the swing of things - the habits of writing - and then making all the changes at the first I need to make. That means closing some cities, rearranging some domains, following through on things that people I suspect think I'm not going to do. I am. I assure you. The process might be slow, but it will be something we need to do in order to keep Mizahar functioning.

I'll write more about that on the first though. I'll try and have most of it set up and worked through by Monday. I have a very early day then and am off by 9am usually. That gives me the entire day to work through some Miz stuff that needs caught up on.

Anyhow, I hope this scrap explains where I've been and whats been going on with me. That's its sole purpose.

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Postby Ball on August 30th, 2015, 2:04 pm

Goss I am glad that you are gotten through the death of people real close to you in a manner that worked, I really can't say anything more beyond that because really, you have done exactly what you needed to do.
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